"Some people never change."- Rarely does it happen otherwise, I don't see a reason other deep attachment to someone but anyhow.. me being one of those people. False. Me not changing is related only to something i can't change of myself. And it ain't shit like "addiction" which you can stop if enough dedicated. It's my physique. Ain't no changing it. Anything I can change but don't or whatever. Is DIRECTLY related to appearance. Any talk of other...small talk. Or "philosophy", me talking solely to myself isn't philosophy. It's pavel . Me gay? Fact, is blunt fact. I wasn't born so. Regardless of what's done to me what happens cause of faggot hypnotizing be that faggot my own father, only makes him less than lessiest. What happens which I can't remember doesn't change blunt fact either. And it won't change your penis envy, blunt fucking penis envy. You want to talk about self esteem? If you were man enough viagra would cut it for you as far sex with woman. Thus you're the only one lacking it. Anyhow, all is fact related to blunt fact. Hate to put so much focus on sex and what my ungodly body makes of me. But never the less, with homos (even if involuntarily) supporting it and what other reason, I can't think of at the moment. I'm straight, even if heavenly gate tomorrow, my birthday. Christ mother mary, and jesus the idiot of prophecy ( virgin ), mother mary from what i think I know, nevermind virgin mary had a husband. However your faggot ass religious background cuts into all that and so on so forth. Joseph my pops name...and what he makes of himself today it seems now (had no clue prior is his relation to KGB) and money...him rich. Apparently even with both influences gone...don't change him. I firmly believe never will. But me being hypnotized into saying being bum makes me. or whatnot. it's pretty much true. Money influence be further addiction and without drugs...looking like me...money would have fucked me in ways that drugs couldn't so do. So KGB or my father being nothing but spite killing a helpless cat, apparently my brother who obviously has a conscious was alright with that idea. He made up for it being so heroic adopting a second cat. So ofcourse, logic states...just father in control of his conscious be it money or "faggotry" or whatnot...FACT DONT CHANGE BLUNTEST OF FACT. Doubt hypnosis of him is relevant to the incident. Anyhow I'm done a friendly person with a conscious being alright with a homeless animal being killed mind you a cat I found in backyard of a three quarter house I was living at long time ago. Etc... America captured me. Anonymously "cri" man. I won't comment on further heroics as far as to animals ago, my heroic mother. I had a dog, animal of sentiment the only positive sentiment I had at the time. Her making sure he's not taken by me cause of anger towards her friend. Knowing full well dog going to end up in animal shelter. So 2 animals , 2 family members , more 2's . Ain't going to see a third so can't make it 23. I figure zuckerberg is selective which of info I write here goes public. Clearly with my father being loaded etc, He won't have this publicized. Penis envy, pavel esoteric, Parcissus end. nah, parcissus is fiction just like al pacino playing scarface. That will only start in the after life. I'm big on fiction only in reading...al pacino? based on his skill acting which I GUARENTEE AND I DO SAY I GUARENTEE...talent related to his sexual preference. Alright, I'm done on that one. I'll go take a walk and further praise "pacino's heroic". Pavel heroin. etc...ok