IAM sorry for homophobic remarks I've made gay people been real cool with me.

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verse for u barack

 sayin Obama was a mistake is like fishing with osama at the lake never beat me yous a fake illest verses u know my take ;-) Obama got that ...

Mother said I'm a romantic. my style result from years of aimless reading im aimful feeding. autist!

https://www.blogger.com/blog/post/edit/5074896454593679223/1684892603714142096 <- "right who? wrong where?"



My name is paul and I'm an addict.


those who suffered from day one without solution much like me life lived without a cushion. romance known as my existance has been dedicated to you.

Saturday, September 30, 2023

Today

 WHATS THE USE OF CLEVER IF ITS NEVER so its a prior so its a forth what if its on fire without a cause billy ol bill firing the steel might not appeal but i keep it real U SHow me justice ill show you where the must is "pick sloppy up off the ground and count them pound for pound" - Pro-communism  PUT IT ON MY TAB WRITING IN THE LAB PIERCING WITH STAB DO ONE WITH GOD FAB and to sum up these recent..writings...losing ming glorified chosing mind torpedofied born test in the tube cancer now im best in the tub answer

Humanity

 "To accept defeat and not lose hope, that is the definition of being jewish." - Jewish Noir II, kenneth wishnia . Well, I believe that is the definition of being truly human. With all of lifes difficulties and our survival. .... around my neck got a tight rope forgive me father forgive me pope losing hope never that nope even at my dopeless slope HOW RAPIDLY TIMES CHANGE FOR US AT WYNDHAM GARDEN RANCH i message the massage beepin paging nas I cork her and choke her pauly the night stalker



Friday, September 29, 2023

storm warning rain till 2:30- PHEW

 staring sheer my stance they call it write I call it dance if there is chance of romance you know parcissus freelance he call himself 50 cent break em down 2 quarters you know I went fuckin his daughters asian woman collecting garbage if she was 20 years younger I'm sure atleast she would affford me a date YOU YOU SNITCH I STITCH YOU PASS I PITCH YOU WHINE AND BITCH I RULE IM RICH BUREAUCRACY MY BITCH 


bureaucracy: working routine without intelligent judgement. as time has proven don't take much intelligence for genius. as time has proven and I've worked in which. god did not propose the courtesy of work for me though, so ahh.

add some FUN to lgbtq acronym for "Freak Unifying Nature" or Freak Universal Nationally. or funny up normandy or fans union name etc all is well you know im selling ringing and bellling you doin nothin but tellin WEATHER GETTING COLD IVE GROWN OLD THATS ALRIGHT IM MUCH TOO BALD JORDANS 3PEATS I DO 3FOLD. time for a long walk. jordan got six kobe got five lebron lost count goin live i stand by my war hero ponchik i keep it hebrewist but pakistani my sohnchik bill gates should make a donation to people so outcasted froim intellect to obesity ALL IN ALL OVERALL hardknock life make a donation to this character muhammad that lives here with me man said he rather die on two legs than live on one I'll take two wooden my fate aint pun a little bitter i aint no quitter NEVER BLIND MY SPIRIT IM WITH MY BLACK BROTHAS OF MERIT

mr zuckerberg my wife will i stay alive@@@@@@!@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chat savant BYE GRIEF PLAYER

 like rodman rebounding my whim scoring with lebron on my team pass the ball james would seem but ofcourse for the sake of the team ok jordan was a flawless man i havent watched lebrons games to comment on better player but with jordans height/physics and in his way past the man in the lane with a glory finish i want to be like mike forget just do it, it just is though. death never depressin you missin im messin its raining the bigger you are the smaller you fix make owl my star even with forest ticks my head too big for live tourin shorty dance on two intimate she all fourin im humble joe tossin em royal rumble my flow I tumble then go burry ya savvy for sho I feel bad for the man who leave no positive memories so said in my sincerities. my grief greener than marijuana leaf im leavin it looks so, i do ...hmm marcy zucky nip n tucky if im layed out griefy my heart get stucky dont mean to sound cocky heh cause grief never that mortal cock get stiff FOREVER that

k

 I don't do crime between right and wrong theres a line. I dont do wrong either to mr trump every section of my life was portrayed he agreed but trump not a big fan of rap. it gets boring though without inspiration living around here doesn't up really. reading aimlessly(cause of brain problem) satisfying but juvenile diabetic smoker my age it dulls up quick. waiting for the moment that satisfies eternity. i had that moment at 21 with a man with a vagina quiet tactful if you do witness. can I imagine a man of my appearance at adult communism well if democracy afforded me drugged up romantic life that ive lived i chose demo but ive had to live a life burried in sub-concious and to think my mind still gathered. I can't get into science between demo and communism so no comment. theres so many clinical variants its PHEW... and still the peanuts lay without braineef decay. dont know what im talkin about but i do talk IT. it just is nike #2. i dont know mr trump wanted me in forensic psych for rest of my life biden wants me...to...lost contact oh wait they say swallow your pride im too shallow to swallow but i do think putting ur mouth there is sickening first mouth i had on it was that of a guy im straight but with women i felt bad for them. this is how you know iam a STRAIGHT SYMPATHISER i put my mouth on it without feeling bad for myself. My concious only tends to others. letting emotion get ahead of your dick UNHEALTHY but i never let them get ahead of me. which has been ironically troubling

Thursday, September 28, 2023

new nick nsmr I thought up. Teh Ubernerate

 My philosophy knows its portion Im doin monetary extotion write bars in proportion arguing christ on abortion. >I havent sleep AT ALL in 3days so IM not sure if those verses were hypnotised into me or I thought it off top of  my head almost that quick. maybe they were mimicing my context into me, who knows its 3 days no sleep Sounds like my own wit and in words you greeting Im boreds you start with anecdote sweet cherry Im goat. anyhow YEARS OF WORTHLESS READING HAS BECOMEWELL WORTH ITS WHILE UnCaNNy in DETail my tranny in retail on to a saying which it aint we always love those that admire us but we dont always admire those we love. grinlessly mind seizes comment GOD HUMOURSLY DEFORMED PARCISSUS HE FORMED UNCLE PRYOR PERFORMED

I've created a dragon trailed by the pink wagon.

 Mistakes might be a matter of honesty but it dont matter I'm dumb you see. :-F I STAND FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN SO TAKE A SEAT WIT PWNED homie what u waiting for me just kill me what u hatin for me just bill me it the dirt fiction day dream fiction to friend or so it would seem with who theres I with what are we with where I'd hope a she though love aint to be anyhow man put it together, you know WHAT AND HOW I DO. THREE DAYS OF NO SLEEP Panoleon Panobarte. I rock hoes yall rock fellas my son nas said "Brilliance at hand alliance goes as planned" - Parcissus. I AIBT GOTZ NO MONEYS NO TEEFUZ N NO DRIVER LICEBSE MY FUCKING PHONE DIED DAMN cOUNSELOUR DIDNT PAY NYC AINT TAKEN CARE OF SICKLY P :-( >>AS i tell a women counterparts read short book called "Vox" by nicholson baker about a woman and a woman...chatting on a phone sex hot line it sounds perverted but it is written crazy creative and has some wit and the ending is IF I DO SAY SO MYSELF romantic just not in the feminine sense of the word IM AVAILABLE IF YOURE ABLE TO FUCK AT THE STABLE

Wednesday, September 27, 2023

Family turn to after turning into philosophy

 I don't come from biological family but I can relatedly understand. neither parent biological. mother raised a man she aint raise no son.and in adulthood out of ladyish attachment she put up with madness a long time. when that kind of influence plays into a freak of nature whos been with women sexually plays into character, welll...you get me. onto MY PHILOSOPHY...WITH WHO THERES ONLY I WITH WHAT THERES ONLY WE WITH WHERE I HOPE A SHE THOUGH LOVE AINT TO BE brilliance..i think think ponchik amusing for a obese peanut "I may be dumb but I know the difference between right and wrong" - Richard Pryor

well

 Show you the bigger man at 100lbs soaking wet five foot ten. its come to where america a country of people ashamed to be sick or pavel ashamed to have a dick. masks, how long till people leave it alone will i live to see the day people let it be. i don't know how much they pressing down on my timer, as ill as iam rhymer. I been sick my whole life this isnt anything new i survived to 40...ashamed or whatever I'm just "parcissus". i  had guys come up to me imposing questions on testosterone damn Its come to where I can jerk off picturing myself naked. I'm only gay when I look at the mirror. so mr, tom cruise my son getting Top gunned you know who the Bottom Gunner is. i dont want to live at your house ofcourse but i fucked up and even if she cared for me WORLD POLITICS WONT ALLOW IT. so what now? someone must have an imagination thats "delicately precise"...advise judgement day befalls us bathroom stall it stalls us i aint one to endorse money even horsing around just to sound funny. "crackhead", fuck outa here anyone that even has that word in their vocabulary I tell you for blunt fact, I got more values than. r.i.p ms. eckstein i remember clearly u using the phrase "leftist BASTARD" ..so just on that note i'm right. cuz when im wrong i dont open my mouth

mishuganah

 sp? I listen to myself talk but I don't do small talk. I don't even listen, I read. a writing/reading habit over the course of so many years. I guess I've become a self-absorbed person, thats ok I got bigger problems atm. and yestrday belongs to uncle sam. "They tried to kill us, we survived, lets eat." -Some jew author . I hope they don't kill me. Blind faith I suppose in my place I'll impose. well, I hope they haven't found a new reason to consider a freak of nature a non-disabled person. This new found speech problem, I can't get a word out of my mouth 2minutes at a time. I get lost making 3 turns brain cant sync memory with movement. I was a straight A kid but it took me years to learn to tie my shoes. oh well, pretty big head over the years. Birth defect, cursed impact. I don't do riots even if theyre getting taped don't mean to pry even if the author getting raped. there's somebody for everybody sad to say shaindy eckstein didnt find somebody in her life time i remember she hooked up with some puerto rican guy at a meth program a friend told me "He's the only one that would fuck her". and man, her jew boy marc levy. or levi or levi's whatever you want to call em. asshole had a dope habit being a rich trust fund kid without a problem in the world.  r.i.p ms. eckstein i should have looked a little farther than tomorrow when I wss young ...but the youth of a NYC freak of nature living poverty life style, let me tell you west 23pj's aint got shit on that.

Tuesday, September 26, 2023

I favor jewish people and I would LOVE TO LEARN..

why they never have pets. only thing about them I look down at as result of.ah, well. its ok. A Sociopath is born not made. so they aint losing no respect from me. and IAM DEAD SERIOUS 21  YEARS OF DRUGS WITHIN POVERTY I HAVE NOT SOLD MY ASS ONCE. NOT ONCE and believe you me ive had my options in different states, attractive rich etc. whatever. NEVER DID IT. although there's an exception to every rule even for the few amongst the fool :) there is ONLY ONE IM A DEEP THINKER AND ILL TELL YOU ONLY ONE RULE AINT NO EXCEPTION TO... A PEDOPHILE IS FUCKING FILTH, DIRT, SCUM. I dont care who you are, rich poor pretty ugly tall short so on so forth, no exception. 


LIfe... a complex notion much like THE stormy ocean.

 Had a storm hit my poor mind at young age, disaster. There is a difference between excuse and reason thats why these so called moralists catching abuse this season. Only difference from a PSYCHOLOGICAL ASPECT between me and pops...I ain't no fucking sociopath. I remember in 8th grade careers class I was put to work in a pet store alone but I had severe childhood asthma and with allergy to cats, I didn't last too long. So they put me to work in a kindergarten watching little tikes play and teaching them a thing or two. I remember I worked with "Shamella" and "Mary". You girls hold deep sentiment for me. doubt you remember Sickly P though. unless ofcourse one of you works here I apologise for lack of recognition. I hate people who are assholes toward me cause they can't admit they are in love with me. yeah, I've had a difficult and transgender HELADY kate (original name) I know you love me. cool it with the crack though cause closing ya pussy to get dick installed.....aint going to save you. Not every drug addict is like me, IM A MAN OF MORAL VALUES. I value a memory at west 23rd PJ's. heh these pussies want to call queensbridge ghetto my son try the adress I gave you. You'll learn what ghetto is. last but not least, as a freak of nature I've never held a real friendship with anyone and at this point noone will gave me a chance regardless so with small talk, WE AINT GOT SHIT TO TALK ABOUT THATS LIKE STALK THEN SHOUT. last verse I'm not sure If It was hypnotised into me. i don't like people who paint themselves superior because of their background as far as instilled values go. I don't paint, im not an artist so argument lets not start this. charles rhodes turned into Jessica Rhodes. JR ,, as far as JRs Id to meet you Jason Rosenthal colleague of my romantic childhood. with your face, dont know if i'd be able to recognize though. I really didnt intend nor mean anything antisemitic though I was just writing tactful rap translating cultural context. Sarah weiss, after what my father did to me I have to be afraid of jewish girls I'm sorry I didn't sell my ass that day. you seem like ok girl. this chino gay called me a crackhead LOL i got more values than you any given sunday crackhead huh stfu if im a crackhead why is it that almost EVERY DAY I see this oriental bum WOMAN collecting fucking bottles I clip my cigarette and go in to get food. While your faggot ass sits back relaxing eating your 99 cent chips not giving a fuck, a LADY , A LADY IS LIVING LIKE THIS. AND YOU HAVE BACKGROUND TIES AND YOU WALK BY NOT EVEN GLANCING HER WAY.  YOU ARE THE FUCKING CRACKHEAD  while you been living it up catching jizz shots in your cock eyed face I was living a life of hardships and suffering so enjoy your doritos buddy boy. i dont give a fuck if you big black small white or an asshole chino. you bully/talk shit to a sick person youre a fucking shmuck pops got what he deserved I took in a homeless baby kitten in crown heights brooklyn living at three quarter house on welfare and my father killed him. you could do that to a BABY ANIMAL you deserve worse than a damaged eye. Sociopath. AND YOU THINK YOU GONA GET A BLOWJOB FROM ME FOR MONEY? FUCK OUT MY FACE  piece of shit. I don't sell my ass. I GOT SELF RESPECT. and its not even a matter of straight gay cause Ive fooled with men too...just the day i take money for sex is the day hell freeze over. i dont give a fuck how rich you are, you aint buying me. enough said. MS DREYFUS LET EM KNOW MA. arthur first name tokarev last name (Son of famous russian singer) and Arkadiy Tolkachev . AT , at where...pfft I haven't met one sociopath who's decent in my life. with men i dont give a fuck how rich, or how famous so on so forth. I AINT NO FUCKING WHORE. its deep sentiment. Ponchik obese retarded arab, but he got flavor tho na mean. I AINT SHALLOW EITHER OBVIOUSLY> BYE and tokarev tried to kiss me , it's cool tho he had MS so has my sympathy. I was getting high with him though otherwise I would have sucked his dick out of sympathy. true.

Monday, September 25, 2023

to START at hero when you're below zero is more complex than a marvel hero.

 LOOKS LIKE they're planning to kill me though. when you can process only so much in the short term and your brain acts ONLY on that thats a comic approach I apologise for grins that Ive caused when social concious is eliminated from the persona Ive grown a pretty big head over the years. oh, was born with one. No fatal error from the start I dont date all just be smart. TO START AT ZERO WHEN YOUR BORN BELOW LIFES HEROIC sigh have to go oh wait whats there to say about egos mines dont exist aside from around gay men >I LIKE> all that exists atm is a obese retarded pakistan boy is this guy autistic jesus  i dont want to take advantage of noone and hope i didnt but sure didnt seem like it! bye

ok

 Freedom of speech not freedom of words if they're free then I'm bored. nah words are speech im flamboyant life's a bitch. fuck these pussies and their lucies i stay smoking cigarettes butt pure in the first pull born to be mutt the mic i lit up whoda think itd that hot aside the fact that i got these voices is not hearing them clearing them mind they rott zuckerberg you say much I say lot. just too much oh well. time to go to cvs for a cigarette CIGARETTE WAS AN INSULT. thats already i never insult myself and as far as im concerned "Opinion is small talk". On small talk I saw a young lady that heavily resembled an alexis I met as a teenager. maybe fact i didnt know seldom the case interrupted my flow guy said im living the life well if im living the life call me fam cause I'm fucking your wife. Let it be I just hope they don't kill me. paranoid schizophrenia paranoia/psychosis dont last for more than a decade. I havent been able to think "clear headed i been moist fear the bread if there's a choice". "<Sexta> Embellishing retarded." im retarded its ok said my part even if i'm gay. like i said i said i dont know if im straight but in my mind iam because I prefer Nastya. or as a childhood friend called her "nasty". same guy whos pops told him "If I find out youre gay Ill kill you". so fuck him and his nasty comment guy been in love with me since we were 9. Hope his "female paul" michelle is ok. I DONT KNOW MAN WHAT THEY WANT FROM ME SO FAR AS I CAN TELL THOUGH CIGARETTE BUTTS ALL IS SWELL. so far im allowed to just be me thank you for that much. sigh my precious jessica isnt around no more I'm sorry life grew me so self-absorbed. i remember a homeless guy as a teenager he was black standing brighton beach ave every day we would smoke weed with him. we'd call him "PEta mike" in russian means "Fruity mike" guy tells me "my pops saId the russian mafia tried to recruit him one day" whoda thunk Id be a freaky peta mike in staten island one lady tells me "There aint a teenager in staten island who dont got a video of you in their phone" well GEE OK THEN "Kayla Perry" or is it Perri. she lived a floor below me for a while she knows I'm a showerless man of CLASS. I hope everything ok with her. Lol. really am sorry tho sigh  ADD CLASS TO BUM YOU MISS THE SUM. "if youre saying im too proud youre the same just too loud." - Parcissus Good night.

I'm just in high hopes my father a DECENT man who was troubled by secrecy. HIGH HOPES

 Here's wit. Post trauma I rumble OBAMA MY BUMBLE this summer I tumble in the hummer are humble. Brilliance at hand fuck the alliance Im a one man band Literary genius gone to waste thats alright I'm wearing toof paste. "Suffice to say death is near I hope I made myself dear" degree in western lit nah I read and dont remember shit. sub-arachnoid hemmorhage fucked a freak of natures brilliant mind. As a college professor handing out finals papers said "The amicable paul geller" lol as far as pops goes "When you are a married man even with just yourself you do it for family even if by yourself" - Parcissus at the moment I reckon bullets packing I get gun. Me unable to express myself is like the book without a shelf. You bother my row I murder ya so play games no more THIS COUNTRIES POLITICS RELY ON MY TICS GOD PLEASES IT SEEMS US THE REAPER HE HE GRIMS US MY YOUTH IS LONG DISTANT I FACE IT THIS INSTANT :( MADE GELLER A LEGEND NAME WITHOUT THE BADGE MUCH THE SAME  MY LIFE IS OPEN TO INTERPRETATION SOON IS BED TIME COME SEDATION. society I sleep in day dream I'm weeping. fuck your nietzche hes in the bucket tore his eye socket. whats behind honesty adds to my sum you see. Grief smoking spliff take a whiff turn stiff. role naughty nada john gotti gada. ....last but not least "I aid and heal the elf have I become a man in love with himself" Or even born to be. SIGH *Spits*

Genius in certainty not yet the curtain see.

 A grinning father a sinning mother god bless my HUMAN brother. cause im A CRIPPLED DUCK WITH THE CRAZIES NIPPLE TUCK WITH THE LAZIES. gELLER A LYRICAL GOD SEND ROCA FOLLA AINT BUT TREND. ZUCKERBERG FIRST OFF MY NAME EXCLUDED AS MY PUERTO RICAN BROTHER CONCLUDED. HEH NOW WITH GETTING OVER THE PAST YOU PUT MY EGO TO TEST.  my arrogance spittin bars im retulian from mars fuck the hollywood stars. IM SO FAR ABOVE THE MORALS OF THE MASSES RESTING ON CORALS TEACHING CLASSES. "I'm the rarest being call me creature living on welfare bum despite the fact I couldn't get any richer" - Sickly P IM AS MUCH A JUNKIE AS THE A STUDENT A FLUNKY. "juST LOOK HOW MUCH MY SUB-CONCIOUS HAD TRAPPED THE UNCONCIOUS I TAPPED" - Parcissus I don't want em makin empty promises i hope he dont i hope team obama sees past my font. Ofcourse I aint the brightest bulb in the box despite shiny pink socks. I ADD A COMEDIC TOUCH IF ITS NURTURE TOO MUCH. STOPPIN THE TOPPERS FUCK THE MAC IM ONE WITH THE WHOPPERS. thanks to pops I've NEVER had to lie aside the fact I've had to death defy. Rant #2 from sunday ends

Every addict has his norm as it may be funky and have its form.

 Can't tell the difference between right and wrong how about if it shouts wrong at you your whole life then the concept of right is eliminated. I'm NOT a sociopath though. I think over the masses they try for my classes with drugs best off take passes. I'll turn a gay man straight or decide a puzzled mans fate. MY CREDENTIAL ON THE STREET ESSENTIAL WITH HOT BEAT. ITS MURDER SHE WRONG FUCK THIRD AND SHE CHOKED. "I'm the luck of the few despite my misfortune its true" - sickly P as matt falcon named a MMORPG character for me. a game. committed to ill in treason im spraying bullets with no reason. always got something to say in my darkest time or day. saying im not a lovable guy is like the fly button without the fly. the struggling stranger carrying heat in the ranger. i panic the riddle insane i fiddle. my intimacy is immune to the ties of far reach. im in the process of fucking is it fame im dying. I love myself, take a polite pass. I've grown a pretty BIG HEAD over the years. DOUFY DUCK DUEL LAUGHING LUCK FOOL. The sorrows of aging Parcissus. 

Friday, September 22, 2023

huh

 My sub-concious been running it a long time baby. Longer than dead was and alive will be. - The american Idiot, yours truly. What's there to say about right and wrong...My mind can't differentiate between left and right. I make 3 turns walking and get lost. Aweful. IM JUST GIVING YOUR OPINIONS A DAY OFF I PLAY SOFT. lump lusty low go glowy gender. PAIN COMES SECONDARY MUCH LIKE THE TOOTH FAIRY AINT GOT NO TEETH WHATS THERE TO SAY OF PAIN - Panoleon Panobarte, yours truly.  one for your kids getting a tooth pulled! MY MOTHER AINT THE MAN ONLY CAUSE SHE WASNT BORN A MAN. ONLY REASON. SHE RAISED 100LB >MAN<. TRUE STORY MY SON back to "right and wrong" what if it shouts wrong at you your whole life from the day you were born. was DOCUMENTED. my son trump. I aint exagerating either I don't involve myself in  self-pity or attention whoring i aint a faggot. grief no spliff take a whiff turn stiff. like dostoevsky spoke of me he said " I babble because I do nothing or is it that I do nothing because I babble." on the other hand me "What's left of right I laugh in spite" - Pavel Geller. hmm..I'm done with blog-babble. Have a nice day folks. Tolka molodost svoyu vo sne ne vstretish

Thursday, September 21, 2023

further philosophy on attraction from your 'Tardenius".

 before I said men are amused when attracted and women are attracted when amused. now i say it is odd because men will laugh after sex testosterone only feels once the ultimate feeling is gone. and women will laugh before sex. estrogen is comfortable with the idea of "friend"..hormonal involvement but is friend really a passive word? Well how far in, what it's about and every so often where it resides. I'm as retarded as you are bright it sounds fun no need for fight. MY MOTHER AINT THE MAN ONLY BECAUSE SHE AINT A MAN. only reason.  i been wrong i aint evil rap this verse just so you see all. Pain in suffering enhances joy Suffering in pain could turn you toy. I don't think a philosopher could ever be happy it aint in the profession. as I said though professions dead ass "BRO" I dont know how to mop but I know how to rap. 6 consecutive years of sitting in a small room alone reading/writing with no socialising at all except necessary appointment I had one fag hag talk about "he likes to cry alone" man if I was about crying I'd be on oprah long time ago. maybe belated wonders you listen he thunders. I got the hall of esoterics induction no shame in glory of seduction.  mr zuckerberg honey one for you okay just know when my day comes SONNY bOY Ill have eternity in space come my time and place. as far as down playing my WELL ORCHESTRATED "HEROics"  if you write shit i didnt say or etc. you playing on my sickness to further harm me you are a real winner. matt falcon tell my sons what I'm about. i dont tell the truth because i never lie stuck feeling the blues I death defy. premature babies mature late their state is my fate. THERE IS REALIST RAP LINE FOR YOU. I TELL YOU "FELLAS" I GAVE MY LIFE TO BE STRAIGHT WITH INCONVENIENCES IN BETWEEN HOW IS THAT FOR BAD GUY. now all is post-op ailed-play aint shit but as dr. dre said "The Aftermath". motherfuckas dont know what a hard life is then they bout to find out what the sharp knife is. as far as lady next to me in library jeez where they find these...foxes is it with an f? who knows

Wednesday, September 20, 2023

maybe i got paranoid schizophrenia

 within the last year i started taking antipsychotics and these nutty ideas stopped rupturing the rampant madness of my morbid mindset. if the UN saw my first grade yearbook photo me next to the teacher top of gym in communist soviet union man i'd be a world legend. my pops prolly threw it out tho its ok his well being is more important to me than my legacy ATLEAST WHEN I CAN THINK CLEARLY NOT IN PSYCHOSIS THAT WENT ON FOR MANY LONG YEARS. I SHIT U NOT. THE MINDSET OF PERSISTENTLY PLAYFUL PARCISSUS. 3 P'S MISSING 4TH FOR PUSSY. i dont know if i was born gay or straight maybe gay cause of a troubled childhood doing good in school and always being bullied by fellow males. so my sex with women could have just been the need for their support. and theres a reason support and satisfied start with the same letter. Sex as well can come as first and result from second. 3 P's 3 S's. PS.child like me belonged in special ed but mentality otherwise noted. The Hardships of young pauly. or maybe cursed with a concious. not sure what my biography will be entitled to. i need a nigerian psychologist. these white faggots dont cut it

Monday, September 18, 2023

almost had a bus kill me

 i stand and i paint if i sit shall he reign. guts across the belly i unveil machiavelli. what  more  needs catastrophenor say of the morning. enjoy tuesday now black and proud i stack foodstamps loud i aint short im morbidly thin and my whole character foreplay iam not Napoleon. I am Panoleon Panobarte. CIAntics with their antics i'm a god send if play in my band if read ayn rand if its all been planned stiff. Precursor or somesing fuck  they on!! man this fucking type of flying bug landed between my right hand index finger and middle one now I cant stop itching my hand. its eating me up!!!!!!!!! the government fucking around with me cause I went on a theft spree stealing coffee from chain pharmacies for 2-3 weeks straight. why me mr zuck bergstein why must i suffer for humanitys sins im not the lord!! first half of my life ALL OF IT psychologically second half physically BELIEVE ME I AINT SHITTING YOU. APPARENTLY MR TRUMP AGREED. LEFTIST OR NOT@!!!!! :-( THat wAS wed sept 20 2023. oh yeah im above whore houses runnin chore blouses

Saturday, September 16, 2023

i speak the troof.

 i dont need sex i need text i dont pay tax who got next. I DONT DO JOB WITH BLOW PRIOR THE HEART THROB BABY ON FIRE. I aint sexy I'm texty. they destroying my mind thats aight  baby im on the grind freak like me is hard to find think i aint freaky must be blind my verses bluntly bind. oh yeah i get fucked with hardcore someone hacked my phone and fucked with it. a fan maybe but likely father. I already gave # of dealer and what they call him to people who work ON THE BOOKS and told them if anything happens to me he knows. fuck you faggots there should be a law called "Victim Edit" where closest person/people of the person killed have the right for a substantial decrease in sentence of killer in return for information that leads to serious relevant information that leads to people at top of crime being arrested.




Friday, September 15, 2023

no need to argumentative with the representative.

 Pickle over tomato dick L just say so. Age within bracket of reason you know I pack it this season. you can expect wild adventures in my sinful ventures. im verbally violent voloptously silent. I keep my credentials on the street essential with hot beat. nasty on the mic namean. I can hit it I can eat it I cant treat it but I can spit it. LIFE ABOUT BRINGING JOY I SAUCE IT UP CALL ME MR SOY. IM SHYLY UNDISPUTED FORTUNE IS SELF MUTED !! ambiguity of the matter is if serendipity gets any wetter. they say stress with blink naughty with wink you know im hollarin pink.



 A GAY MAN WHO SINGS IS ALLOWED FAME AND ATTENTION IN RUSSIA CAUSE HE WAS BORN IN PRISON UD THINK CAUSE I KNOW HOW TO RAP ID BE ALLOWED STRAIGHT CAUSE IM A FREAK OF NATURE WHO NASTY ON THE MIC. im a queer heh

Wednesday, September 13, 2023

schizophrenic conversations that...

 you can never guess a mans bed taste by his weight class. That's where new york is mistaken. it aint just me. this huge arabic dude missing teeth evidently likes men. berserk. away to conversations now. if i wasnt running short on time id become tyra bloomberg of nyc. that'd be quiet the comedy and if you could look at it as anything but....then I ..pity. Misfortune. The miracle . I spoke in a loud voice came to me out of where and this attractive lady prolly about 20 walked by. I wasn't referencing to medical incidents or talkin to her RATHER i thought of it was an insecure teenager way. Guess some ladies just got it.

Tuesday, September 12, 2023

niggas wana turn seinfeld into top gun or somethin with me playin

 I am TopFeld. anyhow. You 20 at wig while Im 40 at big. forgot my phone home im at library FUCK marcy marc donate to my broadway play PWEEEEZ NOW...THE WORDS I RUMBLE ASSEMBLE THE HUMBLE IM A HINDU NAMEAN I SPEAK THE TRUTH EVERY TIME I TYPE INTO BLOG.IM BELOW HUMAN NEEDS THOUGH ABOVE HUMAN GREEDS IM A PHILOSOPHICAL EINSTEIN LETS HAVE A GLASS  WINE AND DINE. FIVE CARD I DONE BID IT ON THE MIC LETS JUST SAY I DONE DID IT IN PHYSIQUE A WISE BOY PLEASING TO THE RIGHT TOY. "When a good deed survives lower image line up survives the line of scrimmage" - The saintly Parcissus. i think these faggots got me sick with a dirty needle duno for sure  but probably. fucking pussies lol k have a pleasent say FAWKZ bye

Monday, September 11, 2023

"mother called me funky and the friends said im a junkie" - say who

in the pants i stay packin g bread i stay racking. horse play the anorexic remorse say the dyslexic. A ON THE LIST NUMBER ONE GET THE JIST YOUR RECORDS I DISSED NEVER ONE TO GET PISSED  i hate the fact that its mighty late rate the fact you lightly intimidate. IM YOUR RUSSIAN PUPPY EATIN BLUSHIN SLOPPY  i taint the paint im a saint in pain. i round about behind the curtain drown about im certain. FUCK OJ IM BART TIMES IS HARD SAYS YOUR LYRICAL BARD  HOLLA FABOLOUS NAMEAN i rap time running on clock jessica clap even though she got cock. my heart in the country but new york built hope it aint to quilt me . grindy on grind brandy on brian, LUST IM LACKIN AND LOOKIN CRUST IS CAKE AND IM COOKIN. i respect labor day shorty i save her day. i take the fall aint no wig im just that small aint no big. MORNING SEDUCE ME  INFUSE ME USE ME AND REFUSE ME. FUCK THE NURSE DICK SO BIG I WAS FUCKIN AT BIRTH. GOT U FEELIN SHOOK WE AT THE SHACK YA POINT SO MOOT I BLAST THE MAC CARS I STAY FORD ME LAMBO PLZ AFFORD ME  namean lol SAFELY I BET EM CROOKED I SET EM PUSSIES I PET EM 16 BARS KNOW I JET EM I ASPIRE N DEFEAT THE DEVIL U JUST PERSPIRE U AINT ON MY LEVEL.BROTHERS got families to feed just incase you bleed my verses youll need without sayin i do good deed in rap game im takin the lead.



r.i.p shaindy eckstein may you rest in peace up there hun. 04-14-84 I THink you were born dont remember DOD.

 

I PUT MY BEST FOOT FORWARD AND THE REST ARE BACK. well sunshine o mine im a saint amongst swine.

im one with comfort of masses i aced life fuck yale classes. its fun to frown cant look too far down! obama u do better in school than me ..PFFT

I UNDERSTAND THE SITUATION FUCK THE CIRCUMSTANCES I FREE THE NATION, NAMEAN

MY RHYMES GET DEEPER MARKET GET STEEPER DIVE INTO DEEPER THE GODDESS GET PEEPER

"QWERTY IM   QUEER FLIRTY NO FEAR." - Parcissus hi beyonce  cutie with a bootie i hope all is well in your life my peanut gal! u r very attractive on serious note though! TO MY GALS OF THE PAST IM THE MORAL OF THE STORY I DONT MIND SAYING SORRY DOES IMPOSSIBLE AID OR NEGATE THO NAMEANIES I FROLIC THIS WIT SYSTOLIC IN HEAT.


this post is for my man fabolous he was kind enough to visit me in rikers island ty fab :))))))))) but anyhow fab cmon now u know who todays illest ehehe

Friday, September 8, 2023

balls is burning niggas hatin it looks like namean

 I HATE THE FACT THAT ITS LATE AND RATE THE FACT YOU INTIMIDATE AT ZERO PFFT MY BALLS BURNIN11111111111111111111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT HURTS WAAAAAAAAAAA ;O(  JESSICA AINT NEAR BUT THE OBJECT OF MY AFFECTION I PERSEVERE IN YA FUCKING ELECTION  I PUT THEM  PUSSIES ON ALL FOURS FUCK THRU EM LIKE THEY DOORS I SANK HER LEAVE YA STITCHIN I BE THE BANK SON STAY BITCHIN THAT ASS THAT I SPANK FAST BALLS IM PITCHIN  ....well now "I captivate the mind one like mine is hard to find" - Parcissus with these court pleas ya know im tryin aint lying into ya business aint prying fact is a genius is dying

Friday, September 1, 2023

how many men

 offered me life for a blowjob. quite frankly I wouldn't be too intimidated if I knew offer didn't result from a  pedophile video of me at 15 they saw. It's fun to frown can't look too far down. It ain't jewish or christian / black or white either. Because chances are I was born a jew though I believe in lord jesus. And I've had as ghetto a life  as new york has seen to this day. I uphold black interests, ie: basketball/rap. On the other hand enjoy reading/writing. However white that may be. So what now, I just got back from 5-6 mile walk trying to keep the heart savvy. Feline don't be such a child and make it gay/straight either. Gay straight is spite hate. There's verse of the day for you. Well mr, zuckerberg it'a a shame these library computers don't enhance IRC and I'm thirsty so bye. oh yeah IF ITS FREE I AINT DYING CLIMB A TREE KNOW I'M TRYING DESPITE CREDENTIALS I'M LEFT CRYING MY STEWIE HEAD AMERICA PRYING K