To K.P

 Kayla just know that im sorry hope my life read by you even if its just qwerty you might not see yourself as immature but my child I worry. what's to say bout pauly boy turnin 40? hope i aint on 4 if even if 4 got my leverage above dirty fuck ok i aint sure where i was going with this but pre-pubescent no further remark it just is What more can I say Kay, P. really all that counts is your say by that need i any further with gay? on the other hand even if they slaughter me thats aight in my heart you daughter be. kayla only with you by george I go wham god forbid you purge I'll say damn. If I wasnt sittin here sick if i wasnt worryin bout biden riddin me of dick trump biddin kayla be my pick LATER THIS EVENING. my son fab talkin like he aint concerned with what other men would do now chill with kayla im safe id love her sound but how her mother goat even if she lookin like cow. DOLLARS I PLOW KAPLOWIE GO DOW. Ms. perry even if this be a tear jerker hope you one with my welfare worker dare say I say dork or know I put in that work...OR?  (they stole my cigarettes replaced em with glucerna with my cigarettes misplaced IM ON THAT BURNER) ...unless my ofcourse if my kayla it burn her then she know i slay the mourner pedophiles i convict but if im convicted...my love kayla know i stay on 186  im a bum they might evict at the moment i aint erect im just freak i collect fact they reading my book I stay blacked AND I GET AN EMAIL SOMESHIT BOUT SOCIOPATH MAN IF IN KAYLA EYES IM A FUCKING SOCIOPATH THEN TO HELL I BE ON PATH ;-*( kayla I might not remember but my eyes adored you teenager sorry I must've bored you. 2:13 am second night in which ill likely not sleep if so be night with which I might weep my little angel kayla if angel little why i fail ya 2:21 am now. im so sorry kayla :( oh yeh. to me kayla was just a child...now she wild? phew legal docket shes filed

fab?

 wild thing only thing wild is you without a ring nah rap just my thing.

( came up with randomly today ) fab?

conviction over turned addiction turned over (myself)

fab trying to bring somebody home his parents like me aint happening with rent spike

(fabolous I suppose, fan. who on who) The illest two fucking lines in rap. Hit the white hard they rapper a retard.

ey, seinfeld..I'm tom you jerry.

 With women..I don't give a fuck if you a mexican anorexic midget with no breasts. YEH, I'VE COME TO THAT. That gay stuff unless you a tom cruise in his 20s..you the one honored by ya runner with ed, bout it aint nothin special i'm three X's just spatial...i know i know geller get gay nah im grim, good. 5 G's I'm 5 star ya gotti he ain't get too far bullets ain't no scar. I'm grim pops I seen cops I done tops jordan jump while I hops. blondie if I'm a narcissist you ain't meet a fucking man yet. talking to myself in company of others, others I fathers. Ain't nothin black bout drinking simply smokin L's just thinking. (r.i.p shaindy eckstein. pac said it bout guns with me just you, I was too immature to understand your ways). I ain't ashamed of being sick and ladies...ashamed of having a dick?) On red light I turn on corner candle light fan just a mourner. Code of illuminati on the mic I'm ill you just body. 2 pac faced death cause he mentioned I'm sick never mentioned.

You already know what...time, is it?

 When I was a missionary in india I came across a vendor selling speckled brown quail. The quail were tied to a wooden a post. They kept marching circles around and around the post. The a hindu came by. Hindus believe in equal respect for all life form. Roaches to humans. He payed the vendor to cut the strings. When he did so...the quail just kept marching circles with no change. Finally they had to be shoed off. But where ever they landed..they'd march in circles again.

There is enough different life form amongst humans without animals. From sociopath (negative) to emotionally retarded (Life builds ya..toppin nature in freak state of limitation dont change the fact that I'm sick) So what's good my man biden ? "When I was one and twenty president was bush...years after two and twenty my grave underneath a bush" Bush was president from 2001 to 2009. 2009 (was 26), got my disability. 2001 I was 18...should have got it then.

Shemales to gotti...nah. I got my fantasy LIVING. The life included romance. Ain't no need for a narcissistic collapse I lived life long relapse. I'm an addict so I got dicked. fuck em, me on moral pedestal god picked. With gays..they wouldve turned me into addict. Playing the straight card...emotionally retarded...i need addiction to "fuck em". on the note of "narcissist"...IM NEVER WRONG CAUSE WHEN IM WRONG I DONT OPEN MY FUCKING MOUTH. MY LIFE, WHAT CAN I TELL YA.

You need people like me.

 So you can point ya fingers and say..THATS THE JEWISH ANTI-HERO. Fuck fisher and his pre-mature hateful remarks. As far as me, they had a tight rope around my neck nah fuck their rope and fuck my neck while at it. Fuck drugs. After blondie called me a narcissist followed by a night being sick TO ADD INJURY TO INSULT. With dope to me it ain't even about the high. Rather the discomfort it provides on day to day living. Kills boredom.

criminal psych aquintances

 when they put me in criminal psych I met 3 people that were somehow related to my case a young white killer a german ..im not going to define. I sat in between in them reading "The Kite Runner" By Khaled husseini AN ARAB. To add flavor to the mix. all this with the last name "Geller". There was one man who stood out of politics a black schizophrenic whos life revolves around the bible. I wasn'r much different from my life style as a whole I kept myself up on a moral pedestal that was above all small talk.With my "moral pedestal" I couln't do anything with christianity  I saw priests/popes as con artists who exploited the dying to further their benefit. I was well within reason. So maybe all in all I did point fingers rationilising my wrongs with social degeneracy. people that think that will somehow drop me from moral pedestal. WHAT CAN I TELL YOU, REALITY SHOWS OTHER. Anyhow. What can I say..I got exactly what I asked. Then one time a lady said she "was impressed me" she died 2 weeks later from an overdose. It was just men telling me they were impressed with me understanding they are in no position to look me in the eye and say someshit like that. And with the kareva family...her pops was mafia died early youth. It was 3 women..mother being a white socialite. With my anti-semite rap to a racist remark I made at the ferry got off a serious drug habit and 2 weeks later when it was over...I met kareva girl walking towards me at the ferry. I couldnt even bring myself to say hello. When you take the position of a mobster by playing cultural anti-hero I mean all in alll...with the one u care for. Enough said. So yeah, I got what I asked for. I just never looked at it like that ..that there were any negative influences coming from my relation to her. It was blunt in my eyes...a retarded boyish girl white socialite...GOD. But with my physique adding to my anti-hero and being the key point of...well not too saintly image. I couldn't live with that one. Because I felt I was on a moral pedestal not that I was putting myself up on the pedestal. Where I firmly believe...I was born. "Mr. right".

I might not know difference between right and wrong

 But I do believe in right and wrong. No extending that one. What do I know about the russian mafia except their admiration for me. Maybe politics saw my sainthood in a revolving door. What all that which it consisted of was my grace in absurd incidents. Absurdities that could be well rationalised in any sane individuals mind. Emotionally retarded + stroke at 22..you want to play sociopath into that one..you are fucking satan. And middle-class white kept me going smooth without me ever thinking twice as far as how they think of me or what they see me as etc. I don't know shit about crime on any scale except that which resorted from hypergraphic/hyperlexic fiction. Otherwise some russian "mob" thought it'd be amusing to watch to steal coffee from chain pharmacies to go get off in some aging prisoners house that probably was taken to america to die in peace. And aside those two...not a single crime in my life. All in all probably some sort of russian anti-hero painted to some i'd imagine or jesus good knows how they see it as. I can't even imagine what was going on through a neighbors mind while I was just there.

Birthday was I under hypnosis or just man pride

 As so very often on my birthday I was feeling a little off cause of dope. And all day in her presence. I didn't get high. And had plenty of money to do so. Now for something like this to occur I cant remember even ONE other time for years on end where I had money in my pocket was shitty and didn't buy dope. I heavily doubt this was some sort of hypnosis from some i33t doctor pops he knows. But if it was..I'd thank him. This was in my beloved's presence. And her sister always called me a homo when I called gf....30 minutes later one foul mouthing me would bring me some dope on her way to making money selling that ass. What can I tell ya...the life of a romantic. Six and teen huh. Ok away from love.. JADAKISS JORDAN AND JERK. I didn't get off on the last one. And oh yeah, Getting jump shot off. Couldn't do that one...birth had me. Jump being fourth. "I rock hoes yall rock fellas aight jordan got bank tellers" My brother chose 23 ofcourse being biological family. HOWS THAT ONE FOR NARCISSIST, BLONDIE. The greatest russian writers Fyodor Dostoevsky Leo Tolstoy and 3rd Anton Chekhov with his short stories.  I didn't get into a 3rd coma oddly enough chekhov favorite writer. Life was shortened after living one of his stories 6 years later , it was over. Some illestuminati for you.

Once again, on jews.

 If I wrote beating on catholics or christians or hindu's or christ himself, I'd think twice...they might get offended. Aside david weiss...he's know me from day  I came to this country..offended by a child? Otherwise...my father. All years of absurdity..WILD SHIT by (bi nah I BE I). Through out a crazy father son relationship. He NOT ONCE got offended. So he displayed what might be getting offended once...he killed my fucking cat. So me with jews? Never once did offense play. My pops told me "You're going to die before me, that I promise you." And he said that before I wrote any anti-semite gangsta rap. Dying? Here I gooooooooooooooo....namean. Money got its own voice..despite my father's wealth Ive rotten in poverty my whole fucking life. Maybe that's why I stutter now. :-) Death after my cycle with me jordan on bike el. Bikes? I spent my whole youth walking. Don't need speed, I just read. AGAIN ON THE FUCKING FAGGOT WHO CALLED ME NARCISSIST. "Always give as good as you get, if not better" I aint never got shit, from NOONE. Giving on the other hand? Those who played into my life know that fact between us. NOW ON WEALTH...I'VE HAD WEALTH...without a dollar in my pocket. Influence huh. SINFLUENT! I'm fluent on sin my nigga...WHATS GOOD KING? Wealth..Health? Never had it. NEVER. As my #1 writer Chekhov wrote in the greatest short story of all time. "I hate wealth and health." I'm with chekhov but checkmate? nah I'm straight mate BETTER CHECK IT ;-). I'm a fan of kasparov anyway.. fuck that self-loathing jew fisher. you know how a russian do, ALREADY. I'm all you ready? I mean to defeat a flawlessly coded computer couple of times..my man kasparov that's fucking genius far above your fucking harvard computer science zuckerberg far above harvard law obama...as well as harvard med..shit i dont know? Charles Xavier maybe, beats me.. but obama...yale #1 law for 50 + years.....I guess harvard is hard word. Obama..your word. fuck where was I going with that? oh yeah...my word HARD. I write. you're a man of hard work obama. stay black namean   had me feeling real sick for about 15 minutes today then  I came downstairs fucking ruined it. I get off on suffering. My life as a whole. As far as me buying dope or whatever cause im sick? nah.. dealer give me garbage once..THATS THAT. Don't care how sick I get. Sometimes ya word simple thus doesnt need to be worded. I got a way with words did it my way..my words. One on mr sinatra. this whole JFK business...just fruitcake kid huh. niggas gonna offend a president who got killed. my man obama, SPEAK UP. (OBAMA AINT WASP EITHER).. this whole shit msging me some of your posts might have  offended or whatever. Me offend? never. NOT NOONE. my anti-semite gangsta rap. Offend? How can you be offended by a person who's comforted by you and is only comfortable with you.  As far as sarah weiss? I had her sleep over my house..didn't feel any awkward to it. And awkward, it's all I've been. Sure we got high, next day she went home. ONCE AGAIN...emotionally retarded. I mean fuck..anastasia kareva is the one and only lady I went first to kiss. ME? MAKING A MOVE ON A CHICK? EMOTIONAL RETARDATION WAS CURED/ I was too dope sick every day for it to be awkward with her, yaknow. I remember that one birthday with her and another ukrainian best friend at my house. *Sigh*. Moments I cherish man..moments I cherish.

"Et tu brutus?"

 He once told me. Sometimes emotionally retarded attracts genius as I learned childhood on...Arthur piastro. He was a sharp kid. Do you know how to slow dance? Since you ain't never going to dance again. Mother always said I had a nack for slow dancing. ON NARCISSISM. 

1. Hook up with as many people as possible.
2. Post on social media to pretend they're someone they're not.
3. Shower you with affection.
4. Blame others.
5. Act like the victim

1. Control others. (tHEY HAD AN ERROR WITH ME PASTING THIS ONE)

i'LL TELL you blunt fucking fact, NONE OF THOSE FIT ME. So, Mr. Pacino...Sorry to spoil ya fruits or something i dont know man cocaine is a hell of a drug even without scarface. nah scarface...nah, my face just scarred. Nose like mine. PHEW.

YO REAL TALK THO, MY MAN TRUMP SHOULD RUN AS DEMOCRAT AND REPUBLICAN BOTH. MY MAn got both seats in my book. As ahem, FACTS GO TO SHOW. YEH, AND THEY PROVE.

Shaindy Eckstein

 I told her I loved her. Some time later, she said "you dont love me you talk to me out of boredom. get a hobby dude." I did love her, just not romantically. SHE WAS MY HOBBY. Every day, I chatted with her for 4-5 hours a day. Using a keyboard. Hypergraphic/hyperlexic. And recently, I met a neighbor(bill) look a-like in the hospital. Now as far as the real bill goes..we were same man ages apart. He came out of his house hung over.  I came out of my house dope sick. And it was the same tale. I'd say HELLO BILL. And he'd say "Hey buddy, how are you." All in all, Bill Eckstein huh! Then I remember CLEARLY..he had a stroke. And one day..I remember him telling his wife... "Get me a beer, honey.".I felt weird, not bad but weird. I'm emotionally retarded. So feeling bad equated with feeling weird. He'd spend every winter in florida while I enjoyed the winter ( being russian ) in new york. I also remember gf's sister smarting off with Bill son's and when it was time to go home...she came out of the house and her car was gone.Bill's son had car taken away by cops. I guess he had connections. Which were probably as well why I NEVER GOT ARRESTED ONCE, LITERALLY NOT ONCE in all my time living next to Bill. I hope his wife is still alive and comes along this text. As far as I go, I'm not afraid of death...death is afraid of me. The first winter I spent living as bill's neighbor.. i spent ALOT of money on a junk habit. Which he was full aware of. Likely with pops talking to him...no legal problems coming from my bewildered life style. It was only second semester I finished of school. Fucking up badly. Though my first semester, one of my professors entitled me "The amicable paul geller". I guess he saw the "emotional retardation" in me. I spent bout an hour studying for that final and got a B+. As classmates sat there talking about notes and shit. I sat there quietly. Now your amicable one sits here 19 years later writing this. I was 19 when I began my junkie life. Coincedences are gods way of staying anonymous man...and that holy "Anonymity key principle of our meetings" in Narcotics anonymous fuck outa here .. crackhead retards. NA in my book aint narcotics, it's "Niggas aroused". I'd been big on AA but I'm juvenile diabetic..drinking obviously wasn't my thing. And once again, I did love you shaindy. Because many years after us both getting into junk...her sitting at her apartment blowing alot of money of drugs. I spent ALL THAT TIME dope sick and I shit you not...NOT ONCE did the thought "Oh, let me get more intimate and maybe I could move in with her and REALLY GET OFF" comes across my mind. So mr..Shimon Eckstein...ONCE AGAIN .. I'm sorry for my anti-semitic gangsta rap I had SEVERAL REASONS for composing it but NOT ONE of them had ANYTHING to do with anti-semitic feelings or whatever.  and yeah, I remember your name, SHIMON. AND YEAH, I believe now I'm old enough to refer to you by your first name. NOW BACK TO POLITICS MY MIDDLE FINGER IS REAL SCARRED ON MY RIGHT HAND SO IF MY MAN TRUMP WAS LOOKIN OUT FOR ME...AND BIDEN DONT LIKE NEEDLE RIDDEN OR ANY OF THAT FAGGOT SHIT. Biden, you're a spiteful white boy. Ain't no holding back in saying FUCK YOU. Obama, on the other hand......I'm sorry for my life style. But lets get serious now..looking like me surviving a 50 % mortality  rate stroke at 22. You think your man biden would off done better in my shoes? Stroke/appearance with poverty to boot. Emotionally retarded...simple. How could me and shaindy have gotten to a romantic point. The summer or 2004 I met my beloved "Anastacia Kareva". She was boyish and mildly retarded so in other words  A MAN WITH A PUSSY.  I see it like this..a retarded man whos social is a woman with a dick and a retarded social woman is a man with a pussy. ONCE AGAIN...woman are attracted when amused and men are amused when attracted. My bro, Ilya Geller got a bachelors in philosophy..that's a statement for him. "Nuff SAID." Ms. impagliazzo you were a paradox of some sort or some shit. Genuinely so. I ain't even going to comment on JR or break anonymity I got a head injury once cause of it. Enough's enough :-( First reason amongst many I'm not a narcissist. "So one of a narcissist's first fears is when they get laughed at. " I have NEVER feared being laughed at, maybe as a little kid. Laughter of others was simply awkward. As much else. I guess when you're emotionally retarded..."Awkward" is everything. Hrm. OH YEAH, I HOPE KING FIRST AND IF HE DOES SHOW UP MR. PUERTO RICAN HUNCH BACK OF NOTRE DAME COMES AROUND TONIGHT AS WELL

Keepin it hebrew.

 For your so called keepers talkin gangsta. got me emo'd out homo'd out aint no doubt. why rough so rough on me...iron me avoiding cop siren poetic lord byron never retiring never with odds yet just so odd voices based on my lifes choices life wasn't my choice yet born foster with voice REMOVED VEINS TOOK AWAY ORGASM

yours truly, 

the hebrewist parcissus

my brother knows what was done to me to avoid risk of...um....arrrrrrrr. comas/overdoses so on so forth. all incidents ASIDE GETTING NAILED BY A MUSTANG HEADING TOWARDS STOP SIGN ON A BIKE. Looks like you idiots stand with "popular belief". I stand with fact...I believe I've become popular. How do I ask still on feet unlike pants donated shoes fit my feet.

Now I understand,,

jewish people knew what my father did to me, they knew it was just me mimicing a russian song. but it was just politics that didn't afford me life. and my father being a political big shot didn't help me...and with me being gay...the gays ah, well. even if i resorted to doing gay stuff really they couldn't have done shit. blunt reality. it was just politics ALOT BIGGER than I could ever know of..understand maybe but know of? a man like me...impossible. obama...etc man with my past couldn't change it. even if i was a saint or whatnot it was beyond anyones control. just politics took note of, my "rap". and that was that :(. Ah well, atleast I'm having a joyous day today. After life joy in a days time. *grin*

I'm a shlemazel as pops used to call me.

After life even if its life. I guess jewish people found out what my pops did to me or maybe I'm biologically jewish I don't know either one of my bio-parents.Never the less my jewish PEEPAHLZ Peep my pahlz. maybe now I'm one with moyshah. Then this dude here talkin bout sex first he gay now hes bi straight unlikely cause then he'd feel ashamed sucking dick for money...my son talkin like he puerto rican jew. DOUBT THAT ONE , crackhead aint got NO VALUES AT ALL. he'll fuck his own mother for a 10 hit. I mean through out my life crack was THE ONE DRUG THAT I NEVER DID. THE ONLY FUCKING ONE. Now this zherm jessica introduced me to it , i fucked around for a while but now that's done with. And jessica being black transgender almost always payed for us getting high. Obama probably knew of my Stardom. I mean my life as a whole OBVIOUSLY HE KNEW WHAT IT CONSISTED OF.  I guess his blessing in the after life. Me dying in prison or whatever...that was just severe brain damage talk. No fantasy there. A shemale, sure..it was my fantasy. "pervert" and "RedRain" always talked about it in my hang out, a depression chat.  And now, when I get so absurdly nervous and feel aint no way to deal with...it gets solved. I'm an absurditist at this moment Mr. nervosa

Yours truly, 

"Nobody from Nowhere" 

Life's people

 My mother adopted me seeing future romance, was in love. WHATS TO SAY of my father///being a man who preferred women, was straight. Over the course of so many years watching a romantics life .. I think my father fell in love with me too. My life for you. My father let me die a romantic, what can I say other than blessings to the man. PHILOSOPHY YOUR SUBJECT TO PARCISSUS ITS OBJECT 

To jessica . ( precious )

 My existance showed problems...unsolved, thus it was a problem. Unsolved, thus sober was a problem. Unlike Nas..Jay z married an attractive fag hag. So he ruined 2pac song..2pac. 2 pac spoke of illuminati in a song. Which was dangerous. But, he risked his life to...stand against? Maybe pac was straight. I've been in 2 comas, didn't make it to third. Guess cause I'm nasty on the mic myself. I was showing a problem, on my block I was the problem. With jews I was walking, ignoring problems...though I was aware of. I mean, I was kind of delusional SO THE PROBLEMS DIDNT COME THRU.  Or maybe it was just my physique which didn't afford me sobriety. anemic... my knee was on mic ON THE other hard oops hand , Anton Chekhov short story, it defined the word romantic BETTER THAN ANY WRITTEN STORY OR SONG. Really makes me wonder if Chekhov was gay. Fuck stories, songs. Kevorkian's euthanasia is only thing romantic.  And a third..well..Pacino sorry it ain't you. Maybe when guy killed himself in movie called american beauty. Only that I can think of. in russian, the word romantic has nothing to do with romance. Typically it is what's heavily against the normal, suffering and death. it ain't about love...it's just love in itself. Kevorkian I'm almost sure is gay, I mean really when you're willing to get locked up for a long time standing up for those who have no chance to fit in SOCIAlly..then again...your romantic Parcissus FUCK OUTA HERE NEVER WORE A MASK NEVER KEPT MY WEIGHT SOLID MY SONS MY APPEARANCE ALONE THE LIFE IVE LIVED DEFINED "ROMANTIC" NOw on to my love nastya I could have had real romance with her BUT LIVE WITH ROMANCE Or LIVING THE LIFE OF A ROMANTIC... I chose....romantic. if they sent me to the box atleast when freed I meet a fox philosophy aint subject to pauly just an object. I mean to be a realist, you must look at such...just as objects. Philosophy just an object.   ONCE AGAIN preference is fucking fact best I can call it ...is...philosophy.

America

 forget ashamed of being sick. there is a bigger problem. and this is it -> When a person feels that its one way but is hard pressed to speak of another...that's just fucking childish antics for you.and you know what.. dont matter if white or black poor or rich that's just how it is. America for you. Jewish culture a little different but that's only cause they have their own society and are taught differently . But let's not forget...they're only human as well. THEY SAY GET OVER YOURSELF ITS OVER BUT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! may not be nietzche but i aint no snitch ye the bet anton chekhov romantic story check of hunger artist by franz kafka im hungry listed cuffs ya THE BET BY ANTON CHEKHOV..FAIRLY SHORT STORY. The most beautiful brilliant and baldly written tale ever written. ITS SHORT SO READ IT. VERY SHORT I lived the main character plot line in The Bet as well as hunger artist. fuck em niggas tho cause on me the bet's character aint got shit. IVE LIVED BOOKS READ BOOKS AND WROTE A BOOK. so fuck these so called writers, on your realist THEY AINT GOT SHIT (AND MY STATEMENT IS FACT I NEVER SAY SHIT TO IMPRESS. I DONT TALK BOUT KEEPIN IT REAL I KEEP IT REALEST) "That cursed bet," murmured the old man clutching his head in despair… "Why didn't the man die? He's only forty years old." main character in The Bet..was 40 years old when his time imprisoned alone was over. I'm 40 today.

"Gay" (On the other hand, I'm a writer). Rather, with the other hand.

 Pedophiles ruined my life. My only sin was youthful rebellion caused by who else..? PEDOPHILES. accept fact that i'm gay after that one...pedophiles were MEN. I'm sinless. Period. Fucking pedophiles, faggots must have had their period every time they watched that video of me getting molested. Couldn't bleed out of your dick though so they saved some money on tampons. Two favors in one from me. I lived life THE MAN amongst "men". Atleast Al pacino titled me Parcissus, Pavel Pacino . seeing that pedo video of me, ofcourse. All of a sudden I'm a narcissist, fuck out of my face. I've grown a pretty big head over the years? NAH I WAS BORN WITH A BIG HEAD. THATS THE ONLY THING NARCISSISTIC ABOUT ME. SOLID FUCKING FACT. "i speak the truth every time I step in the booth" - Beanie Sigel. I SPOKE THE TRUTH WITHOUT ANY FUCKING BOOTH. Forgive pedophilia, why of course. The church forgives ALL SINS...you just make a nice donation and you're going to heaven!! "i don't do face book I give bitches facial play the white welfare card yet create bi-racial" - Parcissus YOUR SEXUAL PREFERENCE IS DEFINED BY WHAT GOT YOUR DICK HARD AT PUBERTY NOBODY THOUGHT TO THEMSELVES "I WANT TO FUCK HER AND GET FUCKED SAME TIME". NO SUCH THING, WHAT COMES LATER IS CHOICE YOU MAKE. NOT YOUR PREFERENCE. NOT SEXUAL IDENTITY. BLUNT FUCKING TRUTH AS BY YOUR REALIST. Religion, in my view..Nah.. Religion was designed to exploit people. Shamelessly. Maybe religion was designed by a sociopath. How you tell me I'm wrong on that one? That's why my religion aint religion, it's realism. I'm a realist. Though I firmly believe in god. God, if you believe in god. Well Religion and Realist start with the same letter. I chose the later. Realist. A realist, a narcissist? Nah. Never that. Realist and narcissist. both end with ist. So does antagonist. I antagonize bullshit. Devil? nah I ain't with that one either. I'm just a device who wrote without pencil Realist ain't good nor evil. Just that good, I'm against wrong, again writing is long. I'm a writer. Your nietzche, chekhov, kafka..they rookies in comparison. One was atheist, one was a romantic and my man kafka..well...he was JEWISH. ;-) I'm sorry, I missed important one. Life is a matter of choices. AIGHT IM GETTING INTO PHILOSOPHY HERE. PhilosophERRRR. philosophy got ERRor!

UKRAINIANS ARE NAZIS I HEARD ON RUSSIAN TV...WHATEVER I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF THEY ROTTEN APPLES RUINED CHERRIES OR SPOILED KIDS WITH DOWNS SYNDROME.....*but*...*tear& on left eye"

 jewish FOLKS ..>aint a nigga in the hood who keep it hebrewist le parcissus" now there is one fucking moment i KID YOU FUCKING NOT, ONLY ONE FUCKING MOMENT WHERE MY HEART ....BLEW BY MY EMOTIONAL RETARDATION SO CAUSE MY MOTHERS CLOSEST FRIEND me and my best friend were passing out real tired andmmt my `lirrle adorable mutt`SNF I KID U NOT MY  MY HEART OUTSIZED (TURNED OUT TO BE BIGGER THAN0 MY EMOTIONAL RETARDATION) I TRIED TO KISS HIM. (NAME ISSERGEY MURAVKSY).WTF HE PUSHED ME AWAY . ALL THEmoney rihght offVE HAD IN MY LIFE FROM THE YOUNG AND SICK TO THE MIDDLE AGE OFFERING ME MONWEY TO LIVE WITH THEM I TRIED AND OLDER GIVI      fuck IT MAN THIS GUY HAD EMOTION IN ME BIGGER THAN MY EMOTIONAL RETARDAT ION TH ONE TN MY WHOLE LIFE WHERE I MADE A MOVE ON A MAN I TRIED TO KISS THE FUCKING GUY AND HE PUSHED ME AWAY. I THINK ABOUT IT ALL THE TIME. THIS GUY HAD SCHIZOPHRENIA HE WAS A FUCKING GENIUS...snd he pushed m e away. i used to think about it all the time and laugh.  now i think  about it...so depressed man. it's sad. shaindy and nastya whatever man . I would have turned to man. and my best childhood friend he told me "sergey didn't want to ruin your friendship". We were best friends all the time and he did me the best favor a man could do another MAN. he didn't  voluntarily turn me out. I could have abused drugs hrdcore fucked withmen etc...do ABSURD WILD SHIT. But instead I stayed straight krpt it straight PLAYED IT STRAIgjy aould suffered as a man PROLONGED SUFFERING holocaust for you. I'M HOLY AND BOY DID IT COST. NUFF SAID MY NIGGA NAMEAN ..............HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA  SERGEY MURAVASKY FOREVER MY....MAN YOU WERE SOMETHIN ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NAMEAN     I LOVE MY BROTHER ILYA GELLER THO ILLSY OGELLER BRO.                                                                                                                                           J        

Perry.

 Drinks got sugar though strawberry mustve liked my kayla perry all is merry hi never popped her cherry said bye right after ridin ferry legal dockets carry far too hairy all is said, ferry. hope I make 10 bux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  now at 8:17 pm. my brother saw ME FOR WHO I AM.     AINT NO FUCKING FUCKING PEDOPHILe.kayla was like my niECE. Now my brother... I love him .  Family. that's ...simple , my love aint nothin but ...oh dad..oh man :-(SIMII  IMMZ LLOOK FOR   cig noa ;-

The jews, I ask for truce.

 Ms. mexican the cleaning lady. AHHHHHHHH BOY. I said somethin like any man who want to live past point of dick getting hard is a coward. I used the word coward when i said my pops is one if he have me outlive my mother. Coward...Cow tard. I bow before the retard. die/dying what's difference, now dead. I ain'r mad though got EXACTLY what  I asked for without dreaming of. Now mexican chick, She's PHEW...JESUS OUTDO R.E.M. Retard...excited men. he a jerk off, i jerkoff nah I gone soft. I'm realist till this I feel these homies I feel these CASES APPEAL THESE you know I will this done deal I seal this. Your realist, Parcissus. Pavel Pacino. REALIST GOT WEATHER CHANGIN I'M THAT REAL IT AINT CHANGIN. illest. what's a lady worth if she ain't gettin it hard. outlive my dick nah I'm that hard.

KGB - killing geller bastards

 Kiss Goodbye  BUT! you already know...HOL:LA KGB CIA MCD BKG KW PG ...pasha gay...public ghetto...guy gray being a ghost small pay ":-( People who think cigarettes will calm them are wrong, they are designed to make you nervous." People who think cigarettes will calm them are wrong, they are designed to make you nervous. <- faggots. NOT ONCE in MY life, did I get nervous from cigarettes! god bless Mr. morris or who ever. And my dying mother...what can I say, enjoy smoking :-)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the other foot..I kept reading about Narcissists today...none of which in me. These Fee tours, sorry, features. NOTHING related/in  me. WHEN I HIT PUBERTY, WOMEN GOT MY DICK HARD....rest is small talk...sad to say this "straight man" said "spare me the small talk" to alexis impagliazzo. Ah. welllllllllllll..AS WE GROW TO BE MAN. (I mean men, woops.) Take care, care takers. 

God bless my brother, as well.

Period. As per I add.  And here, Tony balony..my son aint no phony.I mean honesty and what not .. what society made of me... pops dishonest... thus me being made... enough said. This just what's after. father having me leaving country cause of so called "crime" i did playing a game. giving me a stroke cause of legal issue possibilties and other crazy issues...he punished me to avoid getting locked up. he ruined my life i think he feared me talking to prosecution etc. he was letting do these crimes himself!!!!!!! im emotionally retarded so I DID NOT SEE WHAT ID END UP ETC...  I  DONT NNOW WHY HE PROMOTED ME MY WRONGS THEN HE WAS REAL SLICK WITH AVOIDING LEGAL PROBLEMS HE USED ME ABUSED ME MADE REMARKS LIKE "ILL TELL  YOU WILL DIE BEFORE ME' BOUT MOM "SOME HER PUSSY STARTED ITCHING SHE THOUGHT SOMEONE NEEDS HER" SHE HAD ME LEAVE N MOVE SOMEWHERE HE USED SOME BIG FUCKIN ILLUMINATI SECRET GOT HER SICK WITH MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS SO FAST WITHIN A MONTH OF HER KICKING HIM OUT SHE HAD HIM COME BACK AND HE SAID TO ME  "HER PUSSY STARTED ITCHING SHE THOUGHT SOMEONE NEEDS HER" HE MADE HER REAL SICK HAD ME GET SICK TOO EVEN HAD GAY MEN SET ME UP WHERE I GOT NASTY WITH GAYS AND WHEN I SET NO TO THEM JEWS FUCKING KILLLED ME I CANT BELIEVE HOW FOUL IT ALL TURNED OUT HIS CLOSETED SECRETS AND SHIT MAN FUCKING GUY MY OWN BROTHER ONCE SAID "POPS WILL OUT LIVE ALL OF US'" *SIGH*..GNITE

CIA - composing idiots anonymously

 why these niggas gona do me dirty i aint gay so they were tryin to get flirty. They goin buckwild nah they getting fucked in the ass wild. REAL TALK THO MY SON, "No homo." cute intellectuals aroused. that's also CIA. PHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my pops, or even PAPTAN namean..had no idea he a "Wise guy" up till 33 when the illuminati murdered me . niggas talkin illuminati NAH ON MIC IM ILL TOP OF WHICH NAUGHTY. My man 2pac said "illuminati 12 gauge shots to ya body" Well , this coming from your white pac Parcissus... "illuminati wrote 12 pages but my story in cages". I KEEP IT THE HEBREWIST i was just so comfortable with semite peoples, MY PEOPLE...to add another reason for my rap joint...I didn't see anyone getting offended...just me displaying writing technique. nice on technique ya rican jew rick!

"Shlemazel"

 Person with consistently bad luck, definition in hebrew. Learned from pops....well, WADDAYAKNOW. ..>>>> now at 2:35 am I've come to... iosif geller acronym is intelligent gotti. pops , coldest man I've seen/met in my whole life. I guess now in position of hierarchy or something... just i guess plus his age etc. Not cold anymore but really he spent all his life , COLD. Me, emotionally retarded. He's had no emotion where as I misinterpreted/misdefined just emotion with me, it's pride of a child. Really, I've never grown emotionally and he just aged with none. It's not even a matter of being better than or better looking or better whatever. MY SEX LIFE WITH BOTH GENDERS IVE ONLY STEPPED PAST RETARDATION WITH/FOR ONE PERSON. So , "maintain composure as a junkie"...Ive only lost my composure ONCE IN MY LIFE WITH A PERSON I cried before first time we had sex. that was the one time i have EVER lost composure with anyone. Not for sake of sex just because I found comfort once in my life. The one time I can recall crying THE ONLY ONE TIME I recall crying in my adult life. I lost composure with her.... whatever man just narcissist talking again. My father is ICE, I'm too nice for vanilla. I dont know anymore man I hope he found some ...warmth? maybe? in his new found position of extreme wealth/influence etc ofcourse well aged. I mean regardless it's ego driven to maintain composure living so cold. it's telling yourself "CAUSE I AM".  Cold? Enforced on me. Guess maybe i duno like father like son, coincedence or whatever. "insanity plea"..yeh I can get off with insanity any crime at any time when you look over facts of my biography . Emotionally retarded. with my pops...too cold. never once emotion seen in/by him.  Except once, when he broke down crying infront of me. Gay community had me rope around the neck with my little anti-semite gangsta rap. One time pops cried , me being the cause of tears. One time I cried, just narcissism i guess. prior to having sex with her first time. And then fucking ukrainians ALL THE MONEY IVE PASSED ON MIND YOU MUCH ELSE...with gays. emotionally retarded but I found so much emotional security between us that I tried to kiss sergey muravsky. He pushed me away. I asked why , guy told me "he didnt want to ruin your friendship".  OFCOURSE WITHOUT ME BEING AWARE THAT ITS BEEN LOOKED INTO let me make decision without clearing things up for me etc . NEVER explaining to me or having me LOOK OVER (REALIST LOOKIN) ACCURATELY MY LIFE. whatever I've always been emotionally blind so that impaired intelligence accuracy. just letting me go on ruthlessly.....no second guessing. With all my fuck ups , errors etc. I've NEVER HAD TO NOR HAVE I SECOND GUESSED, EVER. Sure I've worried but to second guessed? Never really guessed either. Just walked the line... mines, I wrote alot of line. Life of writing. My father afforded me/spared me the hardships of genius. You could say. CIA, could infer assholes. composing idiots anonymously Corelating intellect aroused. Aroused by intellect? Nah, retardation aroused me it seems. But me being emotionally retarded ....that is the OPPOSITE of what arouses women. YOU NEED ASSHOLES LIKE ME SO YOU CAN POINT YOUR FUCKING FINGERS AND SAY DAMN HOW HE KEEP A TIGHT ONE. pacino, maybe not a bad guy after all. That's just expression I dont know. All his awards, riches etc. Me, >>>>>>>>>awarded the rich.  fast forward still aint no bitch.<<<<<<<<<<<<<  1983 numbers add up to 21. When I was one and twenty.  One time my pops told me bout mom and her lady friend "YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN THEM FUCKING".  My mother got turned out, my brother i duno is he gay or he got turned out being such a little teddy bear whatever. My pops ...turned out or not I'd imagine straight. he's got kids by two different women. whatever man I'm fucking done...emotionally retarded. Sums it up. GOAT (Geller on assembled team).

This freak of nature got no friends, hope enemies with me. (Sanemies)

 Not enemies but SAnemies. theyre sane I'm not their nemesis...just me...you know. me, myself and I. AYE. We used to call immigrants OTB's sometimes (Off the boat), With legal immigrants, OTB. more like off track bettting...YOU KNOW MY LUCK LETTING. Or Oh Tender Boy or On Turmoil Best. (Ofcourse On turmoil, I'm best) Even though me and mom aren't biological, our love logical.

I've no friends hope enemies with me.

 sanemies, I'm sane just me. know mike tyson in boxing no tie son. I don't fear death, death fears me. Shit, it's right by me. I'm just realist, real on these.   "For a narcissist moments of truth are too difficult to bear". I lived the truth. But ofcourse, a bear is difficult. LOOKING LIKE ME TRUTH COMES EXPENSIVE "Grandiose delusions" well. they didn't result from me or my life etc. The rich gay installed grandiose. A stick figure like me with a lot of facial hair... STICK FIGURE STEWIE GONE ADULT! .that's newly freak, ya AND IM TRULY SICK. Alot of men shaved last night, maybe sometimes facial hair keeps closeted safe or something dunno. >can't understand everyone much less they understand me< But of course I went off course  So pops remembers me, You do reggie miller, the badge I ain't feeler (He cried, had guilt. don't know where his actions landed him. was it result of politics. shit i had/have no fucking clue. I'm here listening to voices coming from my choices. Looks like , falcons have me in the heart forever. I chose dying ( a straight ) over continuing  Pharmacy , meds damaged me so much in life. A new russian pharmacy in staten island shortly before my disaster happened. CVS the only pharmacy I never used. And now I go to CVS free drinks.. free!. (five finger free, All F's 3 of em) 3rd coma didn't happen so only free in the after life. 

"Laura"

 Smokin L be you laura winslow I've hit low raised my eye brow. Em and his rock bottom, nah my bottom that low know I got em to some I'm hot em I ain't no stud em. em might be relevant I'm just prevalent new york reveal me prevailing coney island I was sailing my man jordan looked at 15 now he Hailing I'm going to die behind bars I know there aint no bailing russian romance dont do bail your romantic never fail at having black men turn pale white boys they drinks is stale maybe family just stalling thats aight accepted falling holla in your halls I'm halling life number game it had me nulling anastacia kareva I ain't calling she said fuck me verazzano tolling 50 on mike my man iverson know I eye em son I'm too big for giants jets my team another loss I'm crying born in russia aint no yankee met the mets I've lived a junkie brady of patriots know I'm patriotic unfortunately arm aint throw ecstatic my verses so ill they erotic my girl tyra banks know I'm hiring tanks teenager cum shots I say thanks image me ya booty spanks I'm cruising on tom where's supportive hanks your cast away lived in small room in institutions I read at home I wrote I ain't one to go showboat through of game know I gloat death I row it r.i.p pac know I flow it this rap in night but I glow it for my man I will slow it illsyo know I bro it ain't doin hell even if by which I sell iron mike know I'm ringing bell cause of prison couldn't do holyfield my man know I'm holy without field cause of pops politics my field body ain't built shit body like mine howd god build I know it's done deal I know it's over despite which I know feel j hova Ms. eckstein lived on j n 21st , at 21 was my year whoda thunk the jews I fear synanogue I sinned in gauge grimreap love me he bout my page I smile hope rabbi aint in rage if I die in the box that's aight I'm bout cage resurrect the handcuffed they know I'm mage should have known dad my sage rocafella gone geller living niggas talk body rob nah I'm thieving dub of rock has me feeling I'm rock hard but is god willing to push me away from pilling aint no dollar thats aight if my blacks is dealing stamp is sealing at CVS drinks I'm stealing don't drive but my bars wheeling eatin mcs so I'm mealing I'm done with overzealous shit I'm zeeling I head on I'm one past healing what can I tell ya people....when I'm gone man, when I'm gone, em :*(. abum, yours truly... "cri gay" I sigh depression stay despite sun ray ain't no spite in gun play. Just, revenge...anger...insanity I avenge in the ranger fuck sanity. I've grown a pretty big head over my years nah I was born with one porn my one just dorm to some. *grin* my years chatting with the dying ..they amused hope I provided some relief their tree my leaf upholding beef I'm holding stiff. Rather you beat me up than you play offended who am I to offend wasn't in my plan but you got me feeling worn thats aight I'll have you learn only beating I'm capable of doing is beating my meat the porn in my death have you mourn in the shoes I was born in so bummy the gold in poker you folding miracle child or she should have aborted my miracle wild it bordered my mother near death border hope before its over I hold her she blames me the only man in her life pops sold her what's rock at my boulder cock still get hard know I'm balder flowers always from me love you i told her cant even talk no more or i would have called her junkie called me pasha silver she golder life god gave me I couldn't get any colder. It's sad when you try to aggravate a man he just walk away frowning I'm the one drowning I'm wowing untold is how me society plowing ...whatever I'm sorry to guy I was rude to tonight but he just living relaxed you know...I'm tortured. EYO RABBI FUCKING CRACKHEAD "JEW"
 KNOW I STAB BY HAVE MY DUDE IN THE LAB BY BLOOD DELIVERED WITHOUT THE CAB BY MY VERSES FAB BY MY DRINKS THE TAB BY BABY IM BAB BY YOUR HOOK WEAK I JAB BY SAY GOODNIGHT TO THE BAD GUY NAH I'M JUST BAD BY SPEAKING OF SAD BYE I'm saying all this "bi" shit, noone born bi thats all philosophy what's that worth really I'm a philantropist. AMERICA IS A COUNTRY WHERE PEOPLE HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF BEING SICK I MEAN FUCK OUTA HERE YOU HAVE TO BE GAY TO BE SICK? thats adding insult to injury hope will understand jury. if my material stolen thats aight im imperial although I've fallen even if im face in the dirt homo on his knees so who's dirt I've had dozens, I've ran into flirt rest in peace kurt unlike cobain me they all blame faggots the ones with no shame even in your play I tame fuck it man, I'm one they all same. aint no pretty face here hope you read this i know you wont hear. im 100 pounds yet bigger than 100 times told jigga when 100's fine dollars my scam 100 lines wrote to uncle sam my 100 fine just saying bamn 100 I'm outnumbered one for my fam 100 on temper just saying tam 100 processes nah it's just ram 100 jamela I'm stuck in jam 100 times stuck in kids cam 100 percent sure maybe I'm bitter DAMN  rabbi I was never man of riots I'm beating the tape they recorded feds bout to rape that's aight I'm wearing the cape I'm goat they scape looks like i'm on death row with fame as fape done with my lap it's too late.

Sickly P as my man matt falcon titled me.

 nah, I was just sicky. my dick wrongly chose, was picky. Falcon's wife a church woman...his father changed score of falcons superbowl...REMEMBERED ME. You know , word...MY PEOPLE THE FALCONS. Matt's dad larry A REALIST TAKE HE TOOK KNEW IM REAL THEY SHOOK. I didn't realize it was down to be gay or die. He understood me, long years back. Intelligent, rich, a man of church. NOTHING BUT RESPECT FOR HIM. "Thou shall not lie in bed with a man as thou would with a woman." He knew all I got is youth..at 33, it was gone. He had me die a man thats definate. I'm pretty sure his wife saved a prayer for me. 95 glendale road, wilbarham, MA, 01095. I remembered his address way back from when I was a teen. Emotionally retarded, never the less...had the mind of a G-E-N-I-U-S. (geller elect no idiot ultimately sacrificed). Emotionally retarded...my father had my wrongs go on. SOCIOPATH AND EMOTIONALLY RETARDED ARE FAR APART. My path to emotion was KILLED when I was just a child. My mother beat my ass in order for me to do well in school. Likely my father had her do so. I remember them arguing often then her coming home late night and sleep by my side hugging me instead of sleeping with him. I had the position of MAN ever since I was a kid...me and her not biologically related so she slept next to me as comfort. Acronym TERMS (This emotionally retarded man stunned). you look at my past as whole.....ah fuck it. ENOUGH SAID. Just, I'm in high hopes..the falcons deliver me a gift after it all. Churcb, riches, hope maturity had matt attend the second. atleast visit the first I'm just diabetic, always in thirst. Liana, spirit of shaindy in the after life. Sarah weiss, a book titled sarah's key. My first land lord (David Weiss) knew I was big on reading thus a book.Sarah was the key. Man, I'm so sorry...a child in emotional maturity so I only cherished the one lady I cried infront of. Emotion had no outlet and I was finally intimate with a woman who let me out. Let out the trauma I went through when I was young.  (Where I'm living there is a antonym to I..HE IS SO EMOTIONALLY STABLE BUT BLUNT AND I DO SAY BLUNT FUCKING RETARDATION) excuse my language :-) money never I play ya boy leaving to say come gunny fuck bunny it's just funny me gay. Once again, some rap in the name falcons.  Now , russians have a music genre called shanson , it's prison music and everything related. I found an american artist whos american shanson. Aside his racist songs, he is man. He spent 20 years in prison, correctional facilities etc. Now as far me, he said "Been on a ocean liner called the cocaine carolina...cocaine carolina how did I get hooked on you." lyrics to my song "Been on a beach called brighton had in me the speedball fighting first time was like I got struck with pleasure lightning, Speedball sue how did I get hooked on you" :*( I'm saying my man david...weiss...oops allen coe. YOU TALKIN AMERICAN SHANSON MY NIGGA, IM ON MY WAY TO PRISON GONNA DIE THERE.....speedball sue how did i get hooked on you. :() oh yeah he said "she was such a lady i was only 22". at 22 got severe brain damage, coma etc. 22 number of relevancy for me. BLACK MY PEOPLE I AINT NO RACIST. THATS A DEFINATE.

Looks like god had built in frustration for me at birth.

 How much suffering a man is willing to take is defined by how much frustration he already took. So be it god, family, or "influential people". Seemed I took first willingly, the other came..well from society. THIS ONE ON YOU ,  I BEEN ON TOP OF LADY WITHOUT YOUR FUCKING SHADY.. AS I SAID...THIS ON YOU. MY POSITION, PLACE... ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY. NEVER BEGGED THOUGH IVE ASKED, AINT ONE MAN THAT COULD SAY HE DID ME A FAVOR. up until recently , but 10 dollars a favor? well you consider 10 bucks a favor...what can I say...retarded maybe. 19 years of frustration followed by 14 of suffering. >>>>33<<< I speak truth even without the booth. oh yeah, willing and will...etc, difference there. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>With willing, just gods will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Video of Parcissus. (gays should have been apoligising, reminding me of sexually traumatic experience didn't arouse me)

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call a woman ugly, call a man gay...they equal with effect on two genders

 To someone you never get to with some you never get AND I STILL GOT SOME....some did get it. faggots call me a narcissist cause i ain't do pussy that was paid for. (only narcissist is shmoodles with his poodles) had a black brotha here call me realist. AGREED WITH MY BROTHER. MY MAN LARRY FALCON HAD SCORE OF SUPERBOWL (ATLANTA FALCONS)...changed for me. My man was just tryin to say I'm bout pauly straight but they got numbers...numbers even or odd i ain't steve and i ain't stud. me even straight, me oddly enough straight....straight realist. STARBUCKS FRAPPUCINO MY VERSES FACE SCAR PACINO ...hearing voices in the after life...absurd STRONG changes time and time again through out the day

lancet is a diabetic thing aint never had bling so came BLANG!!!!!!!!!!!!

writing I freelance I lived chance you know...I DID CHANCE.  and 4th chance...nah my one rap joint..*GRIN* ofcourse i went out at 4. Just like my #4 jewish chick leona, CAME IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-) anxiety nah me they never dismember ya secret society IM SAYIN WHO THE MEMBER? WHATS A 3RD ON LARRY BIRD THATS LIKE A 3RD WING ON YA BIRD. 3RD coma nah i was too hot a thing if im a bird you aint nothin but 3rd wing. (larry bird/larry falcon). 

right and bi, two different words. I'm right past bi.(As of today, bye past)

 cause when im wrong, i dont even my fucking mouth. my father man, shit..HIM! I cared for one woman. I cried in front of one woman. The first woman >I< CHOSE to kiss. We never had sex I passed on her slut of an attractive sis. Had sexual relationship 2 times. One, my love NOTHING BUT MY LOVE INVOLVED. But was it was intimate, no sex. First sexual, we gotta outa hand namean. Went through 12 grand in 2 months. We were getting high fucking. BOY DID I FUCK WHEN HIGH. Now, as said earlier, my LOVE was the daughter of a ukrainian wise guy.  (Told him about anti-semite remark she made) .AND  the second, she was SOBER, i was SOBER. THIS WAS OUR MUTUAL LOVE. She spent my bday at my house, one friend there....another ukrainian. HOW MY FATHER GONNA COMPETE WITH THE MAN.....my son was my 90 year old shadow. AND HE RESPECTED THAT, THATS WHY HE LET ME DIE A FUCKING ROMANTIC. He said "only the good die young" I guess your good man died young cause he could have looked at a early-teenage young age for all of life" I died young despite fact  I was going to be young for a life time. Thats why niggas tried to play me as Parcissus. (he had me live my choices, he did all he could to cover after I made those choices. I mean even if i aint narcissist. i was livin like fuck their voices. everybodys concern fuck em if aint sexual, men who were acknowledged... I kept it  textual. I mean the childhood/youth I had...who i was...who i came to be. as I built up...full of justifiable these so called right doers just werent reliable. they talked of cigs, somehow I find one when I feel I need. The after-life you're fed for. Niggas were feeding bullshit, I didn't eat I spit the game. Bullshit,  wish I had some to sell to feds. I mean eatin....despite having person say I could make it in rap I passed it on eat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I only wrote one rap joint back then and that shit got me killed. I ain't even need to write albums like biggie or pac. Biggie stayed eating, pac was shot. I was a anorexic lookin boy and amongst white getting shot is ah, didnt fit. I died an overdose. My brother, not biological. But...dont see him liking. But looked to be, looks to be....always love me. First one no sex, we just got intimate. we was sober, love in the third. Comas, I didn't live to see a third one. I got intimate though. And there went life. I mean the number three in my life, jesus. I heard the noise of a dropped book. Man lookin like me, felt bigger than my book, jigga you know who was crook. verse for my brother, geller dont do umbrella. I was too big for rap tho, I just stuck to one masterpiece joint I died for. My father, COLD. i mean BE REAL HERE, i has to be cold to survive new york. I'm as gentle a heart as has been. A lady at jewish docs office, she came with a fucking TEAM OF HOMOS..just to say infront of them.. "He likes to cry alone." Referring to me. Never cry alone. Just accepted die alone. Never cried, period.

Maybe just amused by my new york foul

 as far as california. now. Had snot on my wrist, god got the gist. morning >Writing does me in. Or rather, IT DID ME IN. from mimicing anti-semite remarks to me writing more than a paragraph in love , though knowing she aint too bright (I FAVORED) never had her read it. But our parents..politics there in itself. Coincedence with god, irony without. from birth to 22 odd job live too. and STILL THEY KILLED ME. I guess my romantic life and my father as some wise jew guy WAS LIKE TWO DICKS AND NO CHICKS. And dick said fuck me cause I ain't fuck. NOW AS FAR AS. My father was cold. And with me being cold. He had a freak of nature fuck up to compare with. I guess he knew, lookin like me a fuck up mind you in NY. Compare to? cold? you know, I. My father played it as, he was doin everything he can to save me. But, you know what I was killed for...he made the decision on my death a long time ago. Just put on an act of guilt to him. But facts of me and nastya....man id be pushing it i was to say she had me warm up. though I loved her but I mean...loving me...as a woman. Just a helpless child to few women who favored. I PUT HEART(MY WRITING) INTO IT CAUSE OF nASTYA, OBVIOUSLY MY HEART GOT ME KILLED.

i display nothing but loyalty beside the fact i am royalty (any ladies reading i'm bum who rich collecting foodstamps life a bitch)

 russian verse ya emu concretna i svetna pa roje pezdanul (translation -> i got em concretely and light on nailed him in the face ....namean my guest looking lean I aint putting an i in word my certainty in self nailed him myself an i at the end of your pap Parcissus pencil arms once again ALL THATS MISSING IS i at the wild end top of my KILLER russian   ( or just "their mafia nation wide within the law" they offended you killed or deported done deal you sort it....not at all. IM A GODSEND. Thus after life should be smooth it's better life. on a real note I mesmerize came to memory fault what's left in size. IM A MAN OFCLASS THUS ON YOU I TAKE A PASS

pryor ....aint always me

 sometimes seem sadistic humor as well stiff casting top of cliff stick figure with no teeth figuring on 5th my life your gift my rap created beef they equated lift slaughtered a bum no teeth only green ain't dollar a a faulty season leaf

THE DEVIL IS KILLING MY MIND

 THE DEVIL IS KILLING MY MIND IM GOING TO HOSPITAL leave ya mesmerized my memory fucked no more size my poor brain used to be my pure brain. pure heart NEVER DIE. five minutes of pleasure six never rather with 7 luck measure namean i speak stephen colbert truthiness forest bear hibernating im insomniac no sleep full of mess YOUR RUSSIAN LEGEND TURNED WHITE HOUSE BLACK THEY VERSES LIKE A BEAUTY PAGEANT MY SHIT AINT GOT NO SLACK.... >iam dead serious my heart at war with satan never belating ;-*("  SLEEP TIGHT MA KNOW I ALWAYS TREAT EM RIGHT my son eminem aint got shit on me he was like " i  would never claim to be no ray benzino an 86 year old fake pacino" MY BROTHER BORN IN 86 ...coincedences..gods way of staying anonymous mr spaghetti so ghetto im getty stay black with betty drive benz fuck caddy im bear she teddy im kruger stay  freddy my life skip light thats aight heart reddy this shelter my paddy shelled her born ready. IM AT WAR WITH EVIL. HARDKNOCK LATELY MY COCK HARD MY GLOCK ON GUARD NIGGA CALL ME RETARD FIRST LEARN TO READ TARD....my man nas said "put it together", nah you know i got it together was hard to keep at it with my life stormy weather. sigh, on the verge of practicing a tear. how they going to punish a man when he was born to a life sentence after serving it man came to asexual romance romance illest lines eminem ever had -> "im sick enough to fuck a man in his face but i wont cause you'll probably want to stand in his place" as far as me, show me a man so ill he was killed for a few verses. yours truly.

Sunday, god's day thus all will be ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 have a black brotha pale with me chances solid drinks aint stale chances up to par my team never fail chances on point promptly with a nail  with chance i appoint fuck shorty tail u know i coined rap game my verses with the sale societys groin im a man 8 bars i will mail. im about wow bouty how with your body now 

My own words I guess, still written...my ...after life

 How can you punish a man like me, i was born to a life sentence. you know I mac watch my g's stack dollar never lack its my way without the rat pack i aint one to slack ya stick figure make the sack just sayin stay black why my jewish folk did me dirty i didnt insult i rapped typing qwerty...I was a genius but cause of appearance was severely emotionally undeveloped APPROACHING COURT MY LAST RESORT BROTHAS HELP A REBEL OUT ON A MISSION THE UNION WORKERS SAID WE KNOW YOUR SORT AND EVEN HAD A FEW IN YOUR POSITION. "Eta ti menya raskumaril? haha" - Brazer Ali. r.ip man. i remember your daughter saying to me "you're the only man who knows my father, we're going to get married you'll see!"

enough said

 from from jhova to seinfeld never signed i was just felt whoda thunk itd be over. easy to fool the fool be easy tool just my mind without school left new york left i rule all of a sudden jeep pull up JEORGE in he's biden im bud in got grudged in better yet budged in you know better yet i let her at got her wet nah the debt im at couldn't fix the gat illuminati huh im ill yet naughty duh politics philosophy are from P so is the poet that I be you know man the way my life all in all how a stick figure turn narcissus my dick figure parcissus. I CAPTURE HEART KEPT YA HEART IM MAN OF HEART. I  mean MR. zuckerberg jewish and all hope i stay in his heart shit I was fucked from the start NFL (got my own NFL Nice Fruity Lustful) I mean do you really want to fuck a man whos fucked though i fucked with the wrong ones my writing long once  my man 2pac was like 12 gauge shots to ya body nah i wrote 12 page shots I aint gotti. HOLLYWOOD TO BROADWAY TO THE STREETS OF NEW YORK. I was with the third left the kitten purred skipped third coma and death scored IF BARRY WHITE I'M SCARY BLACK never out of line i stepped past line past romantic and I'm fine. woke up from first coma damaged circuit but my mind lit up i damaged their circus who left at top came to where it was like what's a couple dollar couple dont do crack if white went to holla my  my rap money black... "2 pac go ahead and rock" pauly boy dont rock he rap so which one of us black at fault i never owed despite being faulty. something that happened at 15...wasnt justice when i turned 18. i mean LOOKIN AT ME...new philosophy for "fault". I aint foul, maybe just my wit I howl I've done my bid. I lived immuned to loneliness... maybe my narcissist verses were just loneliness. "I dont do facebook I give bitches facial play the white welfare card and create biracial"

How it ended

 I said shit I didn't mean but in life, I was guest video for the pedophile man zuckerberg thought he had my back...MEANWHILE :(. politics philosophy AND pavel start with the same letter. Parcissus, namean. zuckerberg was the man in me he saw a man but i DONT LIVE EXCUSES...what i do with women through out my life. i mean shit, facebook i got the face and read the book but i have to remember me before i judge someone for not looking past "my faults". sigh.. i mean shit marcy marc lookin like me could I be other than narcissist. With a dad like mine to boot , nah mine is foot..grin hurts to even comment on

"Parcissus"

 I got molested, never got turned out. you already know what im about! 8 ball on cue realist stayed true. the flower blossom you know i got em. talk about some serious stuff at NA....come on now...drug addicts never keep it real. IM THE SOLE EXCEPTION MY ROLE WRONG THEIR IMPRESSION. im a drunk who dont drink I sunk now IM PINK! im the jewish pacino after life i dream oh. my brother a shiny happy person in my heart forever a legend. IVE NEVER LIED FOR SAKE OF IMAGE MY IMAGE IN THE MIRROR DIDNT LIVE A LIE.  truth i served in your hearts i was conserved. This post dedicated to my black women.

im history champ in store a cramp.

///\\\ , grin THEY WIN ALL THE TOSSES NAH THEY BETTER ASK WHO BOSS IS. i lived the life of a romantic .. oh my, jewish...they let me die a romantic. death bro, death man , death my gays...whatever man. zucky asked me "what are you a savant at? chatting?" my man i can't talk anymore how imma chat never seen a woman shy lady bread im rye. my man talkin about "u dont get horny when you smoke crack" nah my nigga WHEN DRUGS ARE INVOLVED THE ROMANTIC DISSOLVED. druggies are fucking DISGUSTING . EXCEPT ME, PAVEL PACINO...PARCISSUS. sigh man...live a fucking day in my skin...then we'll see if you use narcissist as an insult ;-P (P for parcissus) im sorry "jorge" why you were "living"..i was living IN MY SKIN...what's a dream  >>> I never paid for pussy one time it was paid for gave a girl flowers they weren't for pussy. I got pussy from the flower girls sister. yeah i'm gay ;*(

I speak solely based on emotion at this point.

 I PRAY I DONT ACT ON EMOTION. seems like they will put up with all so its just BERSERK TO THINK WHERE THIS MIGHT LEAD. Good lord! SOFT BUT DONT PURR I DONT MEOW OR DO CHORE BUT IM TRYIN TO LEAVE LEONA WITH A CPL BED SORES AFTER I NAIL HER LEFT TO PRAISE FOR ETERNITY IM LUCKY 3 SHES THIRD ZERO ON ROBERT PARISH THAT FACE IS NIGHTMARISH MY MAN ROBERT PARISH WAS A PLAYER ON BOSTON CELTICS EARLY 90S.  same team, i was the third on #33 bird. "praise of lady leona, my jewish one." oh yah local noone exploitin me replyin solely based on emotion , my poor mind. 

not tryin to be a wise ass or whatnot (MIND YOU AT 40!)

 "curtain call final curtain im free im certain."  certainty freeing curtain  " . narcissism emails are true pain! look what they've done

got the bread and butter you mad im hotter

 im the show stopper im gold you copper. god why do i bother trying to cure my mother of purity my brother im just a foster home another this aint hell no tears im a man of no fears GOT TANK WHO THUNK I SPANK YOU SPUNK im a space martian on pace with lawrence martin nasty talk nas he on bike im bettis the bus. holly broke wood im pauly holla if u hood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lobMPZHeNgI hable con ella greatest independent film ever.

me the bad guy... nah take a look at the guy first

 when it was r.i.p to me the bloods were crippin. Ive lived life delusional on myself. pray for me i know they say of me.. now with all the attention with my brain im past attentive the nation behind aint had a chance to unwind foodstamps aint nurture my fame whats to say of dollar its one in the same ironies my iron sees... god display too many coincidence now past  just chance this is heaven just as my life defined. i was born without home with mothers love found a place they knew i was taken i was given i wasnt taking delusions of grandeur my brother said nah the grand his its so fucking sad ...full of myself...is that what it is. it just is. full of myself my book didnt make it to shelf was a writer now rap i rode fuck clap "we never turn our backs on each other" in my text i wasnt like any other....full of myself huh ;-( said third time a charm jewish never lived to the third one coincidences are gods way of staying anonymous after life all synonymous 

jordan his airness bald with his hairness

 jordan to gotti my youth was naughty,, patty fuck gotti shooting gatti love is lovish fuck push i shovish from jfk to obama my son murder osama OBAMA OH COMA JUST TAKE IT SLOW MA NAMEAN approaching court my last resort brothas help a rebel out on a mission the union workers said we know your sort and even had a few in your position REHAB GAVE ME SOME BULLSHIT AND DIDNT TAKE ME FUCKING AZZHOLEZ

Rehab today.

 It's little odessa by me, you're shook cause I be. nuff said. take care.

#3

 obama oh coma just take it slow ma. shaindy sarah #3 jesus moyshah got me at 3rd coma 3rd time a charm i told old woman...leona, 3?  "im a fuck up" after christ and moyshas..realist #3 the only time in my life i heard my brother use the word respect is when he said "youre a realist i respect that". "foul ball nah aint no foul im balling" - anonymous OSAMA BEEN TO ME OBAMA SPEAK TO ME...stay black namean bball and rap fall ass..tap take or #3. trifecta namean michael jordan

now jordan pacino with jews (or ON MY SIDE FUCK THE GOOD SIDE NAH ITS JUST MY SIDE ME, NAH THEY BESIDE ME) Aside i confide....shaindy sarah nah nastya i care uhhhh...jews throw on guilt tryin to tell me for that aint no quilt? nah I just stilled jew you feeled. lt instead of ed late not my education i state fuck a guilty plea with that stated no need rebated ) fuck kill your realist ...why, him, the jist you get they met with all that food never fat ...steve im sorry if youre mad...what can i tell ya, fuck it, why just me) IT IS WHAT IT IS NAH WITH ME IT JUST IS) narcissist your jew parcissus no clue) if never released its aight the jew pleased. I plead, I please, you know these. or that's just what im about. it just is. jewish...narcissist....whats 3rd on that...im star they cyst)

i >know< this is the after life.

 And it looks to be, jews are gods chosen people. from father to page unviewed...where me being foul take place..it doesnt. moyshah masha i eat kasha. kasha is oatmeal in russian. was great in my childhood. "I accidentally summoned the devil. Should I call the police? The police cannot help you. A good divorce lawyer might be able to help.  I was exploited i married and on they carried.... in this primitive age ive been wrong only on page. mostly on a computer screen actually. hypergraphic hyperlexic wonders. (r.i.p shaindy eckstein  i was just young and immature) obama with our fate again trump speaks of great again :-(

I've come to unaccountable. i AM a peanut brain who cant make an answer without making excess physical nutttinesss

  hospital it is monday morning. i'll be mentally completely fucked. THANKS HELPERS. go to hospital monday CUT ON THE BROWS WEARING CUFFS DOWN SOUTH i guess ill hear the community if i should go to the hospital

changing my mood into psychosis with severe brain damage

 Thanks pops. That's it.

watch your mouth before you take off your blouse .

Crack is yesterdays news. My IQ is higher than you. (after being in a coma twice and a brain hemmorhage ) And sick, I am. Gay? Pot calls the kettle black. Odd, coincidence. I smoke pot and you're the black one. *grin*

America is at disaster AND THEY STILL CONTINUE WITH ABSURD.

 The sick have to be gay. You have to be rich to die in peace. I STAND FOR RIGHT. YOU AGAINST? OPINIONS ARE LIKE ASSHOLES EVERYBODYS GOT ONE..."if you dont stand for something you fall for anything." - whoever mr president is adding INJURY TO INJURY BY ADDING INSULT. "LIBERAL" HUH . then on top of which A PSYCHOTIC BREAK. liberate brother liberate! anyhow, when i was a child next house over a guy died from an overdose. my father tried to rescuscitate but couldnt do it. then he turns his son into a junkie. playing hero and being hero. The only sociopath in my family is pops. THE CIA , COMPOSING IDIOTS ANONYMOUSLY. yeah, I'm a doestoevskian idiot. The american idiot. Yours truly, Sickly P....so narcissism is idolizing a fictional character whos a virgin and is only intimate with a woman once. Kisses her out of sympathy. Or should I restate "Vox" (a fox vicarious) by nicholson baker. I read The Kite Runner by khaled husseini in forensic psych few years back the guy is a fucking BRILLIANT WRITER. But may my doestoevskian anti-hero kevorkian rest in peace. i just hope they dont let me die while being insulted...that's a blow lower than my testosterone levels. Rabbi, bringing a woman to say she's gay while i'm in the nuthouse caused psychosis. gee golly , real heart warmer. oh yeah, back when i lived in staten island in a black neighborhood i ran across this guy in a wheelchair AND an oxygen machine yet hah this guy was taking puffs of a cigarette. that's addiction, failure to deal with...IDIOCY. It's not dignity related. It's idiocy. On the other hand, I'll be an example at 5'10 130 lbs WITH CLOTH ON. I'll say, I'm real sorry LGBT i'm REALLY SORRY if offensive. But in my culture, sucking dick(for money, selling ass) is the ugliest dignity loss possible.  From my culture, your rap vulture. So I guess the man making donations to biden is you  zuckerberg. Nothing else to say. needle ridden biden huh, riding needle abiding fiddle. there's some more clever wording for you. All this coming from a man who got off 80mg methadone COLD TURKEY TWICE. First time , onset juvenile diabetes brain hemmorhage. second time at 27 years old, I went to the city EVERY MORNING taking staten island ferry sick as a dog. When it was done with, one guy with suite and tie on smiles at me looks over at his friend and says "Tough kid".  oh speaking of sympathy/virginity....when I met shaindy eckstein online, I was a virgin. But when it went on in person, i didn't want to end a real friendship for a few day relationship. she said u dont love me, u talk to me out of boredom BUT THIS CHICK STAYED ONLINE HOURS DAILY IN SUPPORT OF MY "SAVANT CHATTING" HABIT. So, sympathy... i mean she was more intelligent from money so on so forth...I mean where could I fit in my sympathy. Poor girl was a flat chested bulimic. WHY MY SON ZUCKERBERG HAVE ME IN A SHELTER DECAY ALL THESE CHICKS NO SEX JUST FOREPLAY  CANT BRING MY HEAD TO REST MUCH LESS LAY I AINT DEAN MARTIN BUT I GOT THAT SWAY GAY MEN TALKIN LIKE THEY GETTING THAT PLAY YOU HATIN IM JUST SAYIN HEY I GUESS ITS END OF PARCISSUS CAUSE HE AINT GAY. :-( LGBTQ needs to add an F. For freak. i dont know what queer means man im so far above defining...nah I rather gold mining contract signing aint whining its all in the timing.

brain cant sync memory with movement(from birth), I couldn't memorize an approach

 Coincedences are gods way of staying anonymous. To favor the decent few by catering to the evil masses is no answer. I met a "kate", a female on her way to becoming a man. first one ive ever seen. give head for crack nah you running short on track. sad to say done it free but that'll be the day I sell myself.  AMERICA IS A COUNTRY WHERE PEOPLE HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF BEING SICK AND MY MAN LEME TELL YOU, WHEN YOU ADD A WORKING DICK TO THE SPIN. YOU GOT YOURSELF A PROBLEM. so joe biden gona toss needle ridden on a sick freak of nature and wipe em out? my man, do you. as I told a man living in my mothers basement, I'm a man of MORAL VALUES AND ETHICAL STANDARDS. Where do yours play in? after all, you're the president. and jewish people, i think the "awkward truths" been pin pointed. what else can I tell you...oh yeah, right. as far as moral values ethical standards go, you can ask kayla who lived in my basement about that one, see who stands above the crowd. teenager, kayla. in all the time she lived there, NOT ONCE did I say anything other than hello and bye.

hug that aint in bed turns lights red

 a human as solo theyre marco im polo. when everything is ideal and perfect you nurse its circuit. i had sex with a woman who called me energizer bunny "you just keep going and going and going" now if i was only 6 inches +, narcissus would be back to duel. seeing one as saint despite sin dont make him a narcissist. im loyally humble royally rumble. is narcissism trying to create in your adult self what you were missing in childhood. shut it. whats in your hair trolling despair. I GOT BIGGER PROBLEMS THAN THE WALLET CAN HOLD PLAYING THE BALLET OF BALD. SOMETIMES YOU HATE IN YOURSELF WHAT YOU DISLIKE IN OTHERS AND BOY IVE BEEN HATED. this aint justification just modern myth revelation. > a paragraph on saint <  For awhile daily at the train station in staten island which was outside, teenagers came there to film me. I never smiled, never frowned, never spoke a word. Just went on as my myth entailed. Now, Saintcissus... when mirror becomes a phone cam and youre not staring at yourself, you got the comfort of kids doing it for you. When When you see one taken advantage of, disadvantage your conscious soft. A retarded man here always taken advantage of for the rare pack of cigarettes that he has. man im 40 thinking into this, sigh. I'm Tardenius. A retarded genius. Im going to go smoke this cigarette clip. bye

i aint scapegoat more like goat getting scaped by flow you just got raped

 same ol slim crying in his songs hope society sees past my wrongs. thats aight truth isn't love at site many i'm sickly P you stuck on stany verses is plenty r.i.p shaindy hope heaven got a salon for ya granny. MS ECKSTEIN SOLD SEX TEEN...my youthful "chatting savant" romance she said, "you dont love me, you talk to me out of boredom get a hobby." i didn't talk, i wrote and read. at first she came as fiction at end died of addiction. :/ beautiful youth in greece ran out on lifes lease in love with the mirror his reflection A TEASE.

:-(

 My mind gone no cash in my room lucie they stash. Narcissus ignore messages nah Parcissus writing his passages. Bounds is out I'm rookie you scout north carolina shorty name is caroline I tear in i'm 40 foot jumper trump got elected missing the penis pumper joe biden my flow ridding track marks aint hidden night full moon my sun done setting r.i.p pun i'm done letting worth evaluating up north no facebook but bubba is dating gettin ya turned out it turns out hard to light one in storm you winter im warm i hint her to visit my dorm a retarded takin 12 voluntary todays america thats the norm my only crime in life typing qwerty even with pink I'm flirty sad no shower dirty lonesome i'd phone some nah im fucked with the stutter no knife nailing off butter lady a wrist cutter thats aight aint shallow my luck end up in gutter  I GET OFF ON SUFFERING YOU SOFT IM TOUGHER THAN. be easy cause i get busy. torture me like gotti i aint even got a nurtured body...

ash, is it? you biggie with that butt never say you not.

 took away life option voice humbled corruption. aint gotta say it behind curtain thats surely certain, im a man of certainty derail the final curtain see. why scratch my brain it dont match the same. itchy and scratchy may sound catchy. you are the saint youre born not the pervert you become. and i was born this way. no such thing as bi. like an ugly woman who never sins or wins. i'm 40, in my shape and age ..there aint such thing as an "ugly" woman. i was speaking of love once and pops told me dont worry son pussy is the same on all of them. black bull or laura after school, "holla". niggas soundin fruity they talkin ass im with the booty. fuck bed they talkin nailin me to the floor in the box behind closed door. fuck vestless earl im with breastless girl. rabbi, what can i tell ya old timer... "nuff said".

how niggas gona do me dirty for just typing qwerty

 if you dont think im sexy THATS AIGHT ILL SHOW U WHAT SEX IS. smoke em cause they in those break em know i sin those. jews have america gays have parade nah i chose erica semites have me made. 2pac was a philosopher too, thats why he aint with us no more. he's in heaven reading ... um, leme think of known jewish philosopher.., hrm.  can't figure one, cause he in heaven reading nietzsche. my black can rap, espanol can act, WHITES THATS AIGHT THEY GOT ME. cause i leave you playing that card nah im playing that hard. nigga gona call me crackhead when he the one giving head through the a crack in the window. SAY WHAT

Imagination exceeded fantasy.

 What can I say Mr. Pacino...you're Al I howl. Now on to Dreyfus, Julia  right.. I was born to be gay. I mean take a look at me. Once again..nevermind. I mean really.. At 33 years old a man admits to seeing some pedophile video of me and expects me to "turn back" to suck his dick. 100 pounds soakin wet, SHOWN WHAT THE MAN ABOUT. With your crack cocaine shit...fucking joke. Sure they're going to kill me, yeah. But to "turn back", It will kill me steal my fucking soul man. I'm sorry kramer but lets keep it real seeing blunt fucking fact i know you feel. They can shit all over me ... fucking diarhea for all I care but to say I "maintained composure as a junkie by playing with a girls feelings". I thought there was no such thing as angering me, you know..but that had me. I'm sorry only TO MY MOTHER. MY MOTHER MY MOTHER MY MOTHER. But , I gave my life away to play it straight. She woulda probably been more content if I was just gay. but lets keep it serious, lookin like me, with my past, my childhood so on so forth. don't matter if you're LGBT, fact I chose ladies...you don't respect that..FUCK IT DONT LET ME WAKE UP TOMORROW. he dont know shit, narcissus wasnt sick though parcissus sick he got a dick. I still think, what's left of my mind. What's left of it, IM SO VERY SAD...fantasy on par with imagination  now. (on par is it?) From money to california to meeting the odd...what I passed on for pride. I'm too proud to swallow. *sigh*.  I'm from a family of space oddities and I'm the idiot prince. gay straight one in the same now me to tame... some of my philosophy when a woman loves you and wants "romance" you can't give, that puts you towards experimenting with men. alfredo pacino if they goin to kill me, ok. just please. PLEASE...without a mirror to my "Scary Kruger" face. Bye.

Switch couple of words on slim.

 What are friends .. friends are people that you think are your friends but they're really your enemies with secret identities and use facebook as a disguise to hide their true colors. zuckerberg man... why ppl facebook me and shit I ALREADY SAID i dont do facebook i give bitches facials play the white welfare card and create biracials. sickly narcissist huh buddy AND WOMEN FLATTER THEMSELVES TOO MUCH 2 women who i said "lady" too 'they heard babe' and didnt like it. one of these woman was a black old granny so i was about to come with my A game thinkin maybe she want it then this bitch talkin bout she dont like being called babe. man i cant even get with narcissistic grannies anymore *cries* :(. fucking court order worst case ill run and pass the border before which DA ill murder

Cultures.

 Black can rap, spanish can act and white...well, they got me. Yours truly, Sick Parcissus. god fucked my lungs so bad id suffocate sucking dick so you know he played me with the straight card. ZUCKERBERG..jews have been nothing but heart but i havent known the difference between right and wrong for a long time as proven with my semite loving rap...on the right post brain hemmorhage wrong is just the kind of life father afforded me. - "The amicable paul geller"  if you had a brain hemmorhage at 22 youd be a genius too ..but with me ..genius...THE ONLY MAN I ENVY IS THE VIRGIN MAYBE IF I WAS A VIRGIN THEYD SYMPATHISE TOO. when you're so isolated from a childhood age...maintain composure as a junkie HUH U FUCKING FAGGOTS . i'm just in no place to do anything about love other than admit to it. YEAH I GOT THAT HISTORY THAT OUTSHINES POLITICS ...by now white house probably knows. saint have you feel fuck paint i write and i bill. bill huh no more welfare cant afford gas lamp  with a food stamp try lookin like me youd be a philanthropist cooking for free  AINT THE BRIGHTEST BULB IN THE BOX THATS AIGHT I ROLLED ON FOX. Vox by nicholson baker ...genius. i put that book in my neighbor judy's mailbox once JUST TO BE KIND CAUSE SHE LIVED ALONE WITH MOTHER and!!! AND!!!! the lady talkin bout "why you putting porn in my mailbox".. I guess age doesn't clarify romance for a woman. MIND YOU SHE DIDNT SEE ME PUT IT IN HER BOX NOONE DID ..SHE JUST SOMEHOW KNEW AUTOMATICALLY. I guess relating to stand point easily told 50 WENT FUCKING WITH MY CAMP NAH HE CENT IM FOODSTAMP

I express not one for greedy I supress I'm one with needy.

 with a good story who needs an ending only if it ends with writing ill. --- your modern day take from a literary genius I stood against being sympathized with how dare I speak on sympathy. in a russian book from more than a hundred years ago the virgin prince myshkin kissed a woman ONLY OUT OF SYMPATHY. with sympathy the romance never ends. I've read alot of books in my life, that is my ONE FAVORITE MOMENT. All in all, from where i sit where i stand however the fuck you spin it while looking at... I ENVY THE VIRGIN. they want to turn suffering into pain niggas already tried to turn romantic as insane. MY JEWISH BROTHERS AND SISTERS, I KEEP IT BLACK IM SIMPLE NEW YORKER SPEAKS "NAMEAN" guess played as guilt trip with whom Im close at heart but how close can you get without closing off .... a myocardial infarction LETS THROW SOME REALIST ON IT if you hating you just a fraction. i was gona write somethin about remarks i made that was just brain damage talkin but anyway man... how ive been punished at birth niggas talk bout servin me punishment. gotti aint that hard. alexis impagliazzo, sigh...i dare if you spare....me the small talk. IM SAYIN THO NIGGAS CALLIN ME NARCISSIST ... YOU ON SOME FAGGOT SHIT. MY FAVORITE FILM HABLE CON ELLA FOR ELLA I SAY YA

I speak live for the sake of me, you at 9-5 for the sake of you. whos left better in question.

 I had a friend growin up I met playing a computer game, he named my character Sickly P. Then visiting him me a ny friend were together with him. This girl started to sleep with us in the car. She slept on top of me. I was never as shallow as to think of woman sleeping with me instead of pretty boy friend and other one money. But this guys father figured for supporting my self image later in life thinking this high school slut chose me over attractive one and rich two. Thanks Falcon family , older man the owner of atlanta falcons.

yet, day will never be!

 books i wrote after crooks i thought after. me using someone elses lyrics ..me tryin to impress huh. that be the day. if the shoe fits wear it.. i been donated quite a few but i wear em like slippers back side of shoe caved in. advice STAY BLACK DONT SMOKE CRACK IF YOU GET TURNED OUT YOU JUST OFF TRACK.arms tied wrists slide Im peace between the ill mannered and higher plannered.I know I can get the people but can I get overturn well, if humanity is on my side.well if politics kill I prayer the naysayer. but a note on me .. politics is for pa i never had kids. pah-lee-ticks!

My poor mind is going, it ain't going shopping either.

That top , bottom shit... coime on now. With fucking me, keep your fucking chump change. I don't need nobody to fuck me. Life fucked me as is. Heh. When I was one and twenty, tis paid with sighs a plenty...maybe she was right, maybe I only love myself. But come on now, what my life made of myself EVER SINCE BIRTH .. I had no space to love anyone other than me. And love for me, the romance was a ... disaster, mind you. She was the daughter of a ukrainian godfather and her mother was a doctor...not too bright but never the less...my mother was a country girl from a farming town and I was a >>>DISCIPLINED<<< freak of nature. I mean I would have never met her if I wasn't an addict and if so, I would have been a dime a dozen homo teaching literature or worst case WORKING AT BEST BUY. But you already now you know your beloved freak of a man DONT GET DOWN LIKE THAT. Straight or not in essence....I would have turned to gay I mean looking like me and whatnot all in good time I would have chosen homo. Good luck with your kids ladies, ESPECIALLY THE PREGNANT PRINCESS  who works here careful with your pregnancy...nuff said...and last but not least with your >RETARD remarks... lets be serious, you couldn't get to me if your own mother was pregnant with me. IT LOOKS LIKE IVE GOTTEN TO YOU. IM NEVER WRONG CAUSE WHEN IM WRONG I DONT OPEN MY FUCKING MOUTH and while my mind still maintains some composure still there somewhat like i said 50 dollar bet I got a higher IQ than anyone here. im man hers keep talking decrease life span yours my verses on tours ya chick on all fours beggin for mores fuck weiser im man of coors i come at ya with a glock who needs ya roars, you a newborn bear I'm a mountain lion so fear. Spittin bars over cognac in the lambo fuckin her rack.Condoms I pack G's that I stack ya windows I crack only time you mac is when you runnin for life on the cripples track.

Intellect you recognize in me you analyze

 your number aquire yes missy im sire got a flat tire ill fix you admire. <- verse for my 11th floor staff. thank you ladies for your decency, you got way with class on me how could you take a pass! on a sadder note to re-word an eminem verse.. life sickness got me doing some sick eye twitches im withdrawing from lack of sleep so bad my blood itches :-( ... Sickly P talkin'..... INTIMACY MY SIN YOU SEE@ ;-(

On the other hand after a night of no sleep, I was hearing voices(of those not present).

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 lyrically im nasty you muffin call it tasty you bluffin. you bluff and you muff im tough going rough before i did my time behind bars i never thought im in danger or of just if ayeing.  now over a year after im out...freedom has punished me so much as a human being...i only felt i was accepted as human in inpatient psych where i could sit amongst sensible reading my books and "keeping it hebrew". now on right and wrong, dr. sullum i have an important adding yall say knowing difference between...how about ...not being right doesnt make you wrong. the two not tying in together... i guess the color of tie is the difference between huh. TIE not skin. dont make me out to be no racist either thats absurd. humanity wronged me endlessly before I reached the age of philosophical puberty. not much philosophy in defining right for CROOKS and their political campaigns but in refining wrong for the rare case which could only be hurt by politics...oh boy, we're back at ethics. *sigh*. well ethical treatment of rats, true it doesnt happen. yours truly, "rat boy". seriously now, A GAY RETARD GOT PHILOSOPHY NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMEAN lol *GRIN* i just ate breakfast at 6:15 in the morning after a night with zero sleep ITCHING SCARS ON MYSELF. NOT DRUGS THEMSELVES but the frustration caused by drugs, well that INFUSES philosophy never refuses the rat  i turn sunny yale law into bunny pale paw. your philosophy is stale mines blunt it never fail kevorkian was born day before me.(may 26th) and On November 25, 1998, Kevorkian was charged with second-degree murder and the delivery of a controlled substance 1998 year my life was over. NO IAM NOT SUICIDAL OR HOMOCIDAL. END OF STORY. JUST COINCIDENCES, THEYRE GODS WAY OF STAYING ANONYMOUS. Now on the other hand pacino, i love your talent but with you dont know jack. you turned a philantropist career into a depressing movie. dont know how long i got left, dont want to. but my mind is dying :( if you think you getting to my father by slaughtering me, PFFT YOU GOT ANOTHER ONE COMING...ah forget it, you're for I get it...Sickly P.

Life exceedED all forms of punishment.

 With my profile, its your astonishment. to my people, i do everything comfortably no need to break vows! hope it got to you same for bum or two life time of reading and im still bleeding., WHEN YOURE FORCED TO SEE ALL OF HUMANITY AS ONE DUE TO NOT ONE EVER SIDING WITH YOU IN SENTIMENT.... with ever said...humanity dead. so who  was i damaging? "humanity" damaged pavel geller to where at puberty another personality was born. it was hard to look a man in the eye while sober. I DIDNT STEAL I BECAME EQUAL HOPE ILL FEEL YOUR  QUESTIONABLE SEQUEL. Ptsd , and concentration camp physique... socialiZe?      I WAS HIDING FROM TORTURE CAMP. WHEN YOU ADD SICKNESS  to trauma aight i stay dick with obama at 40 still get erect dick subject your pick.  i aint no killer though. thats for sure. so do what you....might ..hope...argg NOW WHERE WAS I! TO VIEW ME AS CRIMINAL THERES TOO MUCH SUBLIMINAL well you know ... call it morally ethics spin right in. sub-arachnoid region, i guess i should look at what region is responsible for.  obama...biden....osama...fuck it im bidding...on CORRECT .COMA..CAMA.....CHARACTER DEFINES SELF OBAMA.. on the side of..anyhow, a liberal statement namean baruhk........GIVE A CALL GIRL FLOWERS AND LIVE AS AUSTIN POWERS(TO VALENTINA KAREVA) . PLUS PLUS PLUS...my biological mother prolly a junkie, i have endorphin deficiency syndrome and without some endorphin...i..ceased to exist. making people approachable with ultimately appeal played as gloom is just a seal on doom. i mean LOOK AT YOUR PSYCHOLOGY .. i didnt exist ... I DID NOT...without a..."joyous aura". Just do a review of my psych... YOU WILL AGREE. Society was pregnant with me...incoming early birth...i spent life time finding comfort back in. Society held within another words...wording on umbilical cord ultimately i got bored.  i mean without ethic call...in the ways and on amount ive been punished that's like grave for petty larceny. with A family member formatting crime. but ofcourse, whos word you take. :/ WHEN ALL HUMANS ADD UP TO ONE AND YOU MINUS THE SUM BEING THAT YOURE LEFT WITH A SICKLY BUM TO HURT HIM WOULD BE DUMB YOU DEAD IT I SET IT YOURE MAD IF I SAID IT .. ethics rap for you. THE RANGE ROVER YOU STEER RIGHT HOVA IM HERE. your beloved gay bum. EY J, ALL MY TEEFUS DECAY :-(  "morals is reality ethics just congeniality" - Sickly P buying drugs infront of people helping...morally perfect with a man like me. ethics in play, its just view on your morals...morals that have that view...sympathy isnt something you earn at a 9-5 people just get it. i got no sympathy in background. ALL OF IT. and "ethics" legally..morally spoke of hope you dont ethically choke of. i had BAD childhood asthma i know what what it is to suffocate. i learned the word "laryngospasm" in book the perfect storm. don't drown your values a man.....you'll die ...lack of air. the human body doesnt let water in so you just suffocate. MORALS OUR REALITY ETHICS JUST CONGENIALITY. humanity just one...being a freak of nature i suppose...   human didnt suppose a chance id damage yet promote if you oppose my romance just read my side note. ethics of a gay man his plate is full man oh right, im sorry. i didnt know ethics is afforded morals of some sort. ive lived life a bum. whats left of a mind to think its alright i find you blink WITH FANTASY YEH I FANTASIzED ABOUT SHEMALES I CALLED ME THE ZHERMINATOR.  shermalez. on the other hand me talking of gotti...fantasize? far from. just childish romantic views on a "masculine happening" with his death.  theres no such thing as always being right but verbally i bring the light. take the day as it comes zero pay healthless slums