REAL TALK

 IF FUCKING ASSHOLES WANTED TO PUNISH MY FATHER BUT COULDNT... TO SAY JUST "FUCK IT LET ME PUNISH PAVEL INSTEAD". SOMEONE GOT TO TAKE THE BLAME RIGHT

Just saw a massachusets license plate outside

 Larry falcon a man I greatly respect. My man matt? Mmm..  Both should favor me with women but nastya. What I have turned into without my baby... my son ja rule talkin about where would i be without my baby. JA (Just asshole) rule. Me on the other hand...My crime resulting in the result of crime. Wise guy...wise gay...or just wise geller. NOW A TALE OF MY YOUTH. in my neighborhood brighton beach there was this black guy (we called him queer mike) who always used to stand on the street. when me and friends would come around we'd invite him to smoke marijuana. the thing with this guy is he never asked nobody for shit. he just stood there quietly. either he wasnt big on begging or on conversation. in my case, im not big on either. just big on big. friend told me once "the russia mafia tried to recruit him". But his whole approach to life...whether he was schizophrenic or not. Under my analysis, he had an ego even bigger than mine. me and the ego myself with my ego or just poor old me...The ego. fucking faggots never invested anything of money....just invested in my ego. AND LOOK!!!!!!!!!!! JUST LOOK~~~~~~~~~~~ WHERE I AM NOW :-(. Man i have a few "wise guy remarks": my mother made over time...but I WILL NOT DARE WRITE THEM. Oh man , comments i heard from pops about mom. some fucking kgb - wise guy type shit. Rabbi , with jews the chosen people. Ok I can see that being. But shitting all over others? EYO RABBI DONT EVEN TRY TO TELL ME YOURE ON A MORAL PEDESTAL ABOVE MINE. LETS CANCEL OUT OUR FOULS AND SEE WHAT WE WORKIN WITH. mr zuckerberg brought me to tears due to understanding my morale as a whole.  my nigga playing morals is hard knock. A morale that play is hard cock. I'll die happy if I die before my mother unless im already dead. But america like this over me. HOW WTF. I dont give a fuck how yall make me suffer unlike pops ...suffering been a part of my life. people quiet leave me to deep sigh it. some philosopher immanuele kant he used phrase "kantian torture camps". holocaust...boy cost was holy. JR...friendly person maybe it was just guilt on his conscious with his gf saying "he was offended". My man kramer I wouldn't stoop to satisfying your fantasy if electric chair was alternative. Chair electrically alternating fantasy and satisfaction. my man i watched this tape "faces of death" as a kid they showed people dying in death penalty. I do hope noone "plays on this post" and makes me suffer further. With my man big pun..if he had a dick bigger than several rulers...only rapper I've heard making references to sex life. You know this whole freak of nature shit... yeh it's real easy card to play if you gay but otherwise ...otherwise...huh...YOU GET ME. An ego Live just to survive as I said my sickly mother...whatever ;-)  .    Pops should have went back to his first wife instead of making my mother sick. But I'm sure cooking wasn't her art. Hypnosis...a fair art form when it comes to ending up with a wife who cooks. Whatever man so many angles to it all...90 degree I came to america 9 years old. Understanding my psychology as a whole is as likely as understanding my pops persona or understanding psychology with no persona fucking these so called "shrinks" I just dont see how their ego hasn't shrunk yet MAYBE CAUSE ME AND POPS BOTH ENDED UP WITH MANLY LOOKIN WOMEN MAYBE THATS WHY I HEARD ON TV "IF U AINT A NAZI U AINT UKRAINIAN". Oh my nastya....retarded looks just like a boy...so dreamy :-*( . It's odd how you memorize moments of sentiment. I'm a moment of sentiment that will be memorized. 

Kayla as a perry or Kareva for pavel.

 All heart there. Ego building legend or legend building ego. Or the freak of nature in between the two. (sorry missed the legendary anastacia kareva...forever a legend in my heart) Whatever man..I'm legendary ego. me as ego...or nah just I the legend. (The legend of laura as put forward to me). Parcissus...Al too big for maybe dunno. hollywood sure had his ego too big and me born an ego...man forget it. EGO OF A GAY MAN POPSTAR WITH... ME....just ego. I don't need me as a gay just an EGO(got an ego). Turn our backs on each other huh...sigh. ego turning backs on gays or gays turning backs on ego...or whatever im done "eminem". oh sorry THERE AINT NO TURNING BACK WHEN YOU GOT AN EGO THE SIZE OF MINE. Just Sickly P. My son matt falcon..boy oh boy. the kind of humor which money affords a man. life afforded you me...THE MAN.

Kevorkian...kafka? Kidding.

lived as hunger artist (short story by franz kafka). I can remember crying while with a woman only once in my life. With nastya...and pointers to love? Too elitist for white! nastya was retarded. Boy what I ...got myself....in life. Her sister turned her to drugs not me. I wasn't even close. Other time we had sexual relationship no drugs were involved. I mean realistically FACTS of the matter is above politics and religion. boy did politics afford me spirituality.. My pops? Elitist affording white...however u spin grammar with that one. I'm done. What politics turned barrack into with iosif turned over by politics? beats me. JESSICA ENOUGH SAID FOR LATELY. (Obama Kennedy Geller) Ok good. (actonym) OK GOOD (sarcasm with the good being in caps) (acronym) . Only earned me >A< coma. And faggots stood by calmly while I ended up in a coma with no coma after a coma. (with coma definition changing with the , sign). Signed up for a coma resulting from politics. Sex resulting from help with wife of a wise guy and nastya being the daughter of a mobster. Guy wise Wise guy or guy (Geller as guy with I. Just I.) too wise for his own good. Poor nastya..from a father who died with her 9 years old then to me...I came to america at age of 9 wise guy mobster both were a fact. The mob was too wise for your guy. Person in nastya place should get the best regardless of what she did to me..father a mobster sister a call girl and her...oh my poor nastya :(. "MY MOTHER SAID MY FATHER FELL DOWN STAIRCASE AND DIED she told me once). lived poorly. When you do math grammar whatever...on that ONE whichever oh my nasty .One in heart.) Math does love addiction affords grammar. I pray nothing bad is done to nastya. once again, poor..or POOR.  from wife of a wise guy to daughter of a wise guy afforded me SHIT. Wise guy afforded wife daughter wasnt fitting to be a wise daughter. Mobster don't sweat over grammar. Nastya wasn't good with grammar, do sweat is over. fucking dr lee i wish she saw my as physique(or SOME SHIT) enough for her to get me a state bid in state psych. From nastya to merrie to teenage sluts to brother spot call girl donated by a homo. Nastya....slut. Nope. (oh sorry didnt have sex with merrie or call slut). Dr merrie lee with making man,,, looking like me or whatever man. the mind that politics affords you. i dont care jewish black italian or a jew black at heart too small as italian. whatever ... Nastya wasn't black or italian though. And impagliazzo didnt listen to tupac. (I doubt that one). small guy like me big as me or just big as me being the small guy. Wife of a mobster irene daughter of a mobster nastya...then you get alexis who is neither one. My sex life life to women in my life....im done. Too wise. Crippled jew gay jew fuck em. I'm not crippled just sick I outdid 27 club I kicked 80 mg methadone cold turkey at 27. Born on 27? JR. jewish retard my bad i let ego play as whole. The man born to a hole. Wholesomely so as whole. or someshit about being some playing a whole. as whole. whichever grammar turns you to. I did grammar.  didnt turn me out. Ivan Ilyitch or his bum being I. (When a man realized his only friend was a servant) Man friend servant, realized. I cried with nastya in life...cried over my mother recently I cried when zuckerberg came to mind. nastya my love...mother got her a zuckerberg in life alright. a geller. Ivan's Servant..Iosif's son. fiction. Son served I. whatever man. or the way i am or what way i am or who I AM. analyze morning . My life as a whole...defines word romantic. Obama..or zuckerberg or whoever. Still nastya is romance. just an ego that big on a man that small (or ego with big) ..too small be big yet big enough to be small. Ego rotating emergency room EPIPHANY RETARDED. (Some ER for you). Excited retard today. Times ticking man so I'll only be excited for so long...retard...brain damage + emotionally retarded equate to retard. Her being retarded( as far as IQ ) me being a freak of nature. Freak retards nature...Mafia nastya made nigga...two MN's...missed three...oh my nastya :(. LOOK WHERE LOVE GOT US HUH A DAUGHTER SO WISE.

Kareva Farley Geller (Perry hollywood not mafia)

white elitist earlier italian just fucking great. white elitist and geller dont mix like two dicks and no chicks. Like I said tho on larry falcon iosif geller.. LfiG. I smoke L's go figure. Lust fail impact geller. Luck fail idiot good. And my son matt falcon...I don't give a fuck who's wise guy. (WG?) Get em wet geller. Lack few intelligence gentlemen. Brain damage + emotionally retarded...BOY DID THOSE TWO MIX EVEN WITH TWO DICKS WITH NO CHICKS. As far as gay on me .. or gay be me..or gay BEING I. I aint sure if gays supported my drug fueled OBSCENE LIFE STYLE. Or tortured me...or only god knows. :-( But Belopolsky Bogomolsky... Bog means god in russian. A mall in the skank. Bell OH poll in the sky. Maybe I was born for gay who knows..maybe skank was only in the sky. Like I said the one time a gay covered a brothel spot girl for me...I got naked and said do you. She said "You gotta be kidding me." I frowned and left. Jewish gay..just gentle. Just game Just great. To be honest I dont know science on sexuality. Maybe Im talkin extreme sayin that it was whoever got your dick hard the first time. But emotionally retarded didnt influence my psych to chose gay. Emotionally retarded did influence jewish though. Lady asked me if im jewish...maybe I'm being extreme on this one too. shit man aside larry falcons wife Ive NEVER met a person who was sweatin jesus up until dying age. Now look like Im dying or dead already whichever...never showered in sweat...and truth..jewish jesus start with the same letter. A rap verse I had on a blog.. "Morbid sadness orbits madness." Man started orbiting men. Shit man ever since I was 15...not one time did I feel sad after. shitty suffering. It's sad I was suffering shitty. As far as me playing with girls feelings to play with a girls feelings. A man of my appearance...her mildly retarded. Appeared man random. Another acronym. Random don't get feeling. Rest foggy. RAP FAB. So from fab to falcon...who knows if Im going to goin to make me suffer in prison. L Fig Fab my nig. I smoke L's with my niggas. As far as me jewish...hard to say for sure if part armenian or part georgian. Kevorkian to Babu. Both did time babu prolly chose gay...kevorkian..was the guy married? Al Pick Just Kid. Another acronym. Jewish jesus...Jet. F-16 loving that feeling. I was only 15 ...feeling too much love. The goose huh... Turmoil of Tom Goose on Geller. Goose or goat Noose tied they had show it. (Goat - Gay Oral Aside Tag. Staten island neighbors I had... Judy Bill..I'm ill as B.I.G. Hoethberger I think judy's last name was...hoethberger Bill's was Harris. (Hoethberger and harris, honest man in between) Honest. I mean shit ...the life I was afforded me being me..I NEVER and I shit you not NEVER...had to be dishonest. As far as realist take..Looks like only rich afford influence with jesus (or on jesus...however you spin it). Jewish...from what I've seen they don't have money play into is spitiually. Jewish Jack over Jim's jab. As far as me being jewish..I think I'm the "epitome". Excited pavel idiot to me. As far as my nastya (rather nasty as arthur called her)...Ah fuck it. Nasty Tasty I never used tooth pasty life turned out wasty Forever young physique or concentration camp physique boy was my big head concentrating on physique at camp.  As I said I epitomize man...motherfucking faggots with their politics. Shaindy eckstein..was just platonic . I was a kid emotionally retarded topping which :/ call you a bad guy huh mr pacino...take a look at your guy first. (your or the god im getting mixed up grammatically) . AH MAN EVEN MY GRAMMAR MY MIND AHHHHHHH :( Scammer...ofcourse lost his grammar. Kevorkianesque grotestque they did me dirty cause I aint even wear no mask. man on his lifespan who needs a cam with man obama...DAMN ><: ^^. japanese smiley face. MONEY AFFORDS CHURCH CHURCH AFFORDS MONEY...jewish live life. dont know "politics" of money in spirit there say for sure then again.  oh yeah politics philosophy parcissus pavel start with same letter...one yeah. So does Pac and Pun. Pavel as ill as pac neither of us big on philosophy..pavel and pac... pac's song "changes" aint no fuckin changes in politics (Connotation)  Fact is fact...cause? applause? Don't need it. Realist? Factualist? Both are FACT...you get the jist. Bad guy... mad gay...sad geller. both was I "extreme" saying shit like man who wants to outlive his dick is a coward. A life this frustating ...you get remarks too wise for your average guy. It just is. Just Geller. I'm tempted to say I'm your jewish jesus...but I don't want to play a wise guy with sin what spirit is there. I don't want to die yet either...or I'm already dead...man shit if I aint dead WOW WHERE I STAND TODAY. Nah I'm sitting down typing at the moment.  Played with her feelings? I was feeling I was played. (Stuart sagevick my son just enraged a sick man...I ain't stuart I'm stewie). Her feelings? She cheated on me..years later sent a guy whos dick she sucked to support a speedball habit. Apparently , feelings were all mine. As I spoke of cali prison who chose to die on two legs rather on one...my heart stand on that one. One thing living life real fucked up with health or whatever but when you look like me on top of that one...boy that kill the ego. Then again is always ego always good? I'm super on my ego. Good with moral standards. Is ego pushing that statement? Call him the bad guy huh...a guy who look like me...man IT WAS ALL BAD FROM THE DAY I WAS BORN. Oh my bad...another P..Putin. Politics is the art of faggots. ONCE AGAIN..MY LEGENDARY RAP..BOY DID IT HIT THE WHITE HARD THEIR RAPPER BEING A RETARD. Living gay living geller...however you spin it ya man in it to win it. as I told my man zuckerberg..what's good. Am I too white for the welfare card? eminem the way I am (birth curse etc)...me bizarre at birth got the julius caesar curse stab the nurse didn't want donation from purse. I let it all despite moral pedestal. once again, politics did me dirty. Kafka kevorkian..niezsche nah? Freud ofcourse. Romantics philosophy psych. Then again kafka was a german jew. Maybe kevorkian was the only romantic. German jew...come to think of it. nah, you got a romantic right there. Estrogen (female hormone) feels that their romance should be afforded *GRIN* *GRIN*  2 pac on changes ( nas was like yo jay how many more of biggies rhymes going to come out your fat lips. ) I slept wasnt aware of beef so I didn't buy a gat) or Pavel with a sudden change lately. AINT NO CHANGIN THE FUCKING FACT IM NOT A SOCIOPATH.  

Like I said, they compose...Doestoevskian idiot...anonymously.

 I hid unfortunately a budging bid they closed the lid thus time I did. But as I told a white boy killer in psych.."Keepin it hebrew." The sinister king geller (pops) And the idiot prince pashkin (I). It's only fair to speak of rare prefer apples over pear life went dim man thus dare free throw missed a nightmare. The nightmares of Sickly P. How the fuck could I be a sociopath...I didn't even have a path on social. as far as ponchik commenting on chris farley..I knew a farley once he said "My father is a garbage man I dont know why everyone so afraid of him". My father a wise guy? BOY LET ME TELL YOU...creating one rap joint I was too wise a guy for my own good. But I already made it clear as far as to why that stayed up on my blog. getting a email on "identifying a sociopath" someshit about social norms..man like me no norm accepted me. Hope kayla perry doesnt see me as a sociopath.

To K.P

 Kayla just know that im sorry hope my life read by you even if its just qwerty you might not see yourself as immature but my child I worry. what's to say bout pauly boy turnin 40? hope i aint on 4 if even if 4 got my leverage above dirty fuck ok i aint sure where i was going with this but pre-pubescent no further remark it just is What more can I say Kay, P. really all that counts is your say by that need i any further with gay? on the other hand even if they slaughter me thats aight in my heart you daughter be. kayla only with you by george I go wham god forbid you purge I'll say damn. If I wasnt sittin here sick if i wasnt worryin bout biden riddin me of dick trump biddin kayla be my pick LATER THIS EVENING. my son fab talkin like he aint concerned with what other men would do now chill with kayla im safe id love her sound but how her mother goat even if she lookin like cow. DOLLARS I PLOW KAPLOWIE GO DOW. Ms. perry even if this be a tear jerker hope you one with my welfare worker dare say I say dork or know I put in that work...OR?  (they stole my cigarettes replaced em with glucerna with my cigarettes misplaced IM ON THAT BURNER) ...unless my ofcourse if my kayla it burn her then she know i slay the mourner pedophiles i convict but if im convicted...my love kayla know i stay on 186  im a bum they might evict at the moment i aint erect im just freak i collect fact they reading my book I stay blacked AND I GET AN EMAIL SOMESHIT BOUT SOCIOPATH MAN IF IN KAYLA EYES IM A FUCKING SOCIOPATH THEN TO HELL I BE ON PATH ;-*( kayla I might not remember but my eyes adored you teenager sorry I must've bored you. 2:13 am second night in which ill likely not sleep if so be night with which I might weep my little angel kayla if angel little why i fail ya 2:21 am now. im so sorry kayla :( oh yeh. to me kayla was just a child...now she wild? phew legal docket shes filed the feds only get mads enough to say my  little kayla dialed. >>45 im all 4 on starting five be fab my four know im starting live<< if im left bed ridden atleast i wont be bed sore biden dont like needle ridden to make that kind of comment he outa tried the sweat that was comin out of my pore  sorry alexis impagliazzo i know now im the one doin small talk

fab?

 wild thing only thing wild is you without a ring nah rap just my thing.

( came up with randomly today ) fab?

conviction over turned addiction turned over (myself)

fab trying to bring somebody home his parents like me aint happening with rent spike

(fabolous I suppose, fan. who on who) The illest two fucking lines in rap. Hit the white hard they rapper a retard.

ey, seinfeld..I'm tom you jerry.

 With women..I don't give a fuck if you a mexican anorexic midget with no breasts. YEH, I'VE COME TO THAT. That gay stuff unless you a tom cruise in his 20s..you the one honored by ya runner with ed, bout it aint nothin special i'm three X's just spatial...i know i know geller get gay nah im grim, good. 5 G's I'm 5 star ya gotti he ain't get too far bullets ain't no scar. I'm grim pops I seen cops I done tops jordan jump while I hops. blondie if I'm a narcissist you ain't meet a fucking man yet. talking to myself in company of others, others I fathers. Ain't nothin black bout drinking simply smokin L's just thinking. (r.i.p shaindy eckstein. pac said it bout guns with me just you, I was too immature to understand your ways). I ain't ashamed of being sick and ladies...ashamed of having a dick?) On red light I turn on corner candle light fan just a mourner. Code of illuminati on the mic I'm ill you just body. 2 pac faced death cause he mentioned I'm sick never mentioned.

You already know what...time, is it?

 When I was a missionary in india I came across a vendor selling speckled brown quail. The quail were tied to a wooden a post. They kept marching circles around and around the post. The a hindu came by. Hindus believe in equal respect for all life form. Roaches to humans. He payed the vendor to cut the strings. When he did so...the quail just kept marching circles with no change. Finally they had to be shoed off. But where ever they landed..they'd march in circles again.

There is enough different life form amongst humans without animals. From sociopath (negative) to emotionally retarded (Life builds ya..toppin nature in freak state of limitation dont change the fact that I'm sick) So what's good my man biden ? "When I was one and twenty president was bush...years after two and twenty my grave underneath a bush" Bush was president from 2001 to 2009. 2009 (was 26), got my disability. 2001 I was 18...should have got it then.

Shemales to gotti...nah. I got my fantasy LIVING. The life included romance. Ain't no need for a narcissistic collapse I lived life long relapse. I'm an addict so I got dicked. fuck em, me on moral pedestal god picked. With gays..they wouldve turned me into addict. Playing the straight card...emotionally retarded...i need addiction to "fuck em". on the note of "narcissist"...IM NEVER WRONG CAUSE WHEN IM WRONG I DONT OPEN MY FUCKING MOUTH. MY LIFE, WHAT CAN I TELL YA.

You need people like me.

 So you can point ya fingers and say..THATS THE JEWISH ANTI-HERO. Fuck fisher and his pre-mature hateful remarks. As far as me, they had a tight rope around my neck nah fuck their rope and fuck my neck while at it. Fuck drugs. After blondie called me a narcissist followed by a night being sick TO ADD INJURY TO INSULT. With dope to me it ain't even about the high. Rather the discomfort it provides on day to day living. Kills boredom.

criminal psych aquintances

 when they put me in criminal psych I met 3 people that were somehow related to my case a young white killer a german ..im not going to define. I sat in between in them reading "The Kite Runner" By Khaled husseini AN ARAB. To add flavor to the mix. all this with the last name "Geller". There was one man who stood out of politics a black schizophrenic whos life revolves around the bible. I wasn'r much different from my life style as a whole I kept myself up on a moral pedestal that was above all small talk.With my "moral pedestal" I couln't do anything with christianity  I saw priests/popes as con artists who exploited the dying to further their benefit. I was well within reason. So maybe all in all I did point fingers rationilising my wrongs with social degeneracy. people that think that will somehow drop me from moral pedestal. WHAT CAN I TELL YOU, REALITY SHOWS OTHER. Anyhow. What can I say..I got exactly what I asked. Then one time a lady said she "was impressed me" she died 2 weeks later from an overdose. It was just men telling me they were impressed with me understanding they are in no position to look me in the eye and say someshit like that. And with the kareva family...her pops was mafia died early youth. It was 3 women..mother being a white socialite. With my anti-semite rap to a racist remark I made at the ferry got off a serious drug habit and 2 weeks later when it was over...I met kareva girl walking towards me at the ferry. I couldnt even bring myself to say hello. When you take the position of a mobster by playing cultural anti-hero I mean all in alll...with the one u care for. Enough said. So yeah, I got what I asked for. I just never looked at it like that ..that there were any negative influences coming from my relation to her. It was blunt in my eyes...a retarded boyish girl white socialite...GOD. But with my physique adding to my anti-hero and being the key point of...well not too saintly image. I couldn't live with that one. Because I felt I was on a moral pedestal not that I was putting myself up on the pedestal. Where I firmly believe...I was born. "Mr. right".

I might not know difference between right and wrong

 But I do believe in right and wrong. No extending that one. What do I know about the russian mafia except their admiration for me. Maybe politics saw my sainthood in a revolving door. What all that which it consisted of was my grace in absurd incidents. Absurdities that could be well rationalised in any sane individuals mind. Emotionally retarded + stroke at 22..you want to play sociopath into that one..you are fucking satan. And middle-class white kept me going smooth without me ever thinking twice as far as how they think of me or what they see me as etc. I don't know shit about crime on any scale except that which resorted from hypergraphic/hyperlexic fiction. Otherwise some russian "mob" thought it'd be amusing to watch to steal coffee from chain pharmacies to go get off in some aging prisoners house that probably was taken to america to die in peace. And aside those two...not a single crime in my life. All in all probably some sort of russian anti-hero painted to some i'd imagine or jesus good knows how they see it as. I can't even imagine what was going on through a neighbors mind while I was just there.

Birthday was I under hypnosis or just man pride

 As so very often on my birthday I was feeling a little off cause of dope. And all day in her presence. I didn't get high. And had plenty of money to do so. Now for something like this to occur I cant remember even ONE other time for years on end where I had money in my pocket was shitty and didn't buy dope. I heavily doubt this was some sort of hypnosis from some i33t doctor pops he knows. But if it was..I'd thank him. This was in my beloved's presence. And her sister always called me a homo when I called gf....30 minutes later one foul mouthing me would bring me some dope on her way to making money selling that ass. What can I tell ya...the life of a romantic. Six and teen huh. Ok away from love.. JADAKISS JORDAN AND JERK. I didn't get off on the last one. And oh yeah, Getting jump shot off. Couldn't do that one...birth had me. Jump being fourth. "I rock hoes yall rock fellas aight jordan got bank tellers" My brother chose 23 ofcourse being biological family. HOWS THAT ONE FOR NARCISSIST, BLONDIE. The greatest russian writers Fyodor Dostoevsky Leo Tolstoy and 3rd Anton Chekhov with his short stories.  I didn't get into a 3rd coma oddly enough chekhov favorite writer. Life was shortened after living one of his stories 6 years later , it was over. Some illestuminati for you.

Once again, on jews.

 If I wrote beating on catholics or christians or hindu's or christ himself, I'd think twice...they might get offended. Aside david weiss...he's know me from day  I came to this country..offended by a child? Otherwise...my father. All years of absurdity..WILD SHIT by (bi nah I BE I). Through out a crazy father son relationship. He NOT ONCE got offended. So he displayed what might be getting offended once...he killed my fucking cat. So me with jews? Never once did offense play. My pops told me "You're going to die before me, that I promise you." And he said that before I wrote any anti-semite gangsta rap. Dying? Here I gooooooooooooooo....namean. Money got its own voice..despite my father's wealth Ive rotten in poverty my whole fucking life. Maybe that's why I stutter now. :-) Death after my cycle with me jordan on bike el. Bikes? I spent my whole youth walking. Don't need speed, I just read. AGAIN ON THE FUCKING FAGGOT WHO CALLED ME NARCISSIST. "Always give as good as you get, if not better" I aint never got shit, from NOONE. Giving on the other hand? Those who played into my life know that fact between us. NOW ON WEALTH...I'VE HAD WEALTH...without a dollar in my pocket. Influence huh. SINFLUENT! I'm fluent on sin my nigga...WHATS GOOD KING? Wealth..Health? Never had it. NEVER. As my #1 writer Chekhov wrote in the greatest short story of all time. "I hate wealth and health." I'm with chekhov but checkmate? nah I'm straight mate BETTER CHECK IT ;-). I'm a fan of kasparov anyway.. fuck that self-loathing jew fisher. you know how a russian do, ALREADY. I'm all you ready? I mean to defeat a flawlessly coded computer couple of times..my man kasparov that's fucking genius far above your fucking harvard computer science zuckerberg far above harvard law obama...as well as harvard med..shit i dont know? Charles Xavier maybe, beats me.. but obama...yale #1 law for 50 + years.....I guess harvard is hard word. Obama..your word. fuck where was I going with that? oh yeah...my word HARD. I write. you're a man of hard work obama. stay black namean   had me feeling real sick for about 15 minutes today then  I came downstairs fucking ruined it. I get off on suffering. My life as a whole. As far as me buying dope or whatever cause im sick? nah.. dealer give me garbage once..THATS THAT. Don't care how sick I get. Sometimes ya word simple thus doesnt need to be worded. I got a way with words did it my way..my words. One on mr sinatra. this whole JFK business...just fruitcake kid huh. niggas gonna offend a president who got killed. my man obama, SPEAK UP. (OBAMA AINT WASP EITHER).. this whole shit msging me some of your posts might have  offended or whatever. Me offend? never. NOT NOONE. my anti-semite gangsta rap. Offend? How can you be offended by a person who's comforted by you and is only comfortable with you.  As far as sarah weiss? I had her sleep over my house..didn't feel any awkward to it. And awkward, it's all I've been. Sure we got high, next day she went home. ONCE AGAIN...emotionally retarded. I mean fuck..anastasia kareva is the one and only lady I went first to kiss. ME? MAKING A MOVE ON A CHICK? EMOTIONAL RETARDATION WAS CURED/ I was too dope sick every day for it to be awkward with her, yaknow. I remember that one birthday with her and another ukrainian best friend at my house. *Sigh*. Moments I cherish man..moments I cherish.

"Et tu brutus?"

 He once told me. Sometimes emotionally retarded attracts genius as I learned childhood on...Arthur piastro. He was a sharp kid. Do you know how to slow dance? Since you ain't never going to dance again. Mother always said I had a nack for slow dancing. ON NARCISSISM. 

1. Hook up with as many people as possible.
2. Post on social media to pretend they're someone they're not.
3. Shower you with affection.
4. Blame others.
5. Act like the victim

1. Control others. (tHEY HAD AN ERROR WITH ME PASTING THIS ONE)

i'LL TELL you blunt fucking fact, NONE OF THOSE FIT ME. So, Mr. Pacino...Sorry to spoil ya fruits or something i dont know man cocaine is a hell of a drug even without scarface. nah scarface...nah, my face just scarred. Nose like mine. PHEW.

YO REAL TALK THO, MY MAN TRUMP SHOULD RUN AS DEMOCRAT AND REPUBLICAN BOTH. MY MAn got both seats in my book. As ahem, FACTS GO TO SHOW. YEH, AND THEY PROVE.

Shaindy Eckstein

 I told her I loved her. Some time later, she said "you dont love me you talk to me out of boredom. get a hobby dude." I did love her, just not romantically. SHE WAS MY HOBBY. Every day, I chatted with her for 4-5 hours a day. Using a keyboard. Hypergraphic/hyperlexic. And recently, I met a neighbor(bill) look a-like in the hospital. Now as far as the real bill goes..we were same man ages apart. He came out of his house hung over.  I came out of my house dope sick. And it was the same tale. I'd say HELLO BILL. And he'd say "Hey buddy, how are you." All in all, Bill Eckstein huh! Then I remember CLEARLY..he had a stroke. And one day..I remember him telling his wife... "Get me a beer, honey.".I felt weird, not bad but weird. I'm emotionally retarded. So feeling bad equated with feeling weird. He'd spend every winter in florida while I enjoyed the winter ( being russian ) in new york. I also remember gf's sister smarting off with Bill son's and when it was time to go home...she came out of the house and her car was gone.Bill's son had car taken away by cops. I guess he had connections. Which were probably as well why I NEVER GOT ARRESTED ONCE, LITERALLY NOT ONCE in all my time living next to Bill. I hope his wife is still alive and comes along this text. As far as I go, I'm not afraid of death...death is afraid of me. The first winter I spent living as bill's neighbor.. i spent ALOT of money on a junk habit. Which he was full aware of. Likely with pops talking to him...no legal problems coming from my bewildered life style. It was only second semester I finished of school. Fucking up badly. Though my first semester, one of my professors entitled me "The amicable paul geller". I guess he saw the "emotional retardation" in me. I spent bout an hour studying for that final and got a B+. As classmates sat there talking about notes and shit. I sat there quietly. Now your amicable one sits here 19 years later writing this. I was 19 when I began my junkie life. Coincedences are gods way of staying anonymous man...and that holy "Anonymity key principle of our meetings" in Narcotics anonymous fuck outa here .. crackhead retards. NA in my book aint narcotics, it's "Niggas aroused". I'd been big on AA but I'm juvenile diabetic..drinking obviously wasn't my thing. And once again, I did love you shaindy. Because many years after us both getting into junk...her sitting at her apartment blowing alot of money of drugs. I spent ALL THAT TIME dope sick and I shit you not...NOT ONCE did the thought "Oh, let me get more intimate and maybe I could move in with her and REALLY GET OFF" comes across my mind. So mr..Shimon Eckstein...ONCE AGAIN .. I'm sorry for my anti-semitic gangsta rap I had SEVERAL REASONS for composing it but NOT ONE of them had ANYTHING to do with anti-semitic feelings or whatever.  and yeah, I remember your name, SHIMON. AND YEAH, I believe now I'm old enough to refer to you by your first name. NOW BACK TO POLITICS MY MIDDLE FINGER IS REAL SCARRED ON MY RIGHT HAND SO IF MY MAN TRUMP WAS LOOKIN OUT FOR ME...AND BIDEN DONT LIKE NEEDLE RIDDEN OR ANY OF THAT FAGGOT SHIT. Biden, you're a spiteful white boy. Ain't no holding back in saying FUCK YOU. Obama, on the other hand......I'm sorry for my life style. But lets get serious now..looking like me surviving a 50 % mortality  rate stroke at 22. You think your man biden would off done better in my shoes? Stroke/appearance with poverty to boot. Emotionally retarded...simple. How could me and shaindy have gotten to a romantic point. The summer or 2004 I met my beloved "Anastacia Kareva". She was boyish and mildly retarded so in other words  A MAN WITH A PUSSY.  I see it like this..a retarded man whos social is a woman with a dick and a retarded social woman is a man with a pussy. ONCE AGAIN...woman are attracted when amused and men are amused when attracted. My bro, Ilya Geller got a bachelors in philosophy..that's a statement for him. "Nuff SAID." Ms. impagliazzo you were a paradox of some sort or some shit. Genuinely so. I ain't even going to comment on JR or break anonymity I got a head injury once cause of it. Enough's enough :-( First reason amongst many I'm not a narcissist. "So one of a narcissist's first fears is when they get laughed at. " I have NEVER feared being laughed at, maybe as a little kid. Laughter of others was simply awkward. As much else. I guess when you're emotionally retarded..."Awkward" is everything. Hrm. OH YEAH, I HOPE KING FIRST AND IF HE DOES SHOW UP MR. PUERTO RICAN HUNCH BACK OF NOTRE DAME COMES AROUND TONIGHT AS WELL

Keepin it hebrew.

 For your so called keepers talkin gangsta. got me emo'd out homo'd out aint no doubt. why rough so rough on me...iron me avoiding cop siren poetic lord byron never retiring never with odds yet just so odd voices based on my lifes choices life wasn't my choice yet born foster with voice REMOVED VEINS TOOK AWAY ORGASM

yours truly, 

the hebrewist parcissus

my brother knows what was done to me to avoid risk of...um....arrrrrrrr. comas/overdoses so on so forth. all incidents ASIDE GETTING NAILED BY A MUSTANG HEADING TOWARDS STOP SIGN ON A BIKE. Looks like you idiots stand with "popular belief". I stand with fact...I believe I've become popular. How do I ask still on feet unlike pants donated shoes fit my feet.

Now I understand,,

jewish people knew what my father did to me, they knew it was just me mimicing a russian song. but it was just politics that didn't afford me life. and my father being a political big shot didn't help me...and with me being gay...the gays ah, well. even if i resorted to doing gay stuff really they couldn't have done shit. blunt reality. it was just politics ALOT BIGGER than I could ever know of..understand maybe but know of? a man like me...impossible. obama...etc man with my past couldn't change it. even if i was a saint or whatnot it was beyond anyones control. just politics took note of, my "rap". and that was that :(. Ah well, atleast I'm having a joyous day today. After life joy in a days time. *grin*

I'm a shlemazel as pops used to call me.

After life even if its life. I guess jewish people found out what my pops did to me or maybe I'm biologically jewish I don't know either one of my bio-parents.Never the less my jewish PEEPAHLZ Peep my pahlz. maybe now I'm one with moyshah. Then this dude here talkin bout sex first he gay now hes bi straight unlikely cause then he'd feel ashamed sucking dick for money...my son talkin like he puerto rican jew. DOUBT THAT ONE , crackhead aint got NO VALUES AT ALL. he'll fuck his own mother for a 10 hit. I mean through out my life crack was THE ONE DRUG THAT I NEVER DID. THE ONLY FUCKING ONE. Now this zherm jessica introduced me to it , i fucked around for a while but now that's done with. And jessica being black transgender almost always payed for us getting high. Obama probably knew of my Stardom. I mean my life as a whole OBVIOUSLY HE KNEW WHAT IT CONSISTED OF.  I guess his blessing in the after life. Me dying in prison or whatever...that was just severe brain damage talk. No fantasy there. A shemale, sure..it was my fantasy. "pervert" and "RedRain" always talked about it in my hang out, a depression chat.  And now, when I get so absurdly nervous and feel aint no way to deal with...it gets solved. I'm an absurditist at this moment Mr. nervosa

Yours truly, 

"Nobody from Nowhere" 

Life's people

 My mother adopted me seeing future romance, was in love. WHATS TO SAY of my father///being a man who preferred women, was straight. Over the course of so many years watching a romantics life .. I think my father fell in love with me too. My life for you. My father let me die a romantic, what can I say other than blessings to the man. PHILOSOPHY YOUR SUBJECT TO PARCISSUS ITS OBJECT 

To jessica . ( precious )

 My existance showed problems...unsolved, thus it was a problem. Unsolved, thus sober was a problem. Unlike Nas..Jay z married an attractive fag hag. So he ruined 2pac song..2pac. 2 pac spoke of illuminati in a song. Which was dangerous. But, he risked his life to...stand against? Maybe pac was straight. I've been in 2 comas, didn't make it to third. Guess cause I'm nasty on the mic myself. I was showing a problem, on my block I was the problem. With jews I was walking, ignoring problems...though I was aware of. I mean, I was kind of delusional SO THE PROBLEMS DIDNT COME THRU.  Or maybe it was just my physique which didn't afford me sobriety. anemic... my knee was on mic ON THE other hard oops hand , Anton Chekhov short story, it defined the word romantic BETTER THAN ANY WRITTEN STORY OR SONG. Really makes me wonder if Chekhov was gay. Fuck stories, songs. Kevorkian's euthanasia is only thing romantic.  And a third..well..Pacino sorry it ain't you. Maybe when guy killed himself in movie called american beauty. Only that I can think of. in russian, the word romantic has nothing to do with romance. Typically it is what's heavily against the normal, suffering and death. it ain't about love...it's just love in itself. Kevorkian I'm almost sure is gay, I mean really when you're willing to get locked up for a long time standing up for those who have no chance to fit in SOCIAlly..then again...your romantic Parcissus FUCK OUTA HERE NEVER WORE A MASK NEVER KEPT MY WEIGHT SOLID MY SONS MY APPEARANCE ALONE THE LIFE IVE LIVED DEFINED "ROMANTIC" NOw on to my love nastya I could have had real romance with her BUT LIVE WITH ROMANCE Or LIVING THE LIFE OF A ROMANTIC... I chose....romantic. if they sent me to the box atleast when freed I meet a fox philosophy aint subject to pauly just an object. I mean to be a realist, you must look at such...just as objects. Philosophy just an object.   ONCE AGAIN preference is fucking fact best I can call it ...is...philosophy.

America

 forget ashamed of being sick. there is a bigger problem. and this is it -> When a person feels that its one way but is hard pressed to speak of another...that's just fucking childish antics for you.and you know what.. dont matter if white or black poor or rich that's just how it is. America for you. Jewish culture a little different but that's only cause they have their own society and are taught differently . But let's not forget...they're only human as well. THEY SAY GET OVER YOURSELF ITS OVER BUT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! may not be nietzche but i aint no snitch ye the bet anton chekhov romantic story check of hunger artist by franz kafka im hungry listed cuffs ya THE BET BY ANTON CHEKHOV..FAIRLY SHORT STORY. The most beautiful brilliant and baldly written tale ever written. ITS SHORT SO READ IT. VERY SHORT I lived the main character plot line in The Bet as well as hunger artist. fuck em niggas tho cause on me the bet's character aint got shit. IVE LIVED BOOKS READ BOOKS AND WROTE A BOOK. so fuck these so called writers, on your realist THEY AINT GOT SHIT (AND MY STATEMENT IS FACT I NEVER SAY SHIT TO IMPRESS. I DONT TALK BOUT KEEPIN IT REAL I KEEP IT REALEST) "That cursed bet," murmured the old man clutching his head in despair… "Why didn't the man die? He's only forty years old." main character in The Bet..was 40 years old when his time imprisoned alone was over. I'm 40 today.

"Gay" (On the other hand, I'm a writer). Rather, with the other hand.

 Pedophiles ruined my life. My only sin was youthful rebellion caused by who else..? PEDOPHILES. accept fact that i'm gay after that one...pedophiles were MEN. I'm sinless. Period. Fucking pedophiles, faggots must have had their period every time they watched that video of me getting molested. Couldn't bleed out of your dick though so they saved some money on tampons. Two favors in one from me. I lived life THE MAN amongst "men". Atleast Al pacino titled me Parcissus, Pavel Pacino . seeing that pedo video of me, ofcourse. All of a sudden I'm a narcissist, fuck out of my face. I've grown a pretty big head over the years? NAH I WAS BORN WITH A BIG HEAD. THATS THE ONLY THING NARCISSISTIC ABOUT ME. SOLID FUCKING FACT. "i speak the truth every time I step in the booth" - Beanie Sigel. I SPOKE THE TRUTH WITHOUT ANY FUCKING BOOTH. Forgive pedophilia, why of course. The church forgives ALL SINS...you just make a nice donation and you're going to heaven!! "i don't do face book I give bitches facial play the white welfare card yet create bi-racial" - Parcissus YOUR SEXUAL PREFERENCE IS DEFINED BY WHAT GOT YOUR DICK HARD AT PUBERTY NOBODY THOUGHT TO THEMSELVES "I WANT TO FUCK HER AND GET FUCKED SAME TIME". NO SUCH THING, WHAT COMES LATER IS CHOICE YOU MAKE. NOT YOUR PREFERENCE. NOT SEXUAL IDENTITY. BLUNT FUCKING TRUTH AS BY YOUR REALIST. Religion, in my view..Nah.. Religion was designed to exploit people. Shamelessly. Maybe religion was designed by a sociopath. How you tell me I'm wrong on that one? That's why my religion aint religion, it's realism. I'm a realist. Though I firmly believe in god. God, if you believe in god. Well Religion and Realist start with the same letter. I chose the later. Realist. A realist, a narcissist? Nah. Never that. Realist and narcissist. both end with ist. So does antagonist. I antagonize bullshit. Devil? nah I ain't with that one either. I'm just a device who wrote without pencil Realist ain't good nor evil. Just that good, I'm against wrong, again writing is long. I'm a writer. Your nietzche, chekhov, kafka..they rookies in comparison. One was atheist, one was a romantic and my man kafka..well...he was JEWISH. ;-) I'm sorry, I missed important one. Life is a matter of choices. AIGHT IM GETTING INTO PHILOSOPHY HERE. PhilosophERRRR. philosophy got ERRor!

UKRAINIANS ARE NAZIS I HEARD ON RUSSIAN TV...WHATEVER I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF THEY ROTTEN APPLES RUINED CHERRIES OR SPOILED KIDS WITH DOWNS SYNDROME.....*but*...*tear& on left eye"

 jewish FOLKS ..>aint a nigga in the hood who keep it hebrewist le parcissus" now there is one fucking moment i KID YOU FUCKING NOT, ONLY ONE FUCKING MOMENT WHERE MY HEART ....BLEW BY MY EMOTIONAL RETARDATION SO CAUSE MY MOTHERS CLOSEST FRIEND me and my best friend were passing out real tired andmmt my `lirrle adorable mutt`SNF I KID U NOT MY  MY HEART OUTSIZED (TURNED OUT TO BE BIGGER THAN0 MY EMOTIONAL RETARDATION) I TRIED TO KISS HIM. (NAME ISSERGEY MURAVKSY).WTF HE PUSHED ME AWAY . ALL THEmoney rihght offVE HAD IN MY LIFE FROM THE YOUNG AND SICK TO THE MIDDLE AGE OFFERING ME MONWEY TO LIVE WITH THEM I TRIED AND OLDER GIVI      fuck IT MAN THIS GUY HAD EMOTION IN ME BIGGER THAN MY EMOTIONAL RETARDAT ION TH ONE TN MY WHOLE LIFE WHERE I MADE A MOVE ON A MAN I TRIED TO KISS THE FUCKING GUY AND HE PUSHED ME AWAY. I THINK ABOUT IT ALL THE TIME. THIS GUY HAD SCHIZOPHRENIA HE WAS A FUCKING GENIUS...snd he pushed m e away. i used to think about it all the time and laugh.  now i think  about it...so depressed man. it's sad. shaindy and nastya whatever man . I would have turned to man. and my best childhood friend he told me "sergey didn't want to ruin your friendship". We were best friends all the time and he did me the best favor a man could do another MAN. he didn't  voluntarily turn me out. I could have abused drugs hrdcore fucked withmen etc...do ABSURD WILD SHIT. But instead I stayed straight krpt it straight PLAYED IT STRAIgjy aould suffered as a man PROLONGED SUFFERING holocaust for you. I'M HOLY AND BOY DID IT COST. NUFF SAID MY NIGGA NAMEAN ..............HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA  SERGEY MURAVASKY FOREVER MY....MAN YOU WERE SOMETHIN ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NAMEAN     I LOVE MY BROTHER ILYA GELLER THO ILLSY OGELLER BRO.                                                                                                                                           J        

Perry.

 Drinks got sugar though strawberry mustve liked my kayla perry all is merry hi never popped her cherry said bye right after ridin ferry legal dockets carry far too hairy all is said, ferry. hope I make 10 bux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  now at 8:17 pm. my brother saw ME FOR WHO I AM.     AINT NO FUCKING FUCKING PEDOPHILe.kayla was like my niECE. Now my brother... I love him .  Family. that's ...simple , my love aint nothin but ...oh dad..oh man :-(SIMII  IMMZ LLOOK FOR   cig noa ;-

The jews, I ask for truce.

 Ms. mexican the cleaning lady. AHHHHHHHH BOY. I said somethin like any man who want to live past point of dick getting hard is a coward. I used the word coward when i said my pops is one if he have me outlive my mother. Coward...Cow tard. I bow before the retard. die/dying what's difference, now dead. I ain'r mad though got EXACTLY what  I asked for without dreaming of. Now mexican chick, She's PHEW...JESUS OUTDO R.E.M. Retard...excited men. he a jerk off, i jerkoff nah I gone soft. I'm realist till this I feel these homies I feel these CASES APPEAL THESE you know I will this done deal I seal this. Your realist, Parcissus. Pavel Pacino. REALIST GOT WEATHER CHANGIN I'M THAT REAL IT AINT CHANGIN. illest. what's a lady worth if she ain't gettin it hard. outlive my dick nah I'm that hard.

KGB - killing geller bastards

 Kiss Goodbye  BUT! you already know...HOL:LA KGB CIA MCD BKG KW PG ...pasha gay...public ghetto...guy gray being a ghost small pay ":-( People who think cigarettes will calm them are wrong, they are designed to make you nervous." People who think cigarettes will calm them are wrong, they are designed to make you nervous. <- faggots. NOT ONCE in MY life, did I get nervous from cigarettes! god bless Mr. morris or who ever. And my dying mother...what can I say, enjoy smoking :-)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the other foot..I kept reading about Narcissists today...none of which in me. These Fee tours, sorry, features. NOTHING related/in  me. WHEN I HIT PUBERTY, WOMEN GOT MY DICK HARD....rest is small talk...sad to say this "straight man" said "spare me the small talk" to alexis impagliazzo. Ah. welllllllllllll..AS WE GROW TO BE MAN. (I mean men, woops.) Take care, care takers. 

God bless my brother, as well.

Period. As per I add.  And here, Tony balony..my son aint no phony.I mean honesty and what not .. what society made of me... pops dishonest... thus me being made... enough said. This just what's after. father having me leaving country cause of so called "crime" i did playing a game. giving me a stroke cause of legal issue possibilties and other crazy issues...he punished me to avoid getting locked up. he ruined my life i think he feared me talking to prosecution etc. he was letting do these crimes himself!!!!!!! im emotionally retarded so I DID NOT SEE WHAT ID END UP ETC...  I  DONT NNOW WHY HE PROMOTED ME MY WRONGS THEN HE WAS REAL SLICK WITH AVOIDING LEGAL PROBLEMS HE USED ME ABUSED ME MADE REMARKS LIKE "ILL TELL  YOU WILL DIE BEFORE ME' BOUT MOM "SOME HER PUSSY STARTED ITCHING SHE THOUGHT SOMEONE NEEDS HER" SHE HAD ME LEAVE N MOVE SOMEWHERE HE USED SOME BIG FUCKIN ILLUMINATI SECRET GOT HER SICK WITH MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS SO FAST WITHIN A MONTH OF HER KICKING HIM OUT SHE HAD HIM COME BACK AND HE SAID TO ME  "HER PUSSY STARTED ITCHING SHE THOUGHT SOMEONE NEEDS HER" HE MADE HER REAL SICK HAD ME GET SICK TOO EVEN HAD GAY MEN SET ME UP WHERE I GOT NASTY WITH GAYS AND WHEN I SET NO TO THEM JEWS FUCKING KILLLED ME I CANT BELIEVE HOW FOUL IT ALL TURNED OUT HIS CLOSETED SECRETS AND SHIT MAN FUCKING GUY MY OWN BROTHER ONCE SAID "POPS WILL OUT LIVE ALL OF US'" *SIGH*..GNITE

CIA - composing idiots anonymously

 why these niggas gona do me dirty i aint gay so they were tryin to get flirty. They goin buckwild nah they getting fucked in the ass wild. REAL TALK THO MY SON, "No homo." cute intellectuals aroused. that's also CIA. PHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my pops, or even PAPTAN namean..had no idea he a "Wise guy" up till 33 when the illuminati murdered me . niggas talkin illuminati NAH ON MIC IM ILL TOP OF WHICH NAUGHTY. My man 2pac said "illuminati 12 gauge shots to ya body" Well , this coming from your white pac Parcissus... "illuminati wrote 12 pages but my story in cages". I KEEP IT THE HEBREWIST i was just so comfortable with semite peoples, MY PEOPLE...to add another reason for my rap joint...I didn't see anyone getting offended...just me displaying writing technique. nice on technique ya rican jew rick!

"Shlemazel"

 Person with consistently bad luck, definition in hebrew. Learned from pops....well, WADDAYAKNOW. ..>>>> now at 2:35 am I've come to... iosif geller acronym is intelligent gotti. pops , coldest man I've seen/met in my whole life. I guess now in position of hierarchy or something... just i guess plus his age etc. Not cold anymore but really he spent all his life , COLD. Me, emotionally retarded. He's had no emotion where as I misinterpreted/misdefined just emotion with me, it's pride of a child. Really, I've never grown emotionally and he just aged with none. It's not even a matter of being better than or better looking or better whatever. MY SEX LIFE WITH BOTH GENDERS IVE ONLY STEPPED PAST RETARDATION WITH/FOR ONE PERSON. So , "maintain composure as a junkie"...Ive only lost my composure ONCE IN MY LIFE WITH A PERSON I cried before first time we had sex. that was the one time i have EVER lost composure with anyone. Not for sake of sex just because I found comfort once in my life. The one time I can recall crying THE ONLY ONE TIME I recall crying in my adult life. I lost composure with her.... whatever man just narcissist talking again. My father is ICE, I'm too nice for vanilla. I dont know anymore man I hope he found some ...warmth? maybe? in his new found position of extreme wealth/influence etc ofcourse well aged. I mean regardless it's ego driven to maintain composure living so cold. it's telling yourself "CAUSE I AM".  Cold? Enforced on me. Guess maybe i duno like father like son, coincedence or whatever. "insanity plea"..yeh I can get off with insanity any crime at any time when you look over facts of my biography . Emotionally retarded. with my pops...too cold. never once emotion seen in/by him.  Except once, when he broke down crying infront of me. Gay community had me rope around the neck with my little anti-semite gangsta rap. One time pops cried , me being the cause of tears. One time I cried, just narcissism i guess. prior to having sex with her first time. And then fucking ukrainians ALL THE MONEY IVE PASSED ON MIND YOU MUCH ELSE...with gays. emotionally retarded but I found so much emotional security between us that I tried to kiss sergey muravsky. He pushed me away. I asked why , guy told me "he didnt want to ruin your friendship".  OFCOURSE WITHOUT ME BEING AWARE THAT ITS BEEN LOOKED INTO let me make decision without clearing things up for me etc . NEVER explaining to me or having me LOOK OVER (REALIST LOOKIN) ACCURATELY MY LIFE. whatever I've always been emotionally blind so that impaired intelligence accuracy. just letting me go on ruthlessly.....no second guessing. With all my fuck ups , errors etc. I've NEVER HAD TO NOR HAVE I SECOND GUESSED, EVER. Sure I've worried but to second guessed? Never really guessed either. Just walked the line... mines, I wrote alot of line. Life of writing. My father afforded me/spared me the hardships of genius. You could say. CIA, could infer assholes. composing idiots anonymously Corelating intellect aroused. Aroused by intellect? Nah, retardation aroused me it seems. But me being emotionally retarded ....that is the OPPOSITE of what arouses women. YOU NEED ASSHOLES LIKE ME SO YOU CAN POINT YOUR FUCKING FINGERS AND SAY DAMN HOW HE KEEP A TIGHT ONE. pacino, maybe not a bad guy after all. That's just expression I dont know. All his awards, riches etc. Me, >>>>>>>>>awarded the rich.  fast forward still aint no bitch.<<<<<<<<<<<<<  1983 numbers add up to 21. When I was one and twenty.  One time my pops told me bout mom and her lady friend "YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN THEM FUCKING".  My mother got turned out, my brother i duno is he gay or he got turned out being such a little teddy bear whatever. My pops ...turned out or not I'd imagine straight. he's got kids by two different women. whatever man I'm fucking done...emotionally retarded. Sums it up. GOAT (Geller on assembled team).

This freak of nature got no friends, hope enemies with me. (Sanemies)

 Not enemies but SAnemies. theyre sane I'm not their nemesis...just me...you know. me, myself and I. AYE. We used to call immigrants OTB's sometimes (Off the boat), With legal immigrants, OTB. more like off track bettting...YOU KNOW MY LUCK LETTING. Or Oh Tender Boy or On Turmoil Best. (Ofcourse On turmoil, I'm best) Even though me and mom aren't biological, our love logical.

I've no friends hope enemies with me.

 sanemies, I'm sane just me. know mike tyson in boxing no tie son. I don't fear death, death fears me. Shit, it's right by me. I'm just realist, real on these.   "For a narcissist moments of truth are too difficult to bear". I lived the truth. But ofcourse, a bear is difficult. LOOKING LIKE ME TRUTH COMES EXPENSIVE "Grandiose delusions" well. they didn't result from me or my life etc. The rich gay installed grandiose. A stick figure like me with a lot of facial hair... STICK FIGURE STEWIE GONE ADULT! .that's newly freak, ya AND IM TRULY SICK. Alot of men shaved last night, maybe sometimes facial hair keeps closeted safe or something dunno. >can't understand everyone much less they understand me< But of course I went off course  So pops remembers me, You do reggie miller, the badge I ain't feeler (He cried, had guilt. don't know where his actions landed him. was it result of politics. shit i had/have no fucking clue. I'm here listening to voices coming from my choices. Looks like , falcons have me in the heart forever. I chose dying ( a straight ) over continuing  Pharmacy , meds damaged me so much in life. A new russian pharmacy in staten island shortly before my disaster happened. CVS the only pharmacy I never used. And now I go to CVS free drinks.. free!. (five finger free, All F's 3 of em) 3rd coma didn't happen so only free in the after life. 

"Laura"

 Smokin L be you laura winslow I've hit low raised my eye brow. Em and his rock bottom, nah my bottom that low know I got em to some I'm hot em I ain't no stud em. em might be relevant I'm just prevalent new york reveal me prevailing coney island I was sailing my man jordan looked at 15 now he Hailing I'm going to die behind bars I know there aint no bailing russian romance dont do bail your romantic never fail at having black men turn pale white boys they drinks is stale maybe family just stalling thats aight accepted falling holla in your halls I'm halling life number game it had me nulling anastacia kareva I ain't calling she said fuck me verazzano tolling 50 on mike my man iverson know I eye em son I'm too big for giants jets my team another loss I'm crying born in russia aint no yankee met the mets I've lived a junkie brady of patriots know I'm patriotic unfortunately arm aint throw ecstatic my verses so ill they erotic my girl tyra banks know I'm hiring tanks teenager cum shots I say thanks image me ya booty spanks I'm cruising on tom where's supportive hanks your cast away lived in small room in institutions I read at home I wrote I ain't one to go showboat through of game know I gloat death I row it r.i.p pac know I flow it this rap in night but I glow it for my man I will slow it illsyo know I bro it ain't doin hell even if by which I sell iron mike know I'm ringing bell cause of prison couldn't do holyfield my man know I'm holy without field cause of pops politics my field body ain't built shit body like mine howd god build I know it's done deal I know it's over despite which I know feel j hova Ms. eckstein lived on j n 21st , at 21 was my year whoda thunk the jews I fear synanogue I sinned in gauge grimreap love me he bout my page I smile hope rabbi aint in rage if I die in the box that's aight I'm bout cage resurrect the handcuffed they know I'm mage should have known dad my sage rocafella gone geller living niggas talk body rob nah I'm thieving dub of rock has me feeling I'm rock hard but is god willing to push me away from pilling aint no dollar thats aight if my blacks is dealing stamp is sealing at CVS drinks I'm stealing don't drive but my bars wheeling eatin mcs so I'm mealing I'm done with overzealous shit I'm zeeling I head on I'm one past healing what can I tell ya people....when I'm gone man, when I'm gone, em :*(. abum, yours truly... "cri gay" I sigh depression stay despite sun ray ain't no spite in gun play. Just, revenge...anger...insanity I avenge in the ranger fuck sanity. I've grown a pretty big head over my years nah I was born with one porn my one just dorm to some. *grin* my years chatting with the dying ..they amused hope I provided some relief their tree my leaf upholding beef I'm holding stiff. Rather you beat me up than you play offended who am I to offend wasn't in my plan but you got me feeling worn thats aight I'll have you learn only beating I'm capable of doing is beating my meat the porn in my death have you mourn in the shoes I was born in so bummy the gold in poker you folding miracle child or she should have aborted my miracle wild it bordered my mother near death border hope before its over I hold her she blames me the only man in her life pops sold her what's rock at my boulder cock still get hard know I'm balder flowers always from me love you i told her cant even talk no more or i would have called her junkie called me pasha silver she golder life god gave me I couldn't get any colder. It's sad when you try to aggravate a man he just walk away frowning I'm the one drowning I'm wowing untold is how me society plowing ...whatever I'm sorry to guy I was rude to tonight but he just living relaxed you know...I'm tortured. EYO RABBI FUCKING CRACKHEAD "JEW"
 KNOW I STAB BY HAVE MY DUDE IN THE LAB BY BLOOD DELIVERED WITHOUT THE CAB BY MY VERSES FAB BY MY DRINKS THE TAB BY BABY IM BAB BY YOUR HOOK WEAK I JAB BY SAY GOODNIGHT TO THE BAD GUY NAH I'M JUST BAD BY SPEAKING OF SAD BYE I'm saying all this "bi" shit, noone born bi thats all philosophy what's that worth really I'm a philantropist. AMERICA IS A COUNTRY WHERE PEOPLE HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF BEING SICK I MEAN FUCK OUTA HERE YOU HAVE TO BE GAY TO BE SICK? thats adding insult to injury hope will understand jury. if my material stolen thats aight im imperial although I've fallen even if im face in the dirt homo on his knees so who's dirt I've had dozens, I've ran into flirt rest in peace kurt unlike cobain me they all blame faggots the ones with no shame even in your play I tame fuck it man, I'm one they all same. aint no pretty face here hope you read this i know you wont hear. im 100 pounds yet bigger than 100 times told jigga when 100's fine dollars my scam 100 lines wrote to uncle sam my 100 fine just saying bamn 100 I'm outnumbered one for my fam 100 on temper just saying tam 100 processes nah it's just ram 100 jamela I'm stuck in jam 100 times stuck in kids cam 100 percent sure maybe I'm bitter DAMN  rabbi I was never man of riots I'm beating the tape they recorded feds bout to rape that's aight I'm wearing the cape I'm goat they scape looks like i'm on death row with fame as fape done with my lap it's too late.

Sickly P as my man matt falcon titled me.

 nah, I was just sicky. my dick wrongly chose, was picky. Falcon's wife a church woman...his father changed score of falcons superbowl...REMEMBERED ME. You know , word...MY PEOPLE THE FALCONS. Matt's dad larry A REALIST TAKE HE TOOK KNEW IM REAL THEY SHOOK. I didn't realize it was down to be gay or die. He understood me, long years back. Intelligent, rich, a man of church. NOTHING BUT RESPECT FOR HIM. "Thou shall not lie in bed with a man as thou would with a woman." He knew all I got is youth..at 33, it was gone. He had me die a man thats definate. I'm pretty sure his wife saved a prayer for me. 95 glendale road, wilbarham, MA, 01095. I remembered his address way back from when I was a teen. Emotionally retarded, never the less...had the mind of a G-E-N-I-U-S. (geller elect no idiot ultimately sacrificed). Emotionally retarded...my father had my wrongs go on. SOCIOPATH AND EMOTIONALLY RETARDED ARE FAR APART. My path to emotion was KILLED when I was just a child. My mother beat my ass in order for me to do well in school. Likely my father had her do so. I remember them arguing often then her coming home late night and sleep by my side hugging me instead of sleeping with him. I had the position of MAN ever since I was a kid...me and her not biologically related so she slept next to me as comfort. Acronym TERMS (This emotionally retarded man stunned). you look at my past as whole.....ah fuck it. ENOUGH SAID. Just, I'm in high hopes..the falcons deliver me a gift after it all. Churcb, riches, hope maturity had matt attend the second. atleast visit the first I'm just diabetic, always in thirst. Liana, spirit of shaindy in the after life. Sarah weiss, a book titled sarah's key. My first land lord (David Weiss) knew I was big on reading thus a book.Sarah was the key. Man, I'm so sorry...a child in emotional maturity so I only cherished the one lady I cried infront of. Emotion had no outlet and I was finally intimate with a woman who let me out. Let out the trauma I went through when I was young.  (Where I'm living there is a antonym to I..HE IS SO EMOTIONALLY STABLE BUT BLUNT AND I DO SAY BLUNT FUCKING RETARDATION) excuse my language :-) money never I play ya boy leaving to say come gunny fuck bunny it's just funny me gay. Once again, some rap in the name falcons.  Now , russians have a music genre called shanson , it's prison music and everything related. I found an american artist whos american shanson. Aside his racist songs, he is man. He spent 20 years in prison, correctional facilities etc. Now as far me, he said "Been on a ocean liner called the cocaine carolina...cocaine carolina how did I get hooked on you." lyrics to my song "Been on a beach called brighton had in me the speedball fighting first time was like I got struck with pleasure lightning, Speedball sue how did I get hooked on you" :*( I'm saying my man david...weiss...oops allen coe. YOU TALKIN AMERICAN SHANSON MY NIGGA, IM ON MY WAY TO PRISON GONNA DIE THERE.....speedball sue how did i get hooked on you. :() oh yeah he said "she was such a lady i was only 22". at 22 got severe brain damage, coma etc. 22 number of relevancy for me. BLACK MY PEOPLE I AINT NO RACIST. THATS A DEFINATE.

Looks like god had built in frustration for me at birth.

 How much suffering a man is willing to take is defined by how much frustration he already took. So be it god, family, or "influential people". Seemed I took first willingly, the other came..well from society. THIS ONE ON YOU ,  I BEEN ON TOP OF LADY WITHOUT YOUR FUCKING SHADY.. AS I SAID...THIS ON YOU. MY POSITION, PLACE... ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY. NEVER BEGGED THOUGH IVE ASKED, AINT ONE MAN THAT COULD SAY HE DID ME A FAVOR. up until recently , but 10 dollars a favor? well you consider 10 bucks a favor...what can I say...retarded maybe. 19 years of frustration followed by 14 of suffering. >>>>33<<< I speak truth even without the booth. oh yeah, willing and will...etc, difference there. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>With willing, just gods will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Video of Parcissus. (gays should have been apoligising, reminding me of sexually traumatic experience didn't arouse me)

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call a woman ugly, call a man gay...they equal with effect on two genders

 To someone you never get to with some you never get AND I STILL GOT SOME....some did get it. faggots call me a narcissist cause i ain't do pussy that was paid for. (only narcissist is shmoodles with his poodles) had a black brotha here call me realist. AGREED WITH MY BROTHER. MY MAN LARRY FALCON HAD SCORE OF SUPERBOWL (ATLANTA FALCONS)...changed for me. My man was just tryin to say I'm bout pauly straight but they got numbers...numbers even or odd i ain't steve and i ain't stud. me even straight, me oddly enough straight....straight realist. STARBUCKS FRAPPUCINO MY VERSES FACE SCAR PACINO ...hearing voices in the after life...absurd STRONG changes time and time again through out the day

lancet is a diabetic thing aint never had bling so came BLANG!!!!!!!!!!!!

writing I freelance I lived chance you know...I DID CHANCE.  and 4th chance...nah my one rap joint..*GRIN* ofcourse i went out at 4. Just like my #4 jewish chick leona, CAME IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-) anxiety nah me they never dismember ya secret society IM SAYIN WHO THE MEMBER? WHATS A 3RD ON LARRY BIRD THATS LIKE A 3RD WING ON YA BIRD. 3RD coma nah i was too hot a thing if im a bird you aint nothin but 3rd wing. (larry bird/larry falcon). 

right and bi, two different words. I'm right past bi.(As of today, bye past)

 cause when im wrong, i dont even my fucking mouth. my father man, shit..HIM! I cared for one woman. I cried in front of one woman. The first woman >I< CHOSE to kiss. We never had sex I passed on her slut of an attractive sis. Had sexual relationship 2 times. One, my love NOTHING BUT MY LOVE INVOLVED. But was it was intimate, no sex. First sexual, we gotta outa hand namean. Went through 12 grand in 2 months. We were getting high fucking. BOY DID I FUCK WHEN HIGH. Now, as said earlier, my LOVE was the daughter of a ukrainian wise guy.  (Told him about anti-semite remark she made) .AND  the second, she was SOBER, i was SOBER. THIS WAS OUR MUTUAL LOVE. She spent my bday at my house, one friend there....another ukrainian. HOW MY FATHER GONNA COMPETE WITH THE MAN.....my son was my 90 year old shadow. AND HE RESPECTED THAT, THATS WHY HE LET ME DIE A FUCKING ROMANTIC. He said "only the good die young" I guess your good man died young cause he could have looked at a early-teenage young age for all of life" I died young despite fact  I was going to be young for a life time. Thats why niggas tried to play me as Parcissus. (he had me live my choices, he did all he could to cover after I made those choices. I mean even if i aint narcissist. i was livin like fuck their voices. everybodys concern fuck em if aint sexual, men who were acknowledged... I kept it  textual. I mean the childhood/youth I had...who i was...who i came to be. as I built up...full of justifiable these so called right doers just werent reliable. they talked of cigs, somehow I find one when I feel I need. The after-life you're fed for. Niggas were feeding bullshit, I didn't eat I spit the game. Bullshit,  wish I had some to sell to feds. I mean eatin....despite having person say I could make it in rap I passed it on eat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I only wrote one rap joint back then and that shit got me killed. I ain't even need to write albums like biggie or pac. Biggie stayed eating, pac was shot. I was a anorexic lookin boy and amongst white getting shot is ah, didnt fit. I died an overdose. My brother, not biological. But...dont see him liking. But looked to be, looks to be....always love me. First one no sex, we just got intimate. we was sober, love in the third. Comas, I didn't live to see a third one. I got intimate though. And there went life. I mean the number three in my life, jesus. I heard the noise of a dropped book. Man lookin like me, felt bigger than my book, jigga you know who was crook. verse for my brother, geller dont do umbrella. I was too big for rap tho, I just stuck to one masterpiece joint I died for. My father, COLD. i mean BE REAL HERE, i has to be cold to survive new york. I'm as gentle a heart as has been. A lady at jewish docs office, she came with a fucking TEAM OF HOMOS..just to say infront of them.. "He likes to cry alone." Referring to me. Never cry alone. Just accepted die alone. Never cried, period.

Maybe just amused by my new york foul

 as far as california. now. Had snot on my wrist, god got the gist. morning >Writing does me in. Or rather, IT DID ME IN. from mimicing anti-semite remarks to me writing more than a paragraph in love , though knowing she aint too bright (I FAVORED) never had her read it. But our parents..politics there in itself. Coincedence with god, irony without. from birth to 22 odd job live too. and STILL THEY KILLED ME. I guess my romantic life and my father as some wise jew guy WAS LIKE TWO DICKS AND NO CHICKS. And dick said fuck me cause I ain't fuck. NOW AS FAR AS. My father was cold. And with me being cold. He had a freak of nature fuck up to compare with. I guess he knew, lookin like me a fuck up mind you in NY. Compare to? cold? you know, I. My father played it as, he was doin everything he can to save me. But, you know what I was killed for...he made the decision on my death a long time ago. Just put on an act of guilt to him. But facts of me and nastya....man id be pushing it i was to say she had me warm up. though I loved her but I mean...loving me...as a woman. Just a helpless child to few women who favored. I PUT HEART(MY WRITING) INTO IT CAUSE OF nASTYA, OBVIOUSLY MY HEART GOT ME KILLED.

i display nothing but loyalty beside the fact i am royalty (any ladies reading i'm bum who rich collecting foodstamps life a bitch)

 russian verse ya emu concretna i svetna pa roje pezdanul (translation -> i got em concretely and light on nailed him in the face ....namean my guest looking lean I aint putting an i in word my certainty in self nailed him myself an i at the end of your pap Parcissus pencil arms once again ALL THATS MISSING IS i at the wild end top of my KILLER russian   ( or just "their mafia nation wide within the law" they offended you killed or deported done deal you sort it....not at all. IM A GODSEND. Thus after life should be smooth it's better life. on a real note I mesmerize came to memory fault what's left in size. IM A MAN OFCLASS THUS ON YOU I TAKE A PASS

pryor ....aint always me

 sometimes seem sadistic humor as well stiff casting top of cliff stick figure with no teeth figuring on 5th my life your gift my rap created beef they equated lift slaughtered a bum no teeth only green ain't dollar a a faulty season leaf