im sickedy ill gently still nicest you feel i keep it on real

 you are my gun rhyme my only gun rhyme you make me happy when guns spray. fuck the sunshine nigga i drink red wine nigga deeply sighin nigga return to top im tryin nigga . im humble i hand all i stumble i sent all im bumble i bent all i rumble i rent all i mumble i meant all. IAM THE OPPOSITE OF NARCISSIST FUCK U WHOEVER MADE PARCISSUS REMARK when life gets to you in my house to 61-27 186st my house atm I HAVE THE WHITE HOUSE WEARING A BLOUSE try to put me in forensic psych they fila im wearing nike when you're reading/writing hours a day everyday obsessively they called it chatting nah wording my life more like it. oh well IM EXPRESSING IN RAP SUPRESSING AND I TAP IF ITS DEPRESSING I NAP.  im not too proud to fuck hockey i puck bullets i duck tits i tuck who said im shmuck lunch and marijuana time! back from my healthy walk :-) after-> the ssaint paints . he only paints though ..otherwise "itd be hard." trump tried to land me in the forensic psych for life i had two ppl a psychologist and a social worker tell me i'd get it if i took isanity plea. but...given all. i dont know if i should smile. SOMEONE TELL ME and look what they brushed upon me "black like me" by john howard griffin i can see 40 book titles at once hyperlexic years i look was looking at 2 shelfs 3 sections deep and i saw this one almost instantly maybe i was yearing for comfort of black folks. just a hypergraphic view on cast away...-> whats the cause of the applause of i close off its too soft for the ...ahem qwell im sure of myself im full of that one what if you switch places of myself and that one . not soundin antonym pacino ok

I tell you one thing for a FACT. parcissus my ass im humble

 when my friends all had " a dick 6 inches big " I never commented on mines. LITERALLY NEVER. I never looked up average size never looked up small dicks on the internet or photos of. I did post a nude video once in later life. I'm sure of myself. Ever since a child, I've NEVER had to impress anyone. or is it I've never FELT THE NEED to impress because mother never showed me much love. no intimate moments. thus I've never had to gain it elsewhere. rap or philosophy call it what u "faggot niggaz" will ...namean tyra i dont want no autograph but u could be 80 and i'd still stay sober 6months straight to drool on your rack. your image makes me forever a 98 teen. 97 bonnie and clyde huh, me and my fantasy , i'm 98. so ms. banks holla atcha boy! (im sorry if kramer from seinfeld feels that way about me, what can i say..  life aint perfect" I respected my father so like father like son. i like boyish girls who dont wear make up. man with vaginas. if young tom cruise had a pussy I'd do halloween for hollywood. that would be GOD. not messiah not moyshuh. mwahSHUSH. i'd be MWAshushing . my mother quite a man so i suppose its my pops preference to. though we're not biologically related he's all i know. been there my whole life. zuckerberg, where my..mask....oh wait, I'm Parcissus..sorry. Harvard or HARDWORD . i got my word and my hypogonads i dont break em for nobody.  the beautys nipples become erect with the cripples impact they say swallow your pride i dont swallow i spit ;-) oh yeah psychology for you i dont find breasts something I can get into cause i wasnt breast fed. breasts are attractive though I LIVE TODAY THINK ABOUT YESTRDAY THINK INTO TOMORROW NO PAY IN MY PLAY LIFE FULL OF SORROW romanticism did a number on me what can i tell ya. 130 pounds thin you rate 130 rounds in you hate i would never claim to be no al pacino he bright and shiny my lights is dim though then again it aint 1983(scarface release) anymore for him! it will ALWAYS be 1983 for me, year i was born. I must in mustard I crust in custard on scarface.."sometimes romantic requires wrong im frantic in my song" - pavel "pasha" geller. pasha is russian way of saying pauly if a man is gay and you repeat 'youre gay' towards him arent you creating a philosophical antonym. satan im berating im playing you hating you purse im finance you nurse try my stance you curse i freelance reimburse whats THE chance. you taint when i paint im a saint it rained halloween gifts are welcome to scary kruger over here

ah

 i come at ya rock hard leavin ya soft bullets drop low leave ya body in loft i tame ya attention of the game got sanction on the mic im a beast the infection is yeast im at the top thats to say least ya swallow my jizz vocal my feast im like a grizzly at the horse stable my son u a pony in mommys fable! who nicer, fabolous could have my lyrics hehe he was nice enough to visit me in rikers i plead the fifth why lie through my teeth when we'll settle the beef after im done smokin the leaf my woman talkin like she like em soggy got me feelin type foggy im one with big smokin the nuggy. well, children, its time for breakfast. <- 6:05 am 10/31  my day baby halloween. "Scary Kruger" like a man here called me. well who else know dostoevsky that chat im from st petersburg nevski pruh-spekt. (neighborhood in leningrad now st petersburg) i got a phd in linguistics the c and k in that pronounciation a life time of worthless reading but i understand the sounds too. the sound of that loving feeling. i only read about 250 pages of "The Idiot"(doestoevsky) and the one memorable moment is where the book hero saintly prince myshkin who was a virgin..turns out he has only kissed one woman, and that was only out of sympathy. id like to say i kissed her out of sympathy(tho aint a virgin) but a ukrainian wise gal...sympathy..jew lookin big head nigga with pencil , im doestoevskys anti-hero. All too often we admire our anti-hero thats why tho he'll never admit it. but my pops admires me niggas wana do me kevorkianesque they talkin nothin but rhetorical "facts". facts of the trial crack smokin meanwhile rack size is on file stack roof built on tile im talkin kilo's em stuck on mile who nice I would have rather been a virgin than have a homosexual fan club though. Atleast then tom cruise's autograph would be worth more than tyra banks swimsuit. (hollywood would you if i did could you, just small talk on that one) as I told alexis impagliazzo i dont do small talk

From the white house to new york.

 I guess my father knew I'd rather die in essence a romantic than live a dime a dozen bum. The legendary Parcissus. Yours truly. :*( Sometimes its those we're around that bring about the pain within starts to seem like we're hell bound without too many a sin. I had a childhood friend whos father once told him "if i find out you're gay I'll kill you." The man was a genius with his hands, he did diamonds for work and was great playing guitar but chances are he was gay. I'm saint over perverse rockin nike over converse And "ITS A MANS YOUTH WHICH DEFINE SOMETIMES THE BLUES WILL CONFINE." There is one nation-wide respected man in russia whos notoriously gay and he is allowed fame because this dude was BORN IN PRISON. so that gangsta i did 20 in attica shit, he make that look weak. I might not have been born in prison but my birth-survival is a miracle I had pre-natal hydrocephalus which means my skull filled up with liquid before it was done forming. Hence the size of my head. They put a shunt in my head. Saved my life. My mother being..um..not the most attractive woman alive when she saw this freak of nature I guess she was in love with a baby. She adopted me. I found out at 33 we're not biologically related. I nip tuck and state luck its late god i wrote my fate top poet they rate to say I'm brilliant is to underrate take care mate I'm lyrically related to you folks. Have a good night. Okay.

Defined.

 As my lyrics define romance refine cast away confine my son cosign im s heart warming individual its storming residual heaven defining hell seven deciding sell im leavin ya verbal residue herbal resin true WHY THE SYSTEM WANT TO DO ME DIRTY ALL IM GUILTY OF IS TYPING QWERTY. your beloved chat savant marcy marc I KEEP IT HOOD RAT THO AINT NO SNITCH I BLAST THE GO GAT I AINT NO BITCH NAMEAN ...rat boy forever in your hearts@! who done it iller "whom everybody speaks well of, and nobody cares about ..whom all are delighted to see, and nobody remembers to talk to." - Jane Austen in book "Sense and sensibility" My current read. On reading, the GREATEST AMERICAN BOOK OF ALL TIME... "On The Road" by Jack Kerouac . you my only viewer of this page PLEASE my dear! do yourself a favor and read on the road. alcoholic car-hoppin bus takin travelin across america in beautiful adventure. it is written so ...ugh. TEXTISMA. charisma in text much like yours truly. I love text. I'm hyperlexic hypergraphic. me without black is like richard pryor without crack it may sound fancy but it don't make the G's stack I got into a political situation with my philosophical elevation in my american nation

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 explosive association manipulating the associated . wit a "romantic interpretatio " -> I guess I couldnt betray my mothers comfort for the comfort of the moment with her. Later in her estrogen-affected in life did she feel the romance. My pops was willing to sacrifice his life for mine, I guess he >saw the romance< of my life as a whole. I DONT PAY AIRLINES WITH THE SKIRMISH FINES SKIRMISH defition "any brisk conflict or encounter:". brisk drinks thinks winks. a drink takes away stress of defining socially. even if i could talk i dont drink. have to have positive outlook from all perspectives. but seriously mr zuckerberg you might be spoiled but regardless of what spin u take on my sin...who u know thats had a more >romantic< romantic life. how u gona downplay a hollywood act replay HAR i dont want fame or money ive gotten what a man desires most. so mr pacino who u have, scarring godfather kevorkian. a man with a pussy its dollar to ill fame in soul. its a so darn pretty you turnin me out GEEZER WHEN TOM HANKS GOT SERVED SEA FOOD AFTER ALL THAT TIME SURROUNDED BY WATER ALONE ON AN ISLAND. . I WAS ALONE READING AND WRITING HALF MY LIFE AND NOW IM SERVING VERSES. (being served punishment for one of my rap joints) serving punishment in all my astonishment "words can be great or even worse they can teach hate" - Young slim shady when youre delusional off your fucking psych meds living a life of text and you mimic a russian artist in american counterpart. REMEMBER PSYCH ILL MIMICING. not looking down on anyone. *GRIN* i testify i tested high. i was so bent out of shape on drugs mind you its ridicolous. i don't mean to ridicule the situation hope serve me the right to live american nation. zuckerberg i know u aint a rabbi but im sayin tho, ease up! some sociopath bastard kill me away in passage i know u feel me as written in passage Then reality of it is this, I was playing on the feelings of gay men to maintain composure as a junkie I was playing my heart stating I love her.

its timely not to exceed better timing/=

..  i dont see color i see soul so holla know ya role. I"m more comfortable in black crowds, per se where i live. i can sit around downstairs here babbling the occasional verse in a white joint id probably stay in my room thinkin about drugs. so thank you my people for keeping me away from heavy drug use. and gay or not black women here are hot so id be hetero-tempted.  I've had an "eccentric and odd" life style to this day forgive me ever getting repeatin n shit  between a 40yr old virgin successful writer and this hassle im livin, ill go with hassle ANY DAY OF THE WEEK. ok my brothas and sisters have a nice day! one aspired they inspired obviously with me it aint required im lustful yet passive trustful yet massive IT LIMITS THE WINDOW IVE COMITTED MY SIN THOUGH im offbeat on heat leave pun beat obama i meet  STALKING OUT THE CORNER ADJOURN HER CAME HER DAY THAT I BORN HER SHE HOT SO I PORN HER ADORE LADY BLACK ITS LIKE I ADORN HER in midland beach with almost all white folk boy itd be.."hasslesome". staten island oh boy troubling days for a white boy amongst his middle class fanboy residents IM GRUESOME STAY ONE WITH CLUE SOME i lost it and snapped i host it you clapped. boy life in forensic psych would have turned me into a robot. reading all day with the occasional remark to the man on  the side. im calm cool and collected their placing me is nonsense IM RHYMIN ABOUT YOU A DIAMOND NO DOUBT VERSES IS LOUD IN THE RIGHT CROWD fuck these bastards goin to do arrest me sick and dope dealer aint synonymous they can take their christmas wish home with them 5-0. pfft i know i can whats the question of may where the winter tan with no pay god forbid never turn pale i dont drink though i aint stale "without distinctive, interesting, or stimulating qualities; vapid:" definition of "insipid". me? never that never overstep boundaries i smoke pound trees good night bed time 10:07 10/26/2023 ohyea forgot one GRIDDY GOOFY I STARE IF THE SHOE FITS I WEAR IT now ok night ok last one the word respect mutual its packed i suspect that you know it its fact night

filter - hey man nice shot

 "I wish I would've met you

Now it's a little late
What you could've taught me
I could've saved some face": 

no gun shot with me though. speedball overdose.

to marc zuckerberg:

I wish you wouldve met me

now its a little late

what you couldve TOLD me

could've saved me some FATE

bye

Then when I came to rykers at 33 in 2017 this CO my son was like you were a herb. im thinkin 'lol this nigga a 30 yr old virgin workin his chump change job and he uses the word herb. real fucking winner gona die a virgin.' heh

 and this is why i hate white neighborhoods where people have ANY money. every day at the fucking train station you had teenagers filming videos of me  one woman i know said to me smiling "oh  paul, there isnt a teenager in staten island who doesn't have a video of you in their phone." man WHERE IM FROM  lil odessa brighton beach the kids wouldnt even look at me.PARENTS NEED TO RAISE THEIR KIDS A LIL BETTER. obscene then i remember before disaster struck i came out for a walk once and about 6-8 blocks were full of people , people who came to meet me. The imfamous Sickly P(r.i.p).

IM SLIM I AINT SHADY 

IM TOM I AINT BRADY

CRUISE ROCKIN A WIG 

COULD BE MY LADY

:-O

truth

 it aint about black or white dark or light joy or spite short or height wrong or right loose or tight fat or diet chew or bite die i might who done it iller . nah CRIME IS ONLY GOOD IN FICTION AS IS ADDICTION. btw. My name is pavel and I'm an addict.

My rap just tactful writing novelist in sighting.

 To the old timer where i live: i might be a shmuck but i dont miss with the hockey puck. fuck puck i'm duck. doufy duck If freak of nature dont amount how my baby going to mount I feel like Im in the "collective unconcious" thats a term from 'karl jung he believed we meet in our dreams. im pretty tactful with words with rap never bored tops nothin on top flops nothin drop i dont mean to cause grief besides youre the chief my past with saddening with rest its maddening shorty thick in all the right places watching flicks in all the right faces :) . im nasty on the mic. IM MORE COMFORTABLE AROUND MY BLACK PEOPLE THAN WHITE YOUNGSTERS...THEY MAKE A SCENE OUT OF NOTHIN ;( and im too young to chill with my oldie white folk now that im on medication i feel human i can talk to people etc for years i didnt take meds and was in denial of mental illness i NEVER talked to anyone i sat around reading and writing alone

To the admirers of this "Parcissus" character.

What's with love if it could never be thats like pushing over shove before a guilty plea. sound more like Sickly P than parcissus on that one huh. heh Why the judge want to cock me up throw away the condoms and wash my butt. <- a parody to "why the judge want to lock me up throw away the keys and watch me rott." I get lost I'm timid if I host they bin it.  yep, get lost in a fucking 3 block radius and i cant talk. where that leave me at, with downs syndrome folk? I understand social premises socialising being my only nemesis. so maybe I belong with downs syndrome folk. yikes. cast away was alright but the most brilliant film i ever seen "hable con ella" pedro almodovar its about 2 men who become friends at a hospital one of them a mildly retarded male nurse and the other one whos gf ends up in a coma bull fighting(articulately trying to express a fag hag) they develop a close friendship and i think director cared to point out the other guy was  gay. Towards the end the male nurse rapes his patient , a woman in a coma. He ends up in prison. Women in a coma wakes up and gives birth. Male nurse kills himself in prison. Then they show the homo coming to see the woman with his friends kids and watches them dance. I been in a coma twice, i hope no woman nurse slipped me viagra and decided to have my kids. I think I lost my jewish crime book man fuck short term memory is SHOT. but you know what, FUCK READING...I READ MY LIFE AWAY I read and write my pen stand tall without my height things can only look up my book top rook hop  shook cop COMAS , GETTIN HIT BY A CAR SO HARD MY BIKE CRACKED IN HALF GOT LUCKY I FLEW FORWARD BUT MY HEAD BONE STILL SETS OUT ETC ETC...ALL THAT NONSENSE, BUT NAH...ITS MY PHYSIQUE THAT LANDED ME LIKE THIS "The “discard” phase is all about controlling you. " ..on narcissism. I aint no narcissist I just walked away angry and never looked back. so Parcissus shit, save that for pacino on the other hand with your american critique it brings me to judge eric clapton's preference. "the guy a homo" https://www.interesticle.com/worldwide/manfut-cp-ta?utm_medium=taboola&utm_source=taboola&utm_campaign=te-in-manfut-c11-x-win-us-mm-11103d&utm_term=advance-statenisland&utm_bid=dSpq4ULk7X8U0AzJ0B5-RNt-Pfdy8NvwuTeYu2T6RNw=&utmk=GiClUcE5-1zGpaAJvZceXlwb6yjs1y2zUcGiSTlFiuYAGSDCuFko6-rz3oqGzPa7AQ&tblci=GiClUcE5-1zGpaAJvZceXlwb6yjs1y2zUcGiSTlFiuYAGSDCuFko6-rz3oqGzPa7AQ#tblciGiClUcE5-1zGpaAJvZceXlwb6yjs1y2zUcGiSTlFiuYAGSDCuFko6-rz3oqGzPa7AQ <- man wakes up after 10 year coma and says he had dream everyone  should leave the US in 2023

As far as actors..

 on me first I dont like fame or money but i'll give it to al pacino as greatest actor bar none, have parcissus respect on that note. prolly gay but nevertheless. BUT THE SECOND GREATEST ACTOR OF ALL TIME is the guy who played "steve urkel" on the family matters show. that guy was one hell of an oddjob. makes me really wonder what that man was like as a human being in society away from actor...from what i can tell an oddjob gay guy with a lucky role. but maybe it was just him, lucky role or not. Life plays out that way sometimes but on acting man come on now, I've proven not everyone has to act to be an actor. - Parcissus And my father bar none the coldest man in the history of america, i have never and mean NEVER EVER seem him display emotion. not even in the tiniest form. him and his scribblin down new english words russian tv programs and telling me im like joseph stalin. but when i seen him break down crying infront of me , A MAN WHO HAS NEvER ANd I Mean neveR EvER displayed emotion for anyone or anything..he broke down crying infront of me. when it was just us two  alone. i should have seen that was it. but me being stalin, I don't process defeat in recess my beat. Now if steve urkel is a gay actor, he's just another hollywood fruit. But if he's straight, I'm in love with a man. That would be quite a rarety. I understand why homos like "turnin em out". "Neff" turned me out without anyone even touching me when he saw me dancin naked on cam for my select few and showed up at my nyc door of parents hours OUT OF CALI 2 days after seeing me doing my weird dance. Man guy even had this mental patient id thing made for me and played into doin some odd paperwork with my parents standin by. neff, you aint steve urkel tho. I fantasize about steve urkel being straight. i mean i did get erect once fooling around with an italian pretty boy but thats only cause a woman old enough to be my mother was in love with me, love i couldnt repay. so out of guilt, i played with the guido boy. DAMN RIGHT I GOT A CONCIOUS ...Pacino where your grandson to play me in a biographical joint. The godfather scarred by kevorkian . Sums up pacino's career. Now on to the "last godfather" gotti I bet he wished for kevorkian when they let the poor guy suffer and die without any pain killers. man america or not, they'll allow suffering anywhere given the right circumstances. I feel bad for these cases. I know what suffering all about.

Anton Chekhov's "The Bet"

 About a man whos faced with money after 15 years in solitary confinement doing nothing but reading books He kills himself instead of taking millions. I'm not going to die though, I ain't faced  with no money. I'm on welfare folks. Im stuck talking to myself instead of suicide! Certainly beats it. God bless my black people. MY BLACK FEMALE PROGRAMMER. > i keep the crowd alive i shout to bride"  im sayin if you exist we can do  it. i aint a virgin no weird about sex with me(despite my physique) namean. we'll get married to, that counts on you.  A ROMANTIC SHORT STORY I THOUGHT OF ON A BLACK FEMALE PROGRAMMER. She never tells anyone she makes money and one day she meets a white boy whos father has his connections so he knows she got it. He says if you marry me I will collect bottles till i get 10 grand and my dick still gets hard we get married. When the day comes he has the money and he comes to her and she states "oh now, what have you done to yourself" . As she about to step out to her gay boyfriends he says "hey sweetie, i lied, i have been masterbating i got photographic memory ive imagined you for years". She just follows her daily life, syncs  a line of humor with her gay crowd. Oh marc zuckerberg, if you ever find a black woman programmer in the usa....if they kill me..i hope you atleast buy her flowers on valentine days. Im a bum. but you're the man of ages buddy forget the hour lol and i got endorphin deficiency syndrome i cant produce feel good endorphin naturally now imagine that with my mentality. come on now. that junkie shit goes out the fucking door. I'm only afraid of pain on a scientific basis but I'm not afraid of suffering. Believe me when I tell you, I've done my share of suffering in life heh you rich people must say "OH but Im not comfortable talking to the poor man" well gee golly take a look, I'm only comfortable talking TO MYSELF and I'm on welfare so you philosophers...philosophy ...chat..whatever. Just try to see the world through my eyes, THERE IS FUCKING PHILOSOPHY FOR YOU i gave a girl flowers for her hs graduation and she turned out a call girl MAKING THAT MONEY. so believe me when I tell you, I inspire. but a call girl about money my name aint earl got no money it may sound funny ladys nose was runny. the kid's got a way about him how you gonna doubt him. if these bastards dont let me sleep again and keep fuckin with me..atleast ill die with the russian definition of the word romantic. something that got meaning to me I guess my jewish brothers see the romance in anton chekhov's "The Bet" too. Thats why they're keeping me broke. money would be disaster. it ruins the spoil and spoils the ruined. I'm a shlemazel as pops always called me. heh. in hebrew a "person with persistently bad luck". :) so what im gay with my romance damn fellas aint gotta hate I cant fuck with women today I got a concious but this anastasia kareva girl let me tell you she kept my concious in the solitary confinement my heart calls home.  philosophy caught on to my physique with politics im sick. ehhhhhhhhhhhhh MY MEN...maybe ill stay awake late tonight just for the hell of it. My pops callin me "shlemazel" for ages(man with constant bad luck) maybe hes a shlemazel too now...god knows what life has brought upon him. *GRINS FOLLOWED BY SIGH* fuck scrabble i scribble in my word ball park i dribble they got me as a political hero umbilical zero so im sayin neff to think man writing this has proven with a video a big pun line "you couldnt measure my dick with 6 rulers" play with a girls feelings to maintain composure as a junkie are u shittin me a mildly retarded girl who has never wore make up and is daughter of a wise guy.  I didnt play with shit. She had my feelings in solitary confinement

Being an atheist is simple without the teeth.

Being an atheist is simple without the teeth. I got no teeth but I do believe in god :). some HEART WARMING WIT FOR YOU oh marc what will i do with you. *sigh* im exposing the bracket imposing the black if .  and i still get stiff after all my troubles for my man nas, queensbridge. 12st street shelter hotel representing in sentiment. I TURN MY HUMOROUS SIDE TO THE DARKENING BRIDGE.  man a black FEMALE programmer that in itself is a rarety that even got me beat. if you exist, lets have sex. what else can i say, i'll donate my ...uhm..busy time! THE YEARS TEXTY FULL I GOT MESSY FOOL. that one is for my black female programmer. my one soulmate i dont even have to meet to know she mine. tell me there is one in america and my heart will remain in peace. Im a peaceful guy I'd never hurt noone but the truth is I'm comfortable only talking to myself. expressing brilliance spoken to self. That's where life as a freaky man put me. Im only comfortable singing clapton's "wonderful tonight" to jessica in my bummish hotel. responsibility takes away the courage nurture my mirage. whatever the fuck that means i forget but i know it makes sense, atleast i can make sense of it philosophically. i mean shit ms sullum said imma "probably" get insanity plea if i take it SO DID ANOTHER DOCTOR but lets get serious WHAT IF PEOPLE DIDNT SEE GEM STONE WITH ADDICTION. I'd be in attica as opposed to free man today. mirage or admire my age. truth is i read and write obsessively and the only people that often added with reply is a depression chat so my sad humor has reason. but I'm generally content today. believe me ive read my share of books while in state psych but as a free man i primarily read the lives of oddjob gays across america. I read. Anton Chekhov's "The Bet" is a reading gentleman. BELIEVE YOU ME BAR NONE IN THE WORLDS WRITING THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SHORT STORY. "THE BET" BY ANTON CHEKHOV." now as far as black , a black female programmer be my soulmate but my white one is at this hotel. this short white girl with a dog in this bummish hotel. she is full of herself. "The lady with the dog" Another anton chekhov short story. So my white woman soulmate. God bless the writer anton chekhov. Russian writer fills the soul I was "The Bet"s fictional role. Except Ill never kill myself.

nuff said

 Sharks coral roses floral im above the moral. sharks bring about ripped roses theres morals for you. - your retarded genius now seriously i think i topped kevorkian with that one line. trump said im a free man tho so aint sufferin his fate. did some change locked up to relax and came out. I sync. memory, movement, pfft. america came together for me? i thank my black ppl here in particular. may i have a cool day. "mimmie" imagining a black woman using mirc, that is hot just in its own sentiment . my home health aide bibi being THE awkward man its awkward asking another if theres a facebook profile for you mr zuckerberg. I apologise for any inconvenience and mr zuckerberg youre my lifes grief tone. fortunately not undertoned as rude. thanks...as far as i could tell huh I TRY TO BRING ABOUT THE FLAVOR OF THESE PEOPLE THEY SAVOR THE CRIPPLE HYPERGRAPHIC HYPERLEXIC HABIT OVER THE YEARS YOU THINK IT CAME WITH THIS HYDROCEPHALIC HEAD NOPE TO DEAL WITH SOCIETY FOR YOUR RETARDED GENIUS JUST LOOK INTO SHAINDY ECKSTEIN I TYPED TO HER AND DIDNT BETRAY FRIENDSHIP FOR PUSSY.  your beloved chat savant marcy marc :). my late teens with shaindy . not  a post-coma thing this writing/reading habit. you know zuckerberg you might be the facebook king brain alot better than mine but im the king of faces my first grade year book my HUGE HEAD on a childs body me at the desk in a suit . and other page me in class photo standing next to the teacher. like i said momma didnt raise me cuddlin she raised me with discipline god bless the woman. photo should make me a UN legend shaindy was  so focused on looking like a woman she forgot to tell me that woman was available then in the end..she said "you dont love me you talk to me out of boredom". lady please, i did love you but as circumstances presented themselves i sent solo myself. like i said hypergraphic hyperlexic marcy marc so dont make fun of me cause im not smart like u  WHEN LOVE REGAINS FRIENDSHIP ALWAYS IN MY TANK SHIP. i hope they dont kill me though. I've got a while..right? these troubles are my only birth right what can i tell ya my love light. i'm sayin tho neff, how the weather in cali treatin u. i like new york tho these are my people at heart my people ny tho my people passed by i simple got high

Politosophy.

 IM pro democracy out of sympathy. man what communism would have a man of my persona physical and mental) done to me. trump sympathised on that note, set me free. There's your dessertation. they try to turn an american legend out fuck the badge you shout its hard for me to express desire toward a woman my own mother didnt come upon that. i never look at my mother as a woman, didnt have a face etc. None. just mother. Nor sure if thats fittin, im adopted tho. simple go and simple down high above cause im charlie frown the mind above money hard to find that funny for the every day man to face me whom they had me facin FUCK THE GO GETTER I GET LOW LET HER nasty on the mic oh yeah i gave the blog link to one chick here if u read this..hope u had a healthy day at work. take care SHARKS AT CORAL ROSES FLORAL IM WITH THE MORAL

I remember whole-heartedly.

 One of the first few things jessica ever said to me. She said "you're straight paul". I'll stick to that one, even if just for my own ego. who would have thunk a black shemale be the person who would stand for my straighthood. as time has told tho, im an open book i tell it how it is not how it could be. jews are within the law cause they got hit by the war paw. got me readin this jewish crime book got a character named jess i shit you not. man their crime is thin got me goin pale you know I win even without yale. i dont give a fuck who you  are you meet a black shemale that greets you with "you're straight paul" ..its...phew what can I..phew. that's all. phew. I'm straight. my man obama, whats good with your yale rookies. IM ABOVE BLACK AND WHITE THOUGH IT MAY LEAD TO DEATH BEFORE RIOT. my man larry falcon, what it do champ..95 cowboys greatest team ever. sanders aikman ervin smith . but maybe u just business , own em and  not interested in. they paintin it like i own humanity and ofcourse life put me in a place where i wasn't interested in. a feminine character is as attractive to a woman as a masculine appearance is to man. i like men with pussy life has shown. pussy defines preference those two start with the same letter. so does pavel, parcissus and panoleon panobarte. The are the 5 P's. In russia a 5 on report card was equal to an A. Coincedences are gods way of staying anonymous  i'm just sayin please namean BIG HEAD IN DEMOCRACY SHORT MAN IN COMMUNISM . ME AND POPS BASICALLY TWINS EVEN WITH OUR PRESUMPTOUS TASTE IN WOMEN he didnt do it to himself i thank you see why would he do it me i thank YOU BE. my black people hmm

say what? wtf

 my brain is lumpin the sanity pumpin. im perfectly calm cool n collected tho not crazy With cease and all about its like whistle pryor shout i cant believe that politics would land me here so uptight hangin by the comfy noose some see ducky I can doufy goose. namean fuckin politics just cause my pops is a world war two survivor they got me connected to some absurd shit. i aint no antisemite despite my tactful wording. Stop, in the name...name of AMERICAS RIGHT SPREADING ERICAS TIGHT. fuck outa here my man zuckerberg they gonna kill me i duno for  fact after all who am i right zucky WHO AM I. I don't know biological family just resemble kevorkians grand son. i feel bad for anyone that got attached even if youre rich. some sympathy plays in. oNLY some tho.. THEY FUCKED ME COCKSUCKERS AH, IRONY KNOWS THAT. My shape form health aint norm but i still get hard so lets fuck in your dorm you workin n im dyin whos better im dork so im the go getter what can i tell you the amount of wording trapped in my subconcious in the life style of my read. Sickly P, word to my man larry falcon. matt forever my son

in my early youth

 I was in 8th grade "careers class". We went to work for half a day twice a week. Teacher assigned jobs, mrs malpeso. She put me in a pet store, work alone. she understood a human being like me has hard time with other people. Sad to say, I had bad childhood asthma and couldn't stay there, I was allergic to cats. Then she put me to work in kindergarten with 2 girls. I played with kids all day. AND FOR ME, FOR THAT MAN to grow to be a man whos had sex with women...its crazy. you don't see that as beautiful then I dont know what is. I'm the laureate and you just noble, laura. :-F on the other hand, of this life I'm tiresome love i'll aquire some my jobs they fire some. eminem my son. namean  I had two black guys tell me they love me yestrday, well you know how i do gentlemen. i dont know shit about long island. Coney island written on my big forehead. I grew up right there, oh my youth! yours truly, the american idiot. the saintly pauly! im floral i save her forensic i flavor

freak of nature

 thats what nature had born I was left feeling scorn your man was love torn so im stuck with the porn there is an end to every story though ive set sail i have minimal worry fantasize fucking the tail. whats really good ms. seinfeld i ball with the pen tall with my tan you at the mall im the man im just that cool with my fan I told "i havent cut my nail in a while thats a hassle i guess im new york"  im new york i accept despite biden precept TAKE A LOOK at my face, would you have the nerve for free stuff? even in my lacking pants. my playfully dropping pants i say schooly airing vents her father was a ukrainian wise guy her mother a doctor she a man with a vagina my mother a country farming girl my pops a jewish world war II survivor im a woman with a dick n u know opposites attract. so pops, they could talk all that "if u aint a nazi u aint ukrainian" bullshit all they want. politics the spoil burnt in catastrophic foil

im a lebron gem stone without uncle sam tone

 im a lebron gem stone without uncle sam tone...<- has someone thought of that before? seems a likely common idea if james got nerve to call me crackhead thats ok mike destroyed bad boys early 90s anyway. came to america in 1992. sentiment of a mans childhood. i shit u not I WAS LIVING IN THE BOX FOR 5 CONSECUTIVE YRS FOLLOWED BY 5 YEARS LOCKED UP. i dont interpet nor understood <- dont understand social cues with any tone. the emotions grew it beam or so itd seem when youre of FAIR intelligence and life has put in horrid despair since you were born your decisions come intact with your emotional reason. not avoidin shit with brain damage. as far as lebron, i was born new york ill die new york despite bulls fan. john starks on the other hand, heroic loser. he wins! I got the face of the underdog its my place in the fog . I got born to represent the underdog anyhow jordan was flawless every part of his flawless body synced in with that fade away jump shot. lebron, might be the champ as an athlete. But to sell charisma on the court, it is a definate impossible to do it like mike, a youtube comment for you. ' im a lyrical catastrophe with no apostrophe ' - vowels aint in the right places the bowels he chases i think thats why i thought i couldnt come with that one. ah, who knows anymore. i like people HERE they are polite and have some class. logical bloom illogical doom. im ill on logic i bill the budget.  long walks, reading and writing when afforded. though i can read for many long hours a day which is somewhat spoiled by substance worst of which being cigarettes. im the lebron james antonym black im white he king of athletes im anorexing lookin freak. but im nicer at the mic, im a man of nature so naturally nice, come on now,   oh boy silly corrections I JUST LOVE LONG WALKS ANOREXIC LOOKIn OR NOT atleast 5 miles in the morning!

in my world

 there is no ugly no pretty no healthy no sick.  just social labels. but with "Alex Tokarev" one time we were getting high together and this guy tried to kiss me. i didn't care for his fathers fame I pushed him away. I aint no gay aint no straight or whatever fuck you want to call these labels i gave my fucking life away for the sake of straight. I guess in that sense I'm shallow. 40 now, phew. life written in fables without applying your labels. fable in meaning  is someshit bout moral lesson in meaning. im 40! boy it would have been a HELL OF A ROMANTIC SHORT STORY IF I WAS A VIRGIN! lol I'm not a philanthropist I'm a SEXANTHROPIST. I dont have biological family but I do love my family and besides if I didnt have such a big head with the right hair style and whatnot me and pops would have practically been twins. more so than the rest, it's about being right to yourself. I NEVER LET CONCERN CONFINE I DISCERN EVEN IF DYING. its hard..sometimes to keep right to yourself especially if pops is a leftist :( to me youre a she so itll say in third person cut up knee that im nursing im a freaky he who is versing classy though cursing. im dork so ill live through an urkle named steve  my new age rapper named quavo talkin bout " took a loss, but you still gon’ get beat" ...he know who the boss n I will defeat. I commit to the feat so fuck meet you random Im read I excel Im elite face me my good deed the poor know I feed :) in preference sexual identity its who you PREFER not who you slept with or who you are fuckin today etc etc ITS WHO YOU PREFER BY DEFITION OF THE WORD. so that bi shit dont exist. "spare me the small talk" - Pauly boy balls I lyrically grow these smoke left over butts I say please... my homeless asian woman if she saw my 1st grade year book photo back from THE SOVIET UNION imagine a kid head as big as mine standing next to teacher in gym class photo. much like my nigerian doctor, I was raised with discipline :) god bless my mother

Post dedicated to and for my oddity from cali. gentle(man?).

 I never will and never did sell myself. but you're quite the oddity and if you have a cock you can fuck me. i love you even if the rest of catnip betrayed my poor self. i don't know what you have youre a gorilla of my heart though. but anyhow, whats with the promotion in all this commotion Im tryin just to apply lotion in all my text motion hope I've "subdued" the emotion. what the fuck is subdued? west 23rd pj's dont do such words neither do I, just years of worthless reading I "excel" though? what can I tell ya, pops afforded me life of a romantic in bum hand-cuffs instead of selling my ass to afford yale law. I let it you bet it pussy I  wet it then with my cock pet it indebted it you know I get it. *sigh*, I got(OOPS GET IT!) it alright. oh marcy marc, there are HUMAN addicts. 5 years of talking to myself reading and writing followed by 5 years locked up, nothin new, socially "subdued". Word of the day.  let these niggas know what i been through to call myself straight i GAVE MY FUCKING LIFE AWAY. "you don't know jack"(pacino playin kevorkian) but you do know pauly, I guess I'll live. nawmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen Cali "boy", dedicated to you. then again man I do wonder who you had feelings for at puberty. Or was there no such thing as "aroused" for you? god knows.

I'm a "Shlemazel" in hebrew means person with consistently bad luck.

 An older jewish fellow said Shalom(hello in hebrew) to me when I was taking my long morning walk. I remember going to a synagogue as a child actually. Ofcourse that didn't go on. My father is against religion. I'm not an intellectual so I can't figure into his anti-religion ideals. But my father, boy seldom do I say so of a man but like myself but in different regions, he is quite a RARETY. whatever hes done wrong to me, i guess we're all troubled in one way or another. Sad to say extreme in his case. I don't see him as a sociopath, and I DO PRAY THAT IM RIGHT. Where I may be now, I'm not sure. I do have my "philosophy" though, Mr gates, Mr zuckerberg and the rest of you rich geniuses.  besides a jewish male nurse said he loves me! I should be on the cover of playboy MAYHAPS my freaky self!

reasonable doubt seasonable cloud.

 when life gets to you just know god lets you through. :) these niggas is bystanders in my high standards ive grown alone as it has shown got the testosterone to fuck and bone i might be panic prone but these verses spoken in my tone. my man rabinowitz know mami i suck her tits. i feel like a teenager again. paul justin geller huh, well hi justin efnet. "i like girls. but i like girls as friends. Im gay I'm crying" - Justin when he was a teenager. forever look for your forgiveness, even if on my knees.

they say relationships ruin friendships

to me, money does it too. if you're real cool with someone and then you take money from them selling your ass or lips or whatever then regardless of what spin they take on it , BOTH OF YOU will step down from friendship higher ground. one has to look at it as "I payed a man money for an orgasm, why dont i just get a boyfriend whos comfortable with it being just for sex" and one looks at it like "oh, i just sold my ass, gee golly facin the mirror is a cutie with a bootie" come on now, if i was a closet case hetero id look back on social views and sell myself for a rare experience but lookin like me i'm a monster you know its been rough. so freddie kruger or not. when your childhood/ early hood is nothin but bullied experience despite fact you did good in school just ...you inherit frustration with todays social elevation good lord, I keep it steep, rhyme for some, i went that deep, without the gun , i keep it lit without the sun nigga i eat u like a chocolate bun while you were enjoyin gettin B's I was lettin my card stay on A's whoda thunk i'd only earn welfare pays thats alright life will play it just as it mays. I firmly believe my life esp early experience took away from me being comfortable with being gay. you get emotionally involved every orgasm so yeah, i mean the way I see it to accept belated gay identity you have to turn the mic DOWN and look at yourself as a chick. i've survived death, i've been video recorded, I made videos of me naked i remember steve saw it and changed his nick to mangina boy were we EVER friends? did i ruin it steppin on the line with the video or did you "view something troubling" for pauly. i mean obviously youre the bigger man youre a fine lady too so u got sentimental value alot of it, even if after all these years i have none to you. you have sentimental to ME, yeah ME, i'm selfish. when you earn a spot deep in the heart you burn them right from the start. is that how it played out? ROUGH ROUGH MY BOY my poetic soul , ah well :-) you know how sickly P do , namean my man fifty from day one I haven't relied on tomorrow with a life full of sorrow i know i know you feel youre black and redefine words of romantic based on your culture too, but in russian culture the grim outlook I've lived the life of a romantic I wouldn't trade for anything. ANYTHING. you bet,  I said ANYTHING         IM THE SAD SINNER JUST A TAD THINNER IM THE GAME WINNER THE TRUTH I TALK AND HAVE A LOWER BOTTOM PARAPLEGIC WALK. I GET MY MAN STANDING IN MY BOOTH NAMEAN "ITS NOT A HABIT  its cool i feel alive if you dont have it youre on the other side." sprayin bullets what u know bout these beggin for ya life try sayin please u talkin nice nah im fuckin ya niece  "iller than sick deal her the dick" namean

"Gay"

 money might makes a difference to some but not when you reference to this bum. IM TELLING YOU BLUNT FUCKING FACT WITH PROOF. so when you gay people want to assign name calling...you already know. I'm Sickly P, I'm just me. Sickly P was a game character matt falcon titled for me. matt falcon the ONLY heterosexual friend I've had in my WHOLE life. And I've had a few. but jason rosenthal, i guess youre a friend huh. maybe 2...they say third times a charm who does that leave, apparently some heterosexual arab who fucks me. glory hallalujah  ON TOP OF THE FACT HER I TREASURED LOOKIN BACK LIFES WONDER COULD NEVER BE MEASURED SO IM THINKIN THIS SCENARIO IS POSSIBLE TRUMP WAS RICH SO WILLING TO KEEP ME ALIVE NOW MY POPS RICHER THAN BIDEN SO IM DEAD. PFFT  ONLY REASON IM NOT GAY IS CAUSE I ROMANCE THE FACT I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING GAY FOR MONEY AND BELIEVE ME IVE HAD OPPORTUNITY. U GOT RICH PPL WHO SUCK EACH OTHERS DICKS FOR NEXT HIGH. NAH HERES YOUR FUCKING PHILOSOPHY ON SELF-RESPECT. "Parcissus". the rat pack democRATS and im rat boy.  my dignity aint for sale despite the fact wing nut taddle tale how what why nah I DEFINE with the fact that it is MINE I TRY TO KEEP IT PEACEFUL DECREASE FOOL CONCEIVE SCHOOL WELL NIGHT 6 THEY WONT LET ME SLEEP AGAIN IT LOOK LIKE. ILL TRY THOUGH  I DONT DO VIOLENT STUFF THO SO WHEREVER POLITICS PUT ME GEE GOLLY MARC YOU AND YALL PHEW THEY GONA KILL YOUR CHATTER KING MY SONS BETTER KNOW RIGHT ARM HURTIN I STILL GOT LEFT SWING "I JUST LOST A 100LBS IM TRYIN TO LIVE MAN" -BIG PUN. LIKE ME COULDNT MEASURE HIS DICK WITH 6 RULERS i walked into it and key-chalked it i enjoyed long walks over course of so many years id like a country in which odd doesnt stand out freak of nature or famous or dying but maybe not for all i duno rich doesnt seem to..whatever im done thats why i dont do gay shit for money i dont give  a fuck  who u are Philosophy einstein your wine im trying im fine i dine im death defyin stuck to self and never lying into my business you go tryin IM SAYIN WHATS REALLY GOOD FALCON I MEAN A MAN MY STATURE TURNIN RAP GAME INTO PHILOSOPHY IF I AINT YA POPS ADOPTED SON I DUNNO IF THERE IS SUCH ANYTHING IN SENTIMENT MATT YOU ARE AS THE MOST HETERO MAN IVE KNOWN IN MY LIFE PUSH AND SHOVE MY MAN, YOU COULD FUCK ME ALL U WANT HONEY I MEANT THING NOT ANYTHING I READ SOME OR RIGHT DEFINITION OF TENURE GOT THE WORD "ANYTHING" I WONT STAND FOR ANYTHING BUT IN THE NAME OF RIGHT I  STAND FOR ANYBODY YEH U ALREADY KNOW MY BOOTH HAS COLOR THE TRUCE ON THE DOLLAR

Unlike..

 The typical crackhead who will do anything to smoke some more. I was vice versa, I got high so I could chat. I'm hypergraphic/hyperlexic so I got high so I can read and white humoring oddjobs with my text so absurdities of my life style. you play on my innocence I sin for the sake of common sense. my common sense is to suck dick but guess what in my life of ABSURDITIES this is the first time I don't go with common sense I go with the paradox of parcissus of philosophy. Due to a difficult early youth, I've had an overdose of common sense. Mind pointing towards extremities of degradation. but sure, I could have said ok ill suck his dick and moved to california so I can live in peace reading and whiting but gay or not, that would spoil the romance of my life. I don't do sexual favors for money sure I've fucked around with guys but never to get money out of someones pocket. it's out of self-respect which often binds to philosophy so you efnet gods , please.. hello honey how r u.  and "grimreap" when you said people come here when they're dying "you've been dying forever" no its just that in a chat where people are primarily dying they enjoyed my philosophy of absurdities just as I enjoyed their losing touch with leisure before their final seizure. because when you're dying you're with JUST YOU, dont matter who you know or how rich you are. Life in itself, humbles you. bumble bee bumble bee bumble bee tuna. when society has you in a place so furthered from capacity.. you're always in the humbled state of the dying from a young age, how you going to talk to every day citizen. call it dementia you know I sent ya went and lyrically bent ya done did it and went duh 'death loop' computer tells me 24hours and someshit word of the day tenure dont know what it means  5 DAYS OF NO SLEEP FOR A 40YR OLD TYPE 1 DIABETIC WHO AINT IN PERFECT HEALTH IS ALREADY PUSHIN IT LONGEST A MAN LASTED CONSECUTIVE IS 11 IN GOOD HEALTH PROLLY SO CHANCES ARE THIS DEATH LOOP AINT NO JOKE, im A MAN tho as the american expression goes "FUCK OUTA HERE". ...i criminalise the fiction rationalise my addiction when it takes sense outside the common I makes cakes obama I summon .. fuck ya prison bids its about tellin ya kids not to use drugs cause they destroying good deeds Im toppin the lids ridin top of the steeds. im sorry mr. obama so i chose solitary confinement over livin at a gay mans house in cali suckin dick that make me a criminal im a freak of nature aint a fucking criminal

if it comes down to it.

 if its between my life or someone elses. i rather die myself. only person i'd willingly kill is a person who has harmed a CHILD. only type of pain IAM afraid of is pain that other people witness because that weakens my character and I'm sick enough as it is. KRAMER FROM SEINFELD GAVE ME HIV CAUSE I EXPOSED HIS RING OF PEDOPHILES. Oh well, I'll die a man. he'll die a retarded pedophile. hE must have thought I'm dumb enough to blame...'someone else'. "doing wrong without rights is like northern without lights." - Sickly P, einstein philosopher. 10/13/2023 -> i pitched over the base switched over to place leave grief on ya face namean so you goin  to kill me huh not lettin me sleep 5 consecutive days. It's a shame. Shay-em Day-anm you know Im playin teefus deca-yin color with cray-onn  like i said ill die a man youll die a retarded fuckin pedophile HA. then again retardation toppin pedophile i dont know if a pedo a pedo anymore like low on the autism scale havin sex with a 16yr old girl aint no fuckin pedophile regardless of how old. doesn't have the brain for such evils. so marcy marc, i guess our association lookin to be post-mortem :-(  but on the other hand if i had one last wish it would be to kiss her one more time. call me a homo, atleast i fucked pussy HA i got an email from newyorkcares here come the holiday season gangster may sound only good in fiction but i kept it real with my addiction tell ya kids not to use tho, ruins lives. my life was ruined day i was born so just 'had to keep it real'.

marc zuckerberg

 don't know. huh. I'm in the closet nigga that does it cognac buzzing I buzz it peach drunk I puzz it. But everyone wants to relive their childhood sub-conciously in one way or another i was bullied by my own friends it was hard. so sure I'm tempted to act like a bitch sexually but lets be serious a daughter of a wise guy who aint the brightest bulb in the box she is THREE TIMES THE MAN you are. and besides, a retarded beach is all man + genetic wise gal. sad to say my father and his politics didn't afford me her love. although I'm lord hebron , grandmaster scholar keepin it hebrew but jews believe in love too. although i'm not genetically related to either parent. ah fuck it, what can i tell ya THE MOST ROMANTIC , the MOST romantic history in the history of america.  so please senor ,  afford me some bed time. oh bttew, zuckerberg you are a cutie honey, with you I wouldnt be too proud to act like a bitch in bed. so whenever our date is, holla atcha boy namean. :-*)  ....what I been through in life I wouldn't wish on my own worst enemy. hopefully i have none oh yeh she once said in regards to sex "wow pasha, you are like the energizer bunny you just keep goin and goin and goin". STILL TRUE HEART PROBLEM LUNG PROBLEM TYPE 1 DIABETES ETC I STILL FUCK FOR HOURS im a miscellaneous monster vicariously gun her. cock shoot namean I FILE NO COMPLAINT FOR MY VICARIOUS SAINT. sure my saint, i'd like to live the life of a harvard bigshot man who got moneys. JK JK Im rich in soul so know ya role namean BUT I TALK TO MYSELF BECAUSE I DO NOTHING OR IS IT THAT I DO NOTHING BECAUSE I TAlK TO MYSELF :-****) and i know that big in the pants thats aight im a bum in the shelter not payin rents.  to my father >>>IVE ONLY HAD ONE FRIEND IN  LIFE AND THAT FRIEND AINT THE KNIFE.<<< they had me under some cia hypnosis type shit I WOULD NEVER TRY TO INJURE FAMILY IN ANY WAY. I WOULDNT DO IT TO ANYONE INFACT MY ROUGH PAST AND CHARACTER DEVELOPED IS SOLID PROOF so thanks alot mr trump for havin me "do ma pops filthy namsayin"

I'm a kind person...hmm

 The only time in my WHOLe life I didnt give money to homeless people is my childhood because I spent my quarters playing arcade. Besides, back then there was NO homeless people. AND THEYRE BEING SADISTIC THIS IS DAY 4 WITHOUT SLEEP. I DONT KNOW WHY "THEY" ( DONT KNOW EXACTLY WHOS DOIN IT) ARE DOING THIS TO ME ;*(

Illin

my girl got that body so her man I just body im vicious like gotti hit that pussy a hottie dont mean to sound snotty but im purest you mutty with death nah i aint afraid you a mess I got made these verses my trade pussy got laid u know I get paid  take care of first date at the top i catch rate u aint nothin but hate with the bars that I state know Im end of your fate im ill u just late brothas help finance my habit im playgirl bunny ya aint nothin but rabbit my verses i lab it drinks know i tab it ya know da left hook i jab it - Sickly P who done did it iller ha

no marijuana today

 with the gun im hero your chances none to zero im the hardest pussy poker smartest stock broker farthest joint toker guardest super soaker next day my...COCK is the Code Of Conduct Kids. Acronym. National Epitome of moral values and ethical standards. boy I SHIT U NOT right from the earliest day I could remember...man if I killed 20 people Itd still be possible for me to be an example of morals. Ive had it tough so save that "sick" talk "ghetto" lecture and "impairment" speech for yo momma. "Man of ethical standards and moral values" as my young lady of DECENCY Kayla Perri would know. Her mother lived in parents basement with her for a LONG time despite the fact Im a drug addict. She understood full well I GOT FUCKING VALUES I DONT DO FOUL and where I've been wrong its justifiable. Trump agreed. I saved my ego you could save my life I do it like B.I.G yo one with the knife

k

 new york afforded me no violence up till washington D.C wouldnt so which one is on my side if any. if they define whats left hope they wont fuck up left over. now on to.. erection in supply election if you try scatter texty mad hatter sexy 3rd person done attain retain sustain pertain ....hopefully to normal mind. erection in despair election blind stare I TEST MY WITS IN TEXT WHO SITS GOT NEXT  ok dont care hwo u are or crack or etc when options limited to relaxing wrong or stressful right thats america  DOESNT MATTER WHICH SPIN YOU TAKING BUT WHOS SIN YOU WAKING  oppite oops opposite even im forgetful but i dont let the dollar slip my mind ...the dolllar got me here maybe  I should have let it slip. romance without fucking just with the self maybe it is Parcissus now i cant talk if the rabbi felt for me mr biden should feel it too EXPECTED LONG AWAITED SUSPECTED KNOW I HATE IT in forensic psych i remember sitting between a GERMAN GUY, A KILLER AND I WAS READING THE KITE RUNNER BY KHALED HUSSEINI WELL IF I SURVIVED THAT SITUATION GOD TELLS ME YOU SHALL LIVE HUH. ironyincedence ironic coincedence. .. gods way of staying anonymous FACT BLUNT FACT FROM MANY INSTANCES IN MY LIFE i love all women equally i dont love anymore. ALL OF THEM :-) big or small short or tall for all i care could be bouncing of the wall

fucking faggots

 they slaughterin me. circus fucking faggots. Next day... On the other hand. My brother once said "OUr father will outlive all of us." yeah. he's 90 in PERFECT shape, no drugs NEVER DRANK NO COFFEE NOTHING. he's always been an extremist. But he ruined it, when he broke down crying. Here I was thinking a flawless man lived with me. Fact that he cried makes it possible that he does have a concious though. I'm in high likely unlikely hopes. If it comes to down for some odd reason its between us two. I rather die, I'm a junkie and I've lived the life of a romantic my whole biography is INCREDIBLE. I make kevorkian/scarface etc etc look shady shallow. So, Al Pacino I could use some money for marijuana today. PLZ SIR. Anyhow, if you saw an inappropriate video is of no concern to me, it was funny. As long as it doesn't arouse you, no big deal. Like kramer from seinfeld I SHIT YOU NOT I HEARD A VOICE THAT WASNT THERE SAY "YOU ARE MY FANTASY" AND THEN KRAMER CAME IN AND SAID "HOW MUCH U WANT?" HEH. I JUST DONT SEE HOW A SMALL DEVICE THAT CREATES VOICES COULD BE IMPLANTED TO WHERE IT MANIPULATES BRAIN SIGNALS. then again... technology out there. Don't get me wrong, maria_lolita.mpeg was my masterbation my material when I was young but I WAS ONLY A TEENAGER MYSELF. and me fuckin underage? are you fuckin shittin me she was iN HS i was only 21 and this bitch had been through half the neighborhood ALREADY. I lost my virginity to her. she took MY INNOCENCE. And with my physique? come on now, I am not never was and never will be a pedophile. I guess someone with upstanding political status agreed. - The romantic existance of Parcissus.  oh yeah..Mr zucksteinmanberg zuckerberg , what can I tell you. you're illustrious I'm sinister. but OPPOSITES ATTRACT HONEY, so fuck kramer with you its real money so I'd love to visit *grin* :-) oh yeah >>>R.I.P Shaindy Eckstein I believe the only reason that it didnt happen for us is fact my father is a "Leftist Bastard" (as you so wisely once used the expression). but as a teenager, freak of nature isn't a flattering title so for you it was easy to 'beat around the bush' you were RICH i was a bum stealing game accounts to sell on ebay and smoke marijuana drink on weekends. oh well. im goin to read my hebrew book now bye

Why.

 For a man with severe mental impairments one of which being that he can't read to have to be in the shelter system is ABSURD. There should be a spot for people like him in itself. He could have something serious as to where hes on the "autistic scale". now on to me, with post-sub arachnoid hemmorhage complications diabetic complications AND schizo-affective to have a problem  getting disability while people who done 8 years locked up is ALSO ABSURD. on top of my hardships I have 5 years locked up. fortunately I'll get at this time because I CANT EVEN TALK ANYMORE. America is damaged, and neither trump or team obama has done it. The rich get richer while the poor get poorer.*deep sigh*. plus im a freak of nature who couldn't get a job on that alone unless he identified himself as being gay. and to add icing to the cake my mind can't sync memory with movement so I can't even drive so forget a taxi cab job. I lost my passport I lost everything I have hardtime getting id with photo on it at all. shit is FUCKED UP. and I'm getting fucked without being penetrated, I guess freak of nature being straight has to live without sex as well. forget it. what can I tell ya hARD TImES WITH thE StEEl NiNEs. I don't know you but I know you know me I don't flow unless your mother blow me nasty on the mic namean "ive seen suboxone and the damage fixed its like opiates and narcan mixed" - Sickly P

Facts of life.

 I had an ex-gf tell me "no, paul..you only love yourself." this woman was so full of herself she said that only because she wasnt into the sex with me. NO OTHER REASOn buT gUESS whaT NASTYA who arthur called "nasty". when i met you , few years later you said  "oh boy sister already fucked half my school" then when we were in college her sister was driving a brand new car latest year lease, was supporting  a heroin habit and had money to enjoy herself otherwise. this bitch was makin so much money selling her ass it was ridicolous wELL GUESS What i love gay men thats been in my life too. I mean shit I met two online that visited me, JUST camE TO viSIT ME i didnt know them in person they came out of california. I've had a gay geezer in missouri pay for dinner/joy/whore house for me. ALL OF MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TURNED OUT GAY ,....so on so forth. two in the pink one in the stink. Some of them wanted my lips on their red lips. And my cock in their stink. so you know im fresh with pink. then childhood friend whos closet case father told him "if I found out you're gay, I'll kill you" this dude had the nerve to call me "Parcissus, Pavel Pacino". Al Pacino, you're  a brilliant actor just as I am a brilliant man but i know you're gay sad to say its a thing to be ashamed of in america so its not publicized with you. but I AM A FAN. and guess what, I Aint a dime a dozen crackhead, never mad at black just sad". Christmas bells aint yet ringing namean. my life been so hard no wonder i turned out parcissistic , SOMEONE HAD TO LOVE ME, EVEN IF ME ALONE. i was tortured by other kids, been sick all my life. getting hit by a car, bone side of my head still sits out. been in a coma twice etc etc I told a dope peddlers gf "Ma, listen, I been in a coma twice, third time a charm.": she replied "no pauly, DO NOT say that. that's aweful I giggled and stepped out the car". AND NOW THIS HEH talkin yao ming but IM the MAN play the violins im ridin van tambourine I got the tan fuck flamboyant you just A FAN im bigger than life my son I ban sexy you know I scan simply life I went and scan got shorty wet so im the winner in my life time i was the sinner. god please forgive me, PLEASE :-*(

Intimacy.

 with myself, I'm not selling the lonely book I'm the lonely selling crook. I don't sell myself. honestly havent done that ONCE YET. in my years as a druggie

huh

 feeling down on myself i frown with self. my whole life been hells i hope fargos say wells HARDVARD(harvard) huh outdid my wit for a line. waddayaknow Ive done all drugs but NOTHING is as intense as the orgsam thats why love cant be defeated.came close to top and went overboard the porsche i floored. im dumb you see it aint all that bad im a man of comedy it aint all that sad an ego boost does it cocaine i buzz it SOME PEOPLE DEFINE BY THEIR OWN EXPERIENCE WITH THAT THERES NO INTERFERENCE i defined by own experience while in poverty my whole life thats why im as close to tupac as a white man will ever get. smooth and savvy lovely lavvy crave im cravvy waves is wavvy chapelle is davy , chapelle noone will defeat pryor. my man was an addict, like myself...but still a Genius. when it comes to language im tactful i got guns packed full n ya face cracked fool 2pac was like all i need in this life of sin with me its more like all i need is one pen and one paper so my chances are slim. (to "hardvard" - anonymous) MY BROTHAS HOPE YOU SURVIVE GREED DAMN RIGHT I SURVIVED BLEED TIMES ARE CHANGING THE ROVER IS RANGING

fuck just do it , it just is. philosophy of your beloved addictosopher

 jordan, make donation to SPECIFICALLY retarded black homeless men cause when I see one in a close relationship with a female that is definition of romantic in any language. independent film russian english dont matter. on the note of poor, rap verse -> the cause of good is sadly aligned with the price of food. see i dont know what aligned means but i know it makes sense. but on the other hard, a man living an identity as hard as the one I just spoke of, that is prolly equivalent of having no concious thus damage can play its part in persona. in specific childhood . I guess me and that man share something in common. when good wishes align with your own identity. or good deeds align with ones persona, hoping for the second, facebook owner zucky zuck zuckerberg there is a fairly thin line between being full of yourself and full of shit i'll stick with the first. 

Independent film.

 A big head that reads and writes obsessively finds a woman online who he reads and writes with daily basis but hes more attracted to her anonymously than he is to her in real life but he needed to know its a woman as well. then she finds a boyfriend and their relations end. When he finds out he kills himself. Thats a great idea for an INDEPENDENT MOVIE. and the only real line fuck thin line im talkin real line between independent and hollywood is suicide or suicide followed by murder. I'd never do either but between the two right now, I'm leaning towards A). This post is in loving memory of shaindy eckstein or shandy. my romance without love. god bless you adding peace to my reading/writing hobby as a teenager I was able to tell myself I found a woman who I shared it with. But fact that in reality I appreciated a womans friendship on a hobby and never could a man, does that make me gay or straight. thats philosophy AND I AINT RUNNIN THAT DEEP marc zuckerberg, im lusting disgusts you must i entrust you. ENTRUST WHATEVER THAT MEANS I DUNNO I FEEL LANGUAGE "When inconvenience entrusts testosterone, thats MAN" - P . dont matter gay or straight. and my brothas black around here so their lives been hard on that note alone. i have something in common with another human being. A rarety.

I was told ...

 blog getting shut down. that's a shame. but I've been humbled BY LIFE. so, AH well. as long as you let those close and those close by read my material I don't need fame. unfortunately my drug use i won't receive respect so on that note it sucks, losing this material. Mr. zuckerberg, its on YOU. "lol that made me smile  AND move my tongue." I understand life at an ivy league school studying so much is as hard as hardknock may get but realistically speaking whats to say on drugs, lookin like me I HAD TO STUDY from day I was born. so save your einstein for your physics course at hardvard mr. zuckerberg, Im illstein.

There was..

 a german philosopher named friedrich nietzsche ages back he was the biggest name in philosophy across the world ALL OF TIME i guarentee you 150 years down the road 2pac will be the modern day nietzsche. his level of creativity with song "me and my girlfriend" as example is #1. lyrically put together genius. It's all about creativity dont matter skin color rap or philosophy or rock or books. It comes down to being creative. Creativity might be the only gift I was born with. I might not favor myself but I do respect myself. so retarded or not I'll write you a philosophy PhD paper i guess mr trump agreed, ive lived a HARD LIFE WITHOUT KNOCKING YEARS FLY BY NOW I STAY CLOCKIN and with me forgettin to pAY older gerntleman one dollar, shit i donated five out of last twenty five being on welfare i had last night or night before that yes I REALLY FORGET. IAM forgetful heh

Illstein the illest.

 Try not to let your ego get ahead of you, sad to say I'm an addict so holding back emotion goes without saying.  forget the intellectual with my intellect fact is all.  obama with his yale nah i have osama going pale. i keep words in sequence despite fact I got sick once. i retired from reading now i keep it hood on the books YOU MISCONSTRUED MY LOOKS. the mentally ill makin money with rock rockin ya spleen physically deformed philosophy einstein it would seem im a realist keep it on fact too guns long and packed too saw texas license plates talkin a walk today look like west country keep it black too cant compete with me on the track too tho even asian u know that homeless asian lady its a WOMAN FOR PETES SAKE how SOCIETY AS A WHOLE watch a woman homeless i mean with men the sub-concious is always ready to face inconvenience by means of testosterone but ladies jeez, unfortunately although iM the american idiot i dont think homeless asian woman wants my "kiss of sympathy". so i aint gettin no play today. ive read alot of books in my life and stopped reading "The idiot" when he wrote of a virgin only been intimate with a woman once, kissing her just out of sympathy. "how is that for retarded." physically i dont appeal no sweat my verses keep it real - P man ppl wana talk about a rough life even with money i think the biggest strain in poverty isnt mean its primarily having a concious. 

So type your fucking fingers..

 I been writing my whole life. You never going to message a writer like this again. time flies. yikes. havent slept at all yet at 7am :/ zuckerberg im going to drink coffee and sub-conciously chat my jewish crime book. you believe this shit a chatting savant come to reading crime. Rain man, have a heart . save me ALL THAT MATTERS AT A BAR-MITZVAH IS THAT THE KIDS HAVE FUN. its true, yarmulke means you don'r resort to "Gangster shit". Im innocent I typed bullets in you, that aint crime. after  a sub-arachnoid hemmorhage 50 percent mortality rate at 22, my physique...I aint no gangster even missing the weird hat heh ponchik i cant really define is it "plain retardation" with no concious or severe emotional damage as a kid or an agressive autistic bear. a b or c. or combo huh fuck comittin  against crime with omittin im fuckin dime it looks to be ever so clear i stand against ever so fear i think of words in sequence despite the fact i got sick once. sigh back to my coffee and book i thought of a "BAR". i dont drink tho ttyl i dont know any of these "fancy words", I feel language I can feel where a word fits even if its not avidly ambigously ambivalent. chill obama with your yale I have osama going pale. america, I'm an american prorican. I'm sick and taking a leak and rappin with bleek and slappin the cheek and philosophy greek and my verses a trick and. jessica a greek goddess someone said she my counselour i wouldnt be surprised if nyc assigned me a "Solo client assistant", individual who focuses on my birdy ways. imagine the man who chats with keyboard 8 hours a day posting on only self-read blog occasionally coming to a suboxone doc looking with a fag hag with bunch of pretty boys around her makin the comment " he likes to cry alone. ". I DONT KNOW WHERE SHE GOT THAT IMPRESSION tears are nothing to be ashamed of and ill tell you despite hardships LIFE HASNT DRAGGED ME THERE YET

verses he pack in his voices and so he curses his lifes choices :(

 bars im packing though life lacking her breasts racking body sacking whats to say of heard im a retarded nerd i redefined suffer gold mined tougher anyhow boys and GIZALZ to have more money than i got heart id need a mortgage from the devil and my current housing situation ill take poverty over evil any day i pray I PRAY HARD thats how my father looked at it when he kept money out of our hands, me and brother illsyo his name ilya so his buddies nicknamed him ILLSYO. ha . he cant tear the mic up like me tho namean. i just pray for his sake some of pops was with good cause i mean shit what hes painted to this day is BERSERK. my pops a cold man. cold sa ice but he didnt show FEELING FIRST TIME IN 33 YEARS OF LIFE I SHIT U NOT 33 YEARS LATER FIRST TIME ANY EMOTION WAS DISPLAYED AND HE BROKE DOWN IN TEARS. damn. im on meds now so no koo-koo comments :-) i keep a positive outlook!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and justin JUU-AWAY i remember in great sentiment whn u came on irc and u said these WORDS VERBATIM BUDDY VERB FUCKING ATUM" "i like girls but i like them as friends, im gay. im crying". save the tears for your momma boy! hehe

One time

 an older gay man from elsewhere saw my photo sent me to eat and go to a whore house he KNEW i was straight so get this i get there this blonde come out of her room naked not even smiling i still had some excite left in me though so I walked into the bedroom. she sat down and looked at me with a "so?"so i figured she must think shes that cool so I got naked and stood there and gave her the "well?" look but spinning back to REALITY man she took one good look at me and the afforded lustful desire died . she figured she'll lay there dead till i get off i got dressed and said im leaving she said what about your money? I told her "Aint mine, bye.". End of tale

Et tu brutus

 I bleed the knife of ceasar(sp?) shed my life will please her. so ceasar was stabbed by this brutus character and his last words were "You too brutus?" On prison, although I don't have much personal experience. I think a man doesn't really suffer in his mind till he goes free and if you're stuck in a life bid, that's just you there aint no beating around the brush. OR emotional comfort. Identity of which withers away. But ability to maintain composure despite absurd amounts of gathered up repressed anger I respect.I guess trump saw my life make attica look like disney land so he figured why fuck a freak of nature when he manages to identify  as man with all obscenities involved. this whole reading/writing shit I was locked up doing it 8hours a day FOR A LONG TIME to amuse gays across america, just a way with words. I stepped overboard with my kevorkian freestyle so even a retard shouldn;t be degraded to shitting infront of an attractive woman. i mean really, when you put it all together like my man nas said "put it together I rock hoes yall rock fellas". I never get affected negatively by a persons aura so I can NEVER feel a persons tension I recognize them by what I know not what I feel. Life hasn't afforded me much feeling. and that drug induced psychosis come on now DIP comparing to my lifes tension is nap time for pre-school kids I faced it head on. cursed with a concious only where a person was "too tense" to recognize such traits did I behave anything like a sociopath. like laughing at a man whos done 20 years cause I misinterpreted his joke but even with that theyre able to recognize hardship introduction so wasnt a problem there. and despite my size ive NEVER lied i've death defied and sad to say got high but high kept me straight i mean seriously to keep a man intact with self sometimes you have to skip on the book shelf

wit in a verse

 at this point i cant say its small talk but whos to say whos talking. I have a philosophy on what turns a man gay. It's when a man gets confused either with or by a womans love in the earlier years. incest is wrong much like homosexuality so with those two tied in, the child goes with the alternative wrong. we all get selective in our early life. with my essays they tease whos passing them  I passed on the SAT's  you see I grade I be you fade well  this wednesday morning didnt afford me the privilege of reading just trying to read my mind. WHERE ITS AT OR WHAT ITS WITH OR...WHO ITS BY. I've seen grown men over 40 talking about slowly getting off methadone and get on suboxone. they spoiled by life if they have to think twice. One time I got off 80mg ON TOP of a serious dope habit cold turkey I remember at the end I was at staten island ferry some business dude looks at me, then looks at his colleague and hes like "tough kid". makes terminal illness look like a picnic in the park. so from there on, drugs been nothing but small talk

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 leaving the daughter of a prize fighter father feeling tamed for a moment not playing with feelings so whoever said that, spare me the small talk. tell them alexis. "cursed with a concious" my biography. writing is below me i wrote to entertain homos across america and used drugs to do that not vice versa drugs are a thing of the 70s. and this drug character put me on the phone and said "hey talk to this guy hes from ukraine" i guess her sister remembers her high school graduation me being first man to give her flowers with her having sucked dick of half the school already. "wipe that retarded smile off your face" she once told me. no more teeth, so smile ain't retarded. well, this is just philosophy talk  ok zuckerberg who knows you might afford me another day of your life, and god will cover the cost. OR IS IT VICE VERSA? who knows anymore, im not rich so i wont find out i seduce in addiction it will only deduce the fiction and to keep writing unless youre jack kerouac a fiction component is added sooner or later and with your right wing left wing politics assholes outa take a walk in my shoes and i bet the wings will be too heavy to walk with. so yale law wasnt for me. god bless my father for having me live a romantic life instead of cockfuck schooling. i dont give a fuck about image or selling to anyone. not sure if pops wanted to have me live or ruin me though .hard to say PUTTING ALL COMPONENTS INTO PLAY.  feline and the california fellow freak god bless you for peaceful time you afforded me. neff i dont know anymore like young slim said "fuck it im on once". with your politics right wing left wing take a walk in my shoes before you assign wing. i cant afford wings at time being so no opinion off hand or something. what does off hand mean?  beats me. the reality of it is this years of worthless reading but i grew up black despite my reading habit. as of today only phrases of sentiment leave something otherwise I read just to read not to learn. so mr. biden youre the pres, i wont comment on small talk. none of yours is small every last word of yours counts for america AND MAN I HOPE EVERY LAST STATEMENT OF YOURS WILL KEEP ME "INTACT". .. "whos to say anymore say as my life per se". - sickly P

I saw a man this morning that closely resembled marcy marc with facial hair.

you ruined it with hair. I wasnt special ed though I got the shelter bed I aint getting mad though its sounding kind of sad. I stay up on my shoulders facing faceless folders. huh ok well i hope im afforded the right to "keep my intimacy unless its sin you see". thats all marc just dont have them take my selfcept of A concept. dropping bad stuff for good stuff lets be serious noone quits smoking cigs i been missing my prayer in self deception sorry god bye from chekhovs the bet to jail im just too mad to sail . where that leave space for angry though never that namean anyhow the only type of pain i cant imagine is the pain of company during intimate moments ie: death whats romance if you dont have yourself to live it with not that im a selfish rat and on that note company is assigned by the brain not by the presence of others when you've resigned it for years of obscene it doesnt just fall back into place. what can i really ask anyone for, oh well