guess pops agrees im a narcissist since im still getting emails. n i got a welfare lady riding by in her white jeep. next day and today man ive seen so many fucking white jeeps etc on block crazy and today 3 white jeeps parking parallel at the gas station. but if it's my father too...why would he do it? whats the point

im saying though whats really good my moms voice so excited due to money..me brother seemingly found a comfortable FUNCTIONING MEMBER of society....my father..his political relations..even if hes had money i wonder if experienced with psych influences are worth the same or hypnosis. back to where we were at etc...i mean seriously me without a babysitter today money = fucking myself HARD whats left of I today. so be being a bum and afforded marijuana by fellow poor people sometimes is ok. but really...can these people be comfortable with my presence. lets peak further in and my pops beinG OBSCENELY RICH yeh u assholes u can only make me crave so much i might not to say no to dope thats exisisting a character in society for such I but money u gotta be fucking kidding me LET ME TELL U FROM CALIFORNIA HOMO TO A MIDDLE AMERICA OLD MAN I COULDVE STAYED LIVING WITH GETTING HIGH ETC. NAH. I pass on money. especially money that insults ya man. so i was sayin whats good with lady chino with a 3rd of white jeeps is she trying to get fucked real talk baby aint even gotta try lay down on backseat and i take care of BUSINESS. oh wait...business leads to money. ok id make an exeption with you peace oh yeh hope how rich pops is he affords me a non suffering death otherwise than death talk. niggas aint scaring nobody PERIOD.

And with me being gay. yeh but i dont take money for sex PERIOD. so other than this quitting smoking character.. the roleplaying game involved in such a romantic act...other than him. dont get me too excited :/

"Rain man the cocaine man" mind you a >black< dude once called me. Photographic memory I once had. At this point numbergraphic. I memorize digits incredibly. Even before I went to prison, I memorized many digit medicaid card #'s with ease. NOw on photos, mind cant sync movement with memory so this one not definate but I remember street signs with names of street on it and make turns based on that. All logical signs some i cant even define atm, point to me having photographic memory. And all in all, my overall mind....before coma...i was a savant. a retarded genius without any >one< exceptional ability. Cant play the guitar or nothin. OH MY BAD, DESPITE HAVING THE MEMORY/MOVEMENT ISSUE I WAS LEARNING TO PLAY THE PIANO REALLY EASILY WHEN I WAS A KID. BUT MY POPS PENIS ENVY CAUSE I WAS GOING TO PLAY BETTER THAN HIM. HE HAD ME QUIT. But "i aint going to lie tho son". My pops fucking nice at the keyboard. My man play melodies without looking at notes...just listening to a song. You tell me that aint impressive WELL THEN! I aint impressed with you. Obviously not trying to gain any favor from pops... you saw the first remark. But fucking guy aint no FUCKING savant...Guy genius. period. with sheetrock and paint etc jobs. Building garages and stuff. Piano and he is nice at that too. Man...where his lonesome life style got him...I HOPE HE IMPRESSED WITH HIMSELF CAUSE I AINT EXACTLY IMPRESSED WITH HIS LONE-DRIVEN HEART. bye ;-( oh my bad i been getting emails from lowes. well fuck lowes sad to say im missing a name of GREAT sentiment...the name of store id go to get supplies helping pops as a kid. home improvement maybe? that dont sound to be fact...let me think into it maybe it will come. doesnt feel like it

ponchik getting ready to kill me. homosexuals are threatining my life its pretty obvious whos in on it. whoda figured where america stands today. real spiritual of you. exists god and acknowledging of foul. good night

Can't get away from a mid-life crisis. I've now found out we all get them. Looking back on youth plenty. And when at time you're present in..when today is looking out of hand (understating). What one left to do but make comments on earlier years. You don't want to engage in child's activities.

"karma". i can imagine jewish people playing this out..saying im traumatised by guy that was into man and was killed by gays. or gays killing me and saying someshit like oh he made LITERALLY ONE homophobic remark ...but once attention comes to...PFFT id trade any/all attention i got for a pack of newports right now. So as far as phobia goes, I dont know who I'm supposed to be phobic of between the two. legend to god, DAMN MOTHERFUCKING RIGHT. the kind of suffering ive lived and keep moving...anyone willing to make me suffer more. thats cruelty on the sick. oops, right...that statement defines penis envy. on a serious note..ofcourse from a culture / life style outlook...jewish ppl doing something to get by without a bunch losing their fucking mind from social repressions... what else can i tell you my >PEOPLE<. Hopefully enough humans.

(For whatever their actual reason may be if it happens) I hope jewish people do make me suffer more than I've already suffered enough in life. then put blame on gays. I can imagine that one. What can I say, the luck of Sickly/Poorly P. My romantic past... the average man comparing to..maybe a circus donkey at best.

My fathers "whichever word" (ego/imagination/ or todays feelings or whatever) is in my hands. I don't do ANY active playing on it or into it or anything of the sort. namean, I'm just LAID BACK IN THE CUT HOLLARIN AT SHORTY WITH THAT BUTT. nuff said hello to pops aka "Joe". as is name of this nigga here tryin to tell me he got dope then steals my money .what kinda funny homoed out shit is that. prolly a fucking retard to act that way like a 12 year old.

And my life's hero who I knew as a kid.... the elegantly so philanthropically all the more passively shy without any shyness. And passive only cause you get it without much agression so to speak. well thanks (id imagine). I remember janice saying jason is cute. back in 8th grade..and my precious shamella. with that funky name of hers, she know i stay black. But that whole drug shit related to my name...baby you want relationship with man of the most romantic biographical life ever...if turned into book or what not...let me tell you ... IT WOULD TURN THE WORLD OVER. Fuck turning someone out. Would turn ya over. No need to even bend over. Now america done seen size of my piece. yall know I'm rollin deep even largely so. But Mr. rosenthal you seem to have turned out a decent man...not too surprised as i clearly remember when it comes to you...you were ALWAYS decent to everyone. not just your "cool friends". Decent guy. so being us both straight and romantic facts involved...its all enough for me to play a girl. with you id be comfortable. so if u want to fuck me after a mcchicken sandwich date. HOLLA ATCHA BOY. MCCHICKEN I LOVE. im not a chicken youre a turkey. bye.

As previously spoken of.. I didn't have a childhood. But jordan you were a factor all by yourself you as in you just you yourself and..I...i mean not, rather you. you added so much, almost created childhood watching your games. What's left of my mind now I can't put forth too much interest in sports. But watching your late 90s games finals on replay...that one I could do without a doubt. the black jesus, nah they were understating blunt fact. All in all, overall..an american GOD. this whole new age lebron story....i just cant fit it imaginetely into my fucking brain how a man could be more entertaining than michael jordan. UNLESS THEY GOT IT TO WHERE THERE'S A ROBOT INSIDE A MAN. Other, Yeh, I want to be like mike.

Reality of it is this. Me preferring black people is not due to my poverty or cause i liked late 90s bulls. It's cause I had no childhood. As opposed to their very difficult ones in poverty etc. But mines was in nigeria, way my mother dealt with me. So excuse my more so than odd like ubSOYduhTeez. i love my mother though cause lets get real now a man lookin like me fuck would happiness do for me that is more efficient than a proficient ego. atleast it sounded like the fitting word :-/ my blackbook blog with no faces. he must be a ladies man guy wana talk some m4m shit come on now if i had it like u with women id have 85% of new york females in a wheelchair from broken backs. Oh my bad, i forget #2 in my life

That nursing home shit...aint nothin but a 5 star vacation resort with my ego. and i aint even talkin bout 5 star poker , namean. i dont know this basketball fact tho, how many all star joints jordan beeen in...this whole new age lebron thing. man james it dont matter how many points you do how much harder you are or whatever more you got of than jordan. BUT LET ME TELL U, MY MAN MIKE HAD CHARISMA IN A LIL ROUND BALL WITH HIS FLAVORED AURA. ILL TAKE MY FLAVOR CHOCOLATE ON HIS GAME. MIND YOU HIS >>>>>>>EXACT<<<<<<<<< PHYSIQUE. JESUS. BLACK JESUS. ANYHOW. When a woman truly loves you it puts you in a place in life where you got a chance with alot more ladies. sad to say, its the kind of conversation that could be provided by that woman that defines. This one kid-less milf when i was one and twenty..WE DID EVERYTHING TOGETHER I WENT TO WORK WITH HER ALL THE TIME SHE ADOPTED ME A PUPPY ETC. Man, real talk tho...gotta step back from looking into the past. Back of the past. (deion sanders #21 95cowboys prolly career lead for returned TD's my son was NICE. jordan playing cornerback type shit. i shit u not nigga). now today....lady mami looked out with only two bus down clips today. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww woowwwww owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! michael jordan MIKE. MAN IDIOTESQUE KID EROTIC. Mike. Oddly enough, when it come to shakes i prefer vanilla. but seeing you on the fade away jump shot that was as milk shake as you get. Smooth and savvy down your throat, i'm not going to downplay your flavor and say you showboat. (on the otherhand , they got me with aids cancer and a sore throat). (as my buddy em used in his lyrics once). but to be honest with u man, honestly as u see aint sayin or doin nothin for money ( tho i could use some cigs). michael jordan was GOD to America. all that tom brady / wayne gretzky / babe ruth shit....they DONT EVEN COME CLOSE. Mike, if you were my favorite player I'd worship. I Like scottie pippen tho, simply pavel. 33, central arkansas 6'7 225. i remembered all that without looking up despite badly damaged mind..jordan NC 6'6 198. dont remember rolling stones rodman height/weight sad to say.

As far as new thing. Someone putting $2 in my pocket walking out room without me remembering. Ive know theres been ALOT of >different< moments i have. long story short whatever...fuck your 20 or even 100 dollars ....for money or drugs etc...u can put in few bucks and newport cigarettes for 5 minutes...for sake...id amuse myself. wouldnt be so much selling. After it passing into funny from amused. Then it hits the lower bottoms with selling. So that adds up. Now my brother dont want to give me money anymore...hope he dont think this new life style getting me into whatever. my lady chino always looking out with cigarette clips..im sayin though for EVERY MAN not just who ever I....you grow desperate and look into higher agES. NOW I SEE ALL IN ALL IT AINT BREASTS OR HIPS...its pussy front hole that does me..all pretty titty shit. thats a FAR 2nd. Even in porno aside positions where u can pussy..that shit barely keeps me hard...forget getting off. i think my new found leniency and ponchik. whatever...both are small talk. i dont do small talk writing/reading and listening to myself talk somehow oddly enough.

Bring back that hebrew feeling. A guy anonymously donated me 2 dollars today. Spanks. When my son grimreap.. he said "this is where people come to die" i said "i am dying" he replied: "you been dying for years." Yeh...dying since the day I was born. Somehow, I was born. Waiting on woman to take me to welfare to get my card , jesus. phew. aint nothing more beautiful than mans youth i have men asking me for truce after i wreck em leave heart feeling the blues sons better get they clues on the plus side or plues must i or just take mues hasty or changing skin changin hues if u aint familiar with word thats related to color as far as skin color unless blacks present i aint earnin the dollar without they identity gave 2 dolla gift so i holla pray in hell i dont land given my lifestyle over the years all in all strand a thieves sinful trend nah sin a silly word exist a right and wrong but of the bible im bored as far as whats painted of jesus maybe all in all amongst men further i scored making me of such when you look over it all despite many foul habits i win over on right and wrong you ask a nigga win doing do when youve suffered prior so much more than plenty ofcourse life time of losing in the hearts of masses im looking back on one and twenty little odessa be my lady harsh on me was my daddy being a green driven presening soviet pride in the soviet was only stick shift grandmas death had me grieved you like a poodle im bear stay roar tear through door aint fearing heavenly four in shorty eyes i get lost nah between her legs i make post post up i be her shepard she be my pup i make orgasm stop after neurons click have her fours on dick im bored sitting here just sick. simple

Now on the other hand this robert character. attractive >>YOUNG<< I envy that. So let me be your bf and live with your mommy. Me and her can play scrabble and discuss old time NBC drama shows like Passions with lil timothy as character. I'm more like thinny pauly. I get some sort of note just now "how do narcissists crush you" nah they dont crush i leave these success stories to blush their girlfriends to shyly hush like cowboy emitt smith make the touchdown rush. 95 boys, i met deion sanders son recently. black and money no crack game is funny

Now I understand my life today. This is the after life. Why all this CRAZY SHIT RELATED TO ME. FROM CARS TO PEOPLE TO STREET THIS HOTEL IS ON. ETC. IMPOSSIBLE OTHERWISE THIS MUST BE THE AFTER LIFE.

I might get welfare next week, counselor said so. web admins from every site google youtube and ofcourse Mr. hardvardian zuckerbie...im sayin tho wassap why she delay me few days trying to get my welfare bread in. ;-(. people coming in my room while im sleeping and such, no shame in their game huh

My diagnosis paranoia thats aight couple years with a lawyer. actually, nah...more than a couple, u know I KEEP IT HOOD. LEGAL AIG TYPE SHIT. rap lyric i came up with many years ago on diagnosis shit. FOR ILLUMINATI OR GOTTI IM MUCH TOO NAUGHTY AINT TOO SNOTTY TO SAY I GOT THAT GOD BODY ya pasha rebenok tejoli ya da desti schitat magu

From childhood bullies, to being rat boy growing up to having something done to me sexually as a teen growing up..and other reasons as well. plenty reasons to be against men in general. but I'm gay. ofcourse I make homophobic remarks. I SHIT U NOT, 3/4 GUYS I GREW UP TURNED OUT GAY. DEAD SERIOUS. I AINT EVEN GONNA BULLY THEM OR MENTION NAMES. ME BEING THE HANDSOME RAT BOY,,,I TURN NIGGAS OUT. REAL TALK. AINT TRYING TO FLATTER MYSELF

Yes I'm gay. I was just in great concern of mother being accepting of it.. having raised me so disciplined as such man. And my brother seem to be ok with it too. So I'm not afraid of it anymore. Forgive any homophobic remarks but what I went through in life and growing up in raised in russian community.. homophobia is huge. I just pray I don't get sexually attacked by anyone with accepting it and all. I just hope everything be good with my brother...my mother is sick and all me being sick too...if there is one thing he can do for us... is live in a way that will have him satisfied.. even happy be AWESOME but i know i know how many people in life have true happiness probably not many. But being such a friendly person with BA in philosophy..that combo he should be damn happy! i pray I heavily ask god and him too...that he be in good state life. Please enjoy , ilya "illsyo" geller . 36 dollars please i need cigarettes .... 20 give guy for picking up for me and 16 for my pack 12 if guy could could get it g'nite...illsyo u know who illest on the mic. And my hard working handsome chino he want me to satisfy no doubt... i love my MEN THAT WORK... tax paying hard working AS A PRETTY BOy CHINO u know... damn right ill satisfy i aint no using insulting to the self insulting words so satisfy is fitting . i satisfy so for chinas sake go reply i know i aint pretty but ill comply i dont sell my ass aint no need to supply 20 years of addiction aint once selling my ass know more just reply crackhead nah nigga i met jessica smoked a little cause she supply i speak the truth know what words imply sad it be recent welfare I DONE APPLY. who iller on the screen maybe my man ben stiller. benny ol boy, you be my man if u a good 'ol boy from country farm in arkansas. its strange how chickens keep running around with head chopped off . back on grandmas farm ive seen chickens get head chopped off pigs get killed after getting tied to a post and i think ive only seen only 2 get murdered.

To my BROTHER. Hope he gets this. THIS IS >MY WORD<. LADY COULDNT GO WITH ME TO GET WELFARE CARD SHE WORK 2 JOBS FULL TIME AND WAS TOO BUSY TODAY. SO IM STILL WITH NO MONEY AT ALL. EXCEPT SOMETIMES POLAND SPRING BOTTLE RETURN AT 5 FUCKING CENT A PIECE. AND PRACTICALLY NOONE SHARE CIGARETTES HERE. PLEASE JUST A LITTLE BIT MONEY. and my puerto rican brother just looked out with 2 newports not charging no money . georgian or whatever, nah im a real puerto rican jew in character. guy here is More than likely full of shit bout that. OH YEH, FURTHER PROOF BOUT MY NIGGAS. here aint denzel type money shit. just average folk, AND HERE FURTHER PROOF IT AINT NO COLOR THAT DEFINE..JUST AS MANY GOOD BLACK FOLK AS WHITE. EVERY BLACK MAN HERE DECENT. ON THAT NOTE, TAKE CARE FOLKS. spy or what of that shit, everybody could be spy-like but my pops an intellectual boy...I WOULD HAVE NEVER THUNK. that whole KGB or russian government scaring him into doing fucked up shit to me sexually or whatever.... DEAD ASS IVE NEVER LIED WRITING ONCE...I WOULD HAVE NEVER THUNK OR IMAGINED THAT MY POPS HAS ASSOCIATIONS WITH ANY WORLDLY FIGURES. SO MY MAN BIDDEN...HOW THEY GONNA FRONT ON ME LIKE THIS NAMEAN....MY POPS IMPORTANT NAH ALL MY LIFE I SHIT U NOT I LOOKED AS PAPA AS SELF-IMPORTANT WITHOUT A DOUBT...BUT HIM AN IMPORTANT MAN...BOY HE PLAYED ANONYMOUS EXCELLENT WITH THAT ONE. NUFF SAID. WITH LEARNING, MEMORIZING N SHIT I WAS A GENIUS...BUT FIGURING SHIT OUT....I DUNNO BOUT THAT ONE. ;--------------**(((((((( MY HOLLYWOOD FIGURES...AINT A WORD I CAN THINK OF TOWARDS/ABOUT YOU FOLK. LOGIC TELLS ME THERE'S DECENT PEOPLE AMONGST YOU TOO ;-) ONCE AGAIN, THIS LITERALLY THIS IS THE ONLY WORD THAT GETS ME ANGRY TO REFER TO ME AS CRACKHEAD THIS IS FACT...CALLING SOMEONE CRACKHEAD AINT BOUT THE DRUG OR PPL USING IT....RATHER WHAT THEY WILLING TO DO FOR IT...OR THAT PERSONALITY BROADLY SPEAKING. ME, AS FAR AS ME, WITH ME NIGGA.....QUITEEEEEEEEEEE THEEEEEEE CONTRARY. NUFF.

First of, jay z an entertainer..jada a rapper. second...if you aint retarded you should put that work in at school and get a pharmacist license. i come from discipline...so spare me that im from ghetto talk. when i didnt get an A, mother would give me a whipping like you wouldn't forget. and half these crack dealers...THEY AINT FUCKING RETARDED. slanging rock or whatever, they just being real lazy. i know its harder being minority...but nevertheless. so as my man jadakiss said.. 'i dont know where they found you sons but since ya pops aint around im going to punish and ground you sons". god forbid they hypnotize me into doing some absurd shit that lands me in attica. DAMN RIGHT IM GOING TO TURN MUSLIMS TO NOT GET TURNED OUT. actually, it gets boring and lonely around all 'tough guys'...so maybe. who knows. only god knows. i believe in god. AND SINCE BIOLOGICAL PARENTS WERE AROUND GOD PUNISHED ME AND GROUNDED ME SONS. and if you shameless thinking of hypnotizing me into doing nice fucked up. ok if you willing to do that to me, that's within reason. but....to an innocent person. dont care how far you'd go to prove (OH MY BAD...your WRONG). thats foul. biden, i dont know how obama found you son, but since ya pops aint around imma punish and ground you son.

On my nursing home. 100% fact any roommate will have 22nd state dementia. wont know right from left. nor understand difference between pussy and dick. So me jerking off without a date. As far as mid-life crisis. I'll explain, sometimes nobody should walk 15min. They do it anyway, I'd hope only because they understand and get that wild. cause believe me, aint no virgin here. I'll take it anyway I can get it. maybe blow past 2. thats aight my verses true. cant really figure my man matt out wheres he from jersey cali or massachusets maybe and his boy in fornication he aint from jersey hood my glocks metal fuck wood massachusets im massive keep him in firing range need one freestyle to murder fuck your two sets. good night my brotherly matt falcon. hope u read my rap skeelz. tell your pops in general thanks, hes a man of good heart of gold and mind, my man stay money. start same letter. M for for morgue......my man help me out what i want done with my body when im put under....what i want done with my body...cremated burried or left dead in a forest with GRIZZLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS! g'nite ultima online playa.

2pac legend untouchable in my heart on the mic truly vicious man was of heart mind u first man to mention illuminati on record illuminati or gotti both sons on my record fuck ill im that sick top of my record sickly p untouchable fuck behind spitting bars on the record jada talk bout old bentleys aight ill free him my style on record em talking about today yestrday and day before i record years ahead on my record fabolous nice too ill deflaw him on record man today whats left in my life hope i die a free man YOUR HONOR THAT IS ON RECORD....im nice. but that jada beanie sigel diss, yo J-kiss...leme tell you NOTHING BUT PURE WIT ON THAT RECORDING. mind you recording on that white boy beat..jada diss like he o-g black..but that witty on that beat. nigga pulling glock 9 white gangster in black skin i came to america at nine. thats respect id never diss you jada. you are fucking NICE. LITERALLY ALL YOUR SONGS. ILL. g-nite folks lol jigga gave u his old bentleys now u on some shit. oh yeh, since ur pops aint around im going to punish and ground you son. THAT IS NOTHING BUT FUCKING >>>>>>>>>WIT<<<<<<<< GOT MY RESPECT. GONA GO SMOKE WEED GNITE

Oh yeh. LITERALLY THE ONLY UNEXPECTED UNUSUAL (MORE SO THAN TOM JONES) thing in my life today. literally the only inspiring is my brother telling my i love you. after all my years of "it is unusual for pavel to behave as sane man it unusual for brother pavel to behave as one with head on his shoulders...it is unusual it is unusual it is unusuaaaaaaaaaaaaaal" one guy told me tom jones used to have chicks throwing panties at him in his concerts. That yells charisma. "nuff said". i like pacino and pippen i like grin yo and narcissists skipping. with my verse "and dont bother flushing my feces one for my pacino fans ill just call em misses" man i hope they dont flush me out of life. with a car that said "flushing" on it by me heading home from hospital recently. ah, well. probably another pacino admirer whos disgusted with me. YEH, ITS A HARD KNOCK LIFE. naaaaaaaaaamean.

Picking up cigarette butts of the floor or getting em for a dollar at the foor picking up cigarette butts in blood im type mutts feeling type bore sweating out the pore philosophically more strong at the core nailing the whore like bear roar having heart tore aint have a solo organ all four bars is just more verses all the more my bars even more spitting shit rhymes i wore nuff said leaving ya feeling type sore. done did it on that one. DONE ^^; chinese smiley we used to say kekeke instead of hehehe gaming in ULTIMA ONLINE. GREATEST PVP EVER IN A GAME . THE GREEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATEST.

No need for cops or anybody. I can see it now...awaiting long awaiting a precious date..to make a scene out of my existence etc to promote gay pride or something along the lines of...correcting grammar induction of small talk. I don't do, ain't hall of fame either. So all in all, aggravate me to homophobic remarks getting influenced to a childish experience you've moved to out of enjoying cock in your mouth. Well, I hope jizz taste as good as your retardation/spite equivalent remarks/childish actions adding to...well, iam sure you respect where you from so make the clown scene here all you want... i want to see you do that with your family or fellas in your neighborhood. the day I see that one, I'll suck anybodys dick. That's impossible. fact. whether you're PJ's or china or whichever. Done. My dick imagination physique past got me here. DIPP. Dipp without set I'm spreading blunt fact that's a safe bet etc. no need to further on rap...just dont forget where you're from, if that dont mean nothin to you...you're below crackhead. take care.

All in all, my life contradicts all other addicts. because prior to prison release...as far as drug use i didnt use them to make an ass of myself or make a scene infront of other people. folks probably already know. I used drugs to afford comfortably being quiet. Walking around anywhere, around anyone. Aside from the few people ive had intimate relationships with. ASIDE RECENT PAST, DRUGS AFFORDED ME BEING COMFORTABLY SILENT. Lunch time...I know I've been obnoxiously endlessly ranting but reasoning behind is being comfortable around my black people here. Ok, time to eat.

Got a free energy drink today. (oddly enough a/an is one grammatical difference, acronym-wise that be aside/anonymous nigga.) My brother, hope he maintains enough energy to live joyously to retirement age etc. I mean I've met a content gay couple or two in my life....ah fuck it. hope all is well for him. west 23rd projects to west 8 street to stilwell ave to the closer to my home town brighton beach...NOSTRAND AVE! Whenever life takes this junkie's path, i aint no sociopath as medically proven got the heart of a lion. Anyhow, my childhood hero David Weiss. Maybe jewish are gods chosen people cause he was chosen to be star in my heart. Hope all is well in your family David. (YES I DID always use capitals when referring to god's son David Weiss). Its possible to be in a mind state of fearing death..its so fucking weird when im feeling like really down on myself I do fear etc, yet SOMETIMES when I'm in a bright mood...man u put that instant death switch in my hand. ITS A WRAP. But for now, I like rap just fine.

call it a narcissistic sociopath, "narcopath" ...ive used narcotics sure, been on an chatting pathway years on end. but a narcissist? sociopath? more like sad day of my narc dealer coming to prison path. Tom Cruise / tyra banks get married THEN I WILL KNOW THE MESSIAH IS COMING. moyshah or jesus, whichever he is, or whoever he was...i mean really all in all..with my nigga god.. whoever he be where ever he be etc etc...HOWEVER HE BE...he be present non-physically anonymously at 186 street shelter today. God, gee, I got that god god body. I aint gonna lie though son

That hard I body I play it hard buddy guns shots hard leaving em muddy pray I dont die in prison like my man gotti. who keep it hebrewist. whatever that political move on euthanasia be. niggas better hit me with nembutal before I get my ass hit in attica. namean. I was returning bottles today and MY LADY chino...(id know her name if she spoke english) she gave me a bunch of cig clips so i gave her the bottles. And as I've spoken of many times, ONLY ONE FUCKING INDIVIDUAL COULD HAVE ME GUILTY..my own mother. Otherwise, I guess my man ponchik gave me an innocent trip this morning...gave him few pulls again. bastard almost never shares yet leaves me tripping they never care that deep I'm dipping into my heart they tear hope they tipping left over my mind still smart drinks im sippin have cell phones beepin on the q17 whip know im creeping as far as trip acid trippin this morning know i stay greeting. that's that. ima go smoke, lady chino looked out for me with ALOT of cigarette clips today I'm overjoyed.

Folks get "touchy" over "heart and inspiration" remark I made. Dont know who came up with that one. But, fact. Anyway, pushing that aside. Not inspiring any small talk. BUT, I "got off" twice today. Only had that satisfaction once prior...in last few months. I pray I get some sleep tonight. The righteous brothers are great. What can I say, I'm moved. Not moving, just moved.. I'm inspiring neighbors pulling out expiring shorty on all fours ruling out perspiring after sexession fooling out all in all pulled out lyrically got ya ruled out son got fooled better find out what i'm about. ACED. I got a 3 7's hand in poke her. I know, I know...just feeling back in sentiment. When I was one and twenty. Anyone got a cigarette? i'm not getting package till beginning of next month.

I do wonder if my lady across the street is jewish. I want to live with her! and on a lil more tension-filled note...All in all...hope I don't take an innocent fall I know being a junkie with biden I could take the fall. OH YEH, i thaNK (caps for no kidding!) my jewish people. i mean 100% fact, there was ZERO ANTI-SEMITIC INTENT COMING FROM ME NEWAY..WHOEVER THE FUCK LEFT IT ON MY BLOG IS AT WRONG. ME, I DIDNT THINK OF IT AS ANTISEMITISM. JUST A WAY WITH WORDS AND SUCH. But once again, I do thank my jewish people. And amongst those, Im surprised jason rosenthal turned out good looking. bastard got me beat in all aspect's of life. Me, looking like me...ages in this shelter..all this all this other type ghetto stuff bout my recent life. gee golly. Well, for now I'm alive I manage to walk a loooong distance so heart cant be that awful in shape. But...man thank god for me feeling good every day n all. But where mind is at atm. PHEW. Mr zoobie ya the newbie n guess what rich man...a good looking broad taking me to get welfare friday. + A ride I aint doin buses. I'm living type big too. I'm notorious IMFAMOUS a sinister outcast. and im a master scholar. I teach harvard newbies lawasophy.. Only reason I missed out on yale is cause I wasn't enough pale. Thats what admissions office told me anyway. I was so nice at my GED that I didn't need to SAT I just blasted the gat on the back gave corpse a pat and just told em I'm the boy rat i pitch and im babe rooth at bat leave brothers out switching to fast ball on the matt after game autographs and got their shorty wet. don't know how much time I got left on earth hopefully a year +...lyrically I'm that ill. Tell my man biden, WHAT THE DEAL?!? my brother from another color mother warren sapp knows what it is. how its done. and we do it in new york. 7:26 pm. And gay people being alright too towards me...all in all.

Met lady living across the street passed on dime got beat bought a nick. A great generation of writers. Jack kerouac Allen ginsberg burroughs. (writing skill in that order). Kerouac book called On The Road Burroughs a book called junkie. Ginsberg, never read so dont remember. But ON THE ROAD, BAR FUCKING NONE. GREATEST PIECE OF AMERICAN WRITING IN AMERICA'S HISTORY. Bout an alcoholic traveling hopping car to car to bus etc while drinking heavily. my man, if that aint romance for you...you must be a child. BUT!! i just ran across a lady she a neighbor across the street second time today. As far as my memory serves, i dont think i've met her before. She was trying to buy some cigs. I apologize lady, ill have this friday ;-) once again.. jack kerouac - on the road. Genius of a drunk. GOAD!!! in writing he was goad of writers like jordan is goat of basketball. one letter switch up. D/T Damn time. :( . Lady neighbor, have a nice day.

my testosterone levels definately high enough for sex but they ain't high enough for that roleplaying shit. not high enough to play a bitch or or say someshit like "Take that bitch!". I got the physique of a puberty boy forever (aside my face). but my levels aint 'raging' no more. ;-(. testosterone aint raging testes aint paging co's me aint caging glocks aint gauging lyriCAlly iam saging k

"Mobi" finally found out name of my female martin luther king. 50 pack of cigs. ok reminders. Sword slay Sunlight ray word say born may lay down day gettin pay fuckin lay nay speakin my way dickin gay hope stay made clay lookin fray franisco bay (3/1 cigs)..few verses. always turn dance into romance on death i take a dying stance of dying now what is my chance deathly slow with dance being chance dying god bless a smooth trance 5 star death rated all 10 homies to I are all friend for evil amongst em scanned for welfare office I done planned on public transp soon will land who iller nah you just got manned. - "narcissus pavelilli" Those last few years are lady of the year, Mobi. I'm vewy respeyktfool so I dont say hello in person. just so lady IAM A FAN, knows i'm the illest. aint no shame in my rap game hope your heart I tame I'm not a big fan of having fame I'm collecting bottles to get bogies It's one in the same sanity to I come but see me insane thats as likely as stage 4 cancer with no pain im a hood name aint shit lame i be man of game. illest. evening goes on.

Who knows who will put me under my game struck like thunder. < where that come from. I picture this one "He came up with that verse, investigation not needed...he knew..must be suicide". 5-0 more fucked up than 'em killuhz. someone here came up with new nick for me... "pavelilli", my homies know.

New york is full mental patients who are pretending to be normal people who only pretend to be mental patients. I didn't sleep last night. Darn. went for my second run looked ALL OVER found zero bottles in the evening today ;-(

haven't had a SINGLE DOLLAR in my pocket for about 2months. thank god my welfare case is active and ill get my card soon. atleast i hope soon, DAMN THESE WORKERS!!!!! (i apologize frustration)

this is the only thing he is afraid of. The narcissist is afraid of rejection. (narcissist). further proof, I'm no narcissist. I find rejection amusing sometimes , rejecting a man like me is all too common. BUT i collected bottles today away from garbage by home. I collected 4-5 there. Then when I came back, MY LUCKY DAY. 5 in garbage right by where I live. So I got me a cigarette with ease this one. I just feel awkward taking them cause of asian lady collecting them too. But then again, her age + inability to speak english she's alot more likely to get donations than me. "freak of nature" is likelier for laugh than a dollar. I'm talentless so it's difficult in that sense. 1st of next month brother will send me cigarettes...till then I got a newfound "job" and hobby. Takes up time healthily. ( reminder bookish to self ). As far as the lady person who helps the nurse..way I see you..you're very attractive only thing that is a minus other than your braces for teeth you GOT IT. ofcourse, just for me..if you have a dick that is a minus. But even then, with your face...that plus is bigger than a silly dick minus. hope you change your mind on keeping your hair short rather than shoulder length then you be just hot. That's that.

i couldnt sleep over night. and the fantasy of sex with a man... its (obviously) not first time it happened. but it gets me so upset...even just fantasy alone gets me REALLY UPSET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and oddly enough i could never fantasize of man i hold in deep sentiment such as tom cruise, childhood hero. I just think back on average man ones .. im an odd job with no job. she wont get me welfare :(

Gracias Gratzi ass. (i think thats italian, second word).Mambo jumbo to some bro I'm just that dumb oh. I mention "intimacy" with my italian goddess alexis impagliazzo. She next best lady (to ones i have ZERO chance to get intimate with) only next to tyra banks. love I hope your bank full slope on tank school pope know he rule nope Ill murder duel dope use to cope lacking hope at time being lungs so fucked up i couldnt sing right or left wing defeat these con artists politicians in the ring how out their philanthropy they only ones that benefit 6 zeros plus they talking like them hoping country a must on each other once every 20 they make a bust its getting fucking tiring with their rust my homies here i feel occasional lust when i was young used to smoke that blunted dust aint to further time words so sexy ill call em sust! intimacy I've had in distant years that have long passed now distant fears all i got but havent been outclassed ! dead ass, i met an anorexic type a girl, asian tom cruise lookin shorty. if i was dressed fancy without returnin bottles i would holla at shizzzzzzzzzorty. thieves still shower in the tub tubber i go to the clizub filthy doin da dirty dance up in the clizub clubber i aint no gangster nor thief much less a mob mobber im a romantic this lifes love lubber. IT FEELS LIKE IN THIS LIFE NO KIDDING EVERY SINGLE BLACK MAN IN NEW YORK LIVE THE LIFE OF A ROMANTIC "HEH". okie done writing/type for now. (even if , likely , only I be the one to read later when im bored cant think of nothing else to write)

(IM NO SOCIOPATH FUCK U WHOEVER SENT ME EMAIL OF "WHAT IS A SOCIOPATH?") And maybe that's the reason for this...As far as neighbors go , I never say NOTHING to them when i see their child around them. Because more than likely, I'm just a drug addict to them. I can imagine her thinking "he was a nice guy " as she gets older. WELL LET ME TELL U KIDS...aside a >few<, aint nothin nice about a drug addict. They behave like sociopaths. I feel shitty even living close to a family that has a child. When I shout I NEVER SAY ANYTHING RUDE/FOUL. EVER. Otherwise, i kid u not, it's a habit ive developed over many long years. mr. zoobieberg knows! (then again he knows me as well as a family member). On the other hand. up in this joint, ALL BLACK FOLKS are family to me! Well beautiful day today, I'm glad I spend it with family here! Oh my poor mind with sentimental value. jordan james bryant? Yep, in that order. Even though kobe had high of 81. Though he's third behind jordan/james. I mean mike had the word charisma tied to a ball. Talk about puerto rican ball on that one. Well beautiful day, perfect dry/just right warm. I am very very glad im spending it with my black fam here. Ttml ttyl etc

Suffering my pops had me do.The second time I got off high dose methadone cold turkey. My father had me say something foul to a lady so I suffered as a result. Exact time I was done with withdrawal. I ran across the lady right by staten island ferry. I looked at her awkwardly. She knew what kind of suffering I went through. didnt say anything spiteful wasnt angry just looked at me a tad bit and went on getting on to the ferry . I said nothing felt guilty and got on the boat with her. suffering cause of pops evil ways...shameless cock sucker, more than likely a sociopath. :-( take care.

(HIV TEST) Hard body.... still get hard and i got that body. It's fucking pouring out. My childhood of discipline, younger years of trauma, adult physical trauma....AS I TOLD U MY NIGGA HARD BODY TYPE. they got my flamboyant arab ponchik trying to hustle in that begging game namean....im not getting cigarettes sent for a while so ill take over. im sayin tho 50/50 survival on my type of hemorrhage ..alot lesss than 50% survive if my type of incident...the kinda shit i went through before it happened..etc..I SHIT U NOT NIGGA. MORE LIKE 10% CHANCE OF SURVIVING + ALL OTHER INCIDENTS ETC..IM STILL HERE IM SAYIN THO....HARD BODY YEH I GOT THAT BODY zoobie ur the newbie....!

My son muhammad putting that work in, he show-telling my future WORK. I guess shorting duane reade a few bottles when returning bottles 5 cent a piece is more wrong than hassling people for spare change. FUCKING OBSCENCE , BEING ASHAMED OF BEING SICK A CLOSE SECOND WHEN IT COME TO NIGGA LIKE ME, SO WHATS GOOD U GONNA LOCK ME UP FOR THIS SHIT,. FUCK IT DO ME DIRTY, FUCK IT. GAY PEOPLE DISAGREE FINE. On the other hand, my wife lady chino only looked out with one bus down cig clip today but came around this time i practically begged for a hug but i guess she think she too damn wise given our age difference...otherwise even at 60 , SHORTY U STILL LOOKIN FINE TO ME. SO HOLLA ATCHA BOY NAMEAN *WHATEVER RNB BEAT* *WHATEVER LOVE LYRIC TYPE SHIT* MMMM MMM MMM AGING CHINO HOT STUFF MMMM MMM MMM BRAIN DAMAGE. IM BOUT TO BOUTY BOUTY NIGGA BYE

"Virgin". Dedicated to me reading. One moment of fiction that runs on top of in my life + my MALE VIRGINS. TSK TSK TSK. doestoevsky's the idiot, idiot kissing a woman only out of sympathy being a virgin himself. real life now, man being a virgin...testosterone + sympathy dont mix like two idiots and no...and no....well, that's ok Im THE AMERICAN IDIOT. and now i'm one and forty puns dead im typing qwerty my shit is ripe stay dirty. now serious god forbid she ever finds out my comments....BUT WITH SO MUCH CRYING AND STILL BEING SO PROUD OF HER PHYSICAL ODDITY SELF DAMN RIGHT IM GOING TO PRIDE MYSELF ON GIVING MY BLACK GODDESS A KISS OUT OF SYMPATHY. SHIT WITH HER BROWN MARK TEEFUS...OFCOURSE NOT ON THE LIPS CUZ OTHERWISE DONT CARE HOW BIG THE BROAD IS, WE BE MAKING OUT ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. EVEN IF MY BLACK BROTHA BEAT ME UP BEFORE SPITTING IN MY FACE AFTER ;-(. memory of sentiment...i aint no racist...but your saliva man...you caused HURT@!! :((((((((((( some real shit, collected like $3 bottles 5 cent a piece watter bottles today so what i cheated and took 4 full ones...my nigga i went in full hand in, into garbage to get em out. I PUT THAT WORK IN BABY BOY BYE

A chinese girl looked bout15 said "you're cute" to me. first time ive heard such remark. and given background of the person..FOREVER DEEP SENTIMENT. But im a littler girl than here, so i do wonder her getting so sentiment with me all in all. PICTURE ME WITH SOME MASK JOINT I BE A 12 YR OLD GIRL FUCK 15. bout to go take my walk sorry skipping out on rap as of late

Me begging for money.. i can imagine myself doing that as long as no punishment etc. My physique would assist. but saying im dying or playing on peoples feeling where id be benefit from their >sympathy< i couldnt do that period. a second reason i got a conscious (first being the homeless cat i adopted being homeless myself). Knowing you might come up in convo between them and better half with their little one there....thats as harsh as calling yourself gay. heh i wasnt too proud to collect bottles, now only if i could talk. with NO TALK, BE REAL IS REAL NO NEED FOR NO REAL TALK...the man my physique paints....fuck i gotta say nigga. aint shit to be said...my whole holocaustish type shit...me a hottttie with a body. almost time for walk bye

My pops all in all. hope he BOUT TIME my son hope he "put it together". and I do hope my brother of a staff nurse back in hospital psych reads..... man so big fucking deal man my background and alll make some racist remark. IT WAS FUNNY TO ME, U DONT SHARE HUMOR DONT MEAN U GOTA SPIT IN MY FACE. HE DID IT TWICE!!!!!!!!! if that kind of shit aint punishing enough for repeating same insulting word few times... tell me what is...a MANS SALIVA ON YA FACE. jeez thats worse than russian belt or even denzel washington running over me somewhere....but u know what after it all, after it happened i didnt look back on it even once cause he was black FOR THAT REASON aside our actions we were chool to where i didnt even have to think about it twice. hope he aint recall in any negative way either! I AINT GONA LIE THOUGH SON CANT REMEMBER UR NAME. take care ;-)

My man ponchik trying to score 5 dollars for food from ASKING FOR FOOD JUST ONCE >>>>ONCE<<<<. Putting that work in. My lady chino been absent few days now , missing to help me out with bus downs. All in all man , playing with guys n shit a reason ahead of reason...i NEVER I SHIT U NEVER...have NEVER sold myself despite some wild (WILD) offers. and if i resort to drugs to taking money in exchange for me....i mean even if u a sociopath...forget comparing u to me and do whatever...IN PRIDE OF WHAT IT IS TO BE huMAN you have to carry sufficient pride in me to avoid crossing some line or even walk the line IVE WALKED A 5 MILE LINE DAILY NOW..."hardbody" training for a marathon. whatever man. i keep it hebrewist with absence of lady chino for me cig butts...i collect on MY OWN. niggas at bank america...im bankin off the garbage ya verse is garbage tankin off the garbage on time med nurse aint garbage. my shit dont get old. simply so. have some more water and go for long walk . take care.

with the arab matt falcon, (obvious different features not going to do any flattery) ..mohammad (or ponchik as i call him). with that one being terrorist , respect was spoken after the coma (oops before) or cauma or co..whatever you knew between ... bet win great. but as far as matt goes.>>. if i had no choice but to go 28 days without cigarette instead of obscene incident happened...that be...damn. that's all. just DAMN.

as far as steel mike jacked on. This sister in the psych place. I SHIT U NOT...SHE CRIED LITERALLY ATLEAST 4-5 TIMES A DAY. MIND U LOOKING LIKE HER...NOT TOO MUCH FEELING PLATED IN... SHE WAS JUST PHEW. QUITE THE VAGINAL MAN. i kissed her once, being (the american idiot) let me tell you...with the YELLOW MARK ON HER TEETH TOPPING HER FACE. ..kissing her made me a national her made me a national here. (in my mind/heart kept thinking back on michael jackson) and since a gentleman here called me jackson...she was like a daughter to me. So it was a close father to daughter kiss. Oddly enough, man she was a rough lady so rough temptation to sing righteous brothers wasnt anywhere near my mind. no homo ms. jackson with all your tears fuck these niggas tryin on me, leave me in tears. As opposed to mind, empty.........you had me....full of...maybe just as THE idiot self...myself. ( i aint a sociopath ).

a sister here just looked out with a cigarette for free (god bless/thank her) and reminded me i gave her a pack of new ones. but dead serious with that one...dont matter if u black/white 95% of people wont give u shit just cause u help them. i hope everything works out for her....living in a place like this . damn, can only be so well! illl even do a momentary prayer...i been REAL LAZY WITH THOSE LATELY.

Came back from my exercise walk said ofcourse hello to neighbors. (BELIEVE IT, ONE SAID HELLO AND GAVE ME A CIGARETTE...BUT A MAN WHO LIVES HERE ASKED FIRST I RATHER SUFFER FEINDINING THAN ASK NEIGHBOR). But ofcourse, a man who lives here doesnt reply to hello. (ofcourse, question answers itself being white). Him rolling around in that thing, man the kind of problems i got as far as health etc goes. it CAN COMPARE. so that needless proud youve maybe bought yourself over the years..(i have no clue) whatever. worst i get from a black brother here is king raising voice when i call himself by first name by a mistake. weiss/falcon though, I'm wilson farstein. Cast away movie, taking far walks...and my jewish childhood. All in all , harsh. as far as whats more difficult being gay or my life as a WHOLE including real young years...if u knew u know I GOT THAT ONE SAFELY AWARDED. Have a nice day. Heavy traffic today. I must've been hallucinating.

Ray. young.

As far as brighton beach synnanogouge or church or connectitut id take synagogue ...the kind of childhood sentiment goes farther than even platonic love before WASP/keeping it hebrewist....even you matt, you being outside of religion (just as david weiss family). boy my pops..man his a-social ways over the years...from his wifes newfound selfimportance in the...russian...(church). whatever i aint read all the bibles sins and stuff. just suicide/gay. call me an asshole for use the expression "no homo" but real talk tho.....if you born desiring...i hate use word man here..oops already did...god was in on it. with suicide, NONSENSE. the kind of suffering a person gotta be going through to take their own life....thats outside of sin or wrong or any word). only a bitch like me rather take their own life than someone elses. cause im always right when im wrong i dont open my mouth. me taking anyones game accounts...is like a black man selling....getting good out of something someone alot wealthier enjoys add my child mind thinking to it...who i was in my mind at age 17...pfft. ms. falcon ....ohh "my bad"(new york expression we use when fucking up with another person). you knew all along. probably get hard without your man...but im sure church you could meet someone despite age. REAL FUCKING TALK DONT MATTER IF FALCON/ROSENTHAL...or even me being a kid...the weiss family...I GIVE IN..OK FINE...CIGARETTES AINT DRUGS...I DONT WANT CAUSE OF BOREDOM ETC. I NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED. fine fine ill even add this belated yeh..yup...YOUNG BUCK. i envy youth...whether u rich or not dont care...id kick a serious methadone habit to drop 5 years at this point. especially being around my black people mrs. falcon. SO ODD, IM COMFORTABLE HERE. (with matt too bis take on things...put that one together.) namean. ok time to call bro. have a nice day

Saw a parked lady I'd imagine as larry's wife...though cant point my fingers on imagining actual person. excuse me. Well, me and you have got a few years on him. Thus I'll speak to you, as.....church - mate. One thing i remember about you, one things speak. Is you did a church in connecticut. I hope that's helped your well being. I'm still here doing marathon walks. Take care my lady. i came back to get water decided to write this down.

i know i know shimon, i just pray they let my life end anyone before hurting another another and...i dont know your side of the stuff. my pops a big man all in all his age with all. but id imagine 'proud' sits in homos so what can i say..when it comes to either. but be real is real with That mexican looking shaindy jr..thats ...too young lookin...shaindy man she could have had it with pedophiles a LONG time if she got into it......but coming from real money and proud dont mix like 2 rich jews and no pussy. i'm a bum, so just as so far looking. oh yeh, matt falcon. if your fathers "Philanthropy for family" maybe came to this already...if u want to fuck me, that sound good. you lost virginity thanks me and how much u helped me in UO "crime"..all in all be some funny shit regardless of whether ur newfound pals llaughing or not.......if ur pops reallly got sick on the other hand. shit well......Damn. how u had it in life as opposed to my life...you def outa be the one doing the fucking. but i don't feel any spite, i do mean zero..towards...'man like u'. To further enjoying morning im not getting cigarettes bought no more till marathon.

Once when I was using.. "drugs". My own mother said to me "I wouldn't even burry you." I understand disappointment, she raised me like a man. (no blame on either one of us, imho.) But now, people...at 5'9 115. Apparently, man aint enough. nah fuck enough or aint enough. it's brain damage, having been in a coma twice. I could have aced law school. But with the kind of past I had as a kid/real young..I dont know though..'in that sense'. Very maybe though, if nothing fucked up happened to me. A judge be letting a man go sympathizing with man like me knowing im in relationship with female...put that one behind your contacts. What kind of female tolerate relationship with me without cheating. Or maybe I see it 'too hardcore'. God knows. ONLY GOD KNOWS FOR CERTAIN. NIGGA GOD FORBID A FINAL CURTAIN...as of yet. that's a safe bet. read "The Bet" by Anton Chekhov. It define word romance for you. Away from relationships/relating, in the other sense. Morning time, Senor Biden. Hope you ain't a sociopath.

So you/they're going to make me suffer. with your cameras watching me put in pw for computer, making it not work until someone else puts it in etc. As far as this modeling thing, wouldnt be surprised people do some odd photos etc of me then making me pass out and forget. This is what I can "the winner syndrome". (implanted that idea too). good job. i'm proud. ON THE OTHER HAND, I COULD HAVE CIGS MAILED TO ME TOMORROW. BUT ILL KEEP AWAY FROM SMOKING FOR A WHILE LONGER...IN THE NAME OF THE ORIENTAL MAN WHO GAVE ME ONE CIG TODAY AFTER I WAS DONE WITH MY EXERCISE WALK. Oh yeh, I was reading but terminal illness n shit today. what i got is A JOKE. aortic stenosis mind you my weight class unless..."they" kill me i got a while. ofcourse car that said "flushing" on it on back of car...gee golly all in all who knows who had it there. prolly my faggot ass father, with his new found of power enforcing any fear on me. fucking garden snake, youll die a rotten piece of shit too. as you've been your whole life. Suffering more or less identifies romanticism. but LET ME TELL YOU , to the extent that I've done it...can only being so romantic when it coincides with the words "Born alone die alone".

brother 50 can i get a bogie? I couldn't be bum enough to be scum all the more bum even if only with some the bum living endlessly with mom fucking pussy though i eat plum 115 pound bum 5'9 1/2 tall my shirt filthy with crumb my physique so manly know to love I was dumb of lust i now hum hum horny after few drinks shorty me and you get type porny NUFF. man i shit you fucking not nigga..the kind TRUE sentiment my chino brothers/sisters hold a place in my heart...man that little asian kid today too.....i stretched out my arm today and tried for a knuckle bump...5 years old or not >THE< man gave me one. then he got on his bike and flew off...about 15 minutes PICTURE THIS ONE i met an asian dude bout 40 himsellf...puffin a " bogie" i hassled him for one...n he looked out. now IM BACK HOME BABY....IMA CHILL DOWNSTAIRS AND HAVE FOR CHINO LEADER OF THIS SPOT ..MAYBE THE LEAD ROLE LOOK OUT HEART VALVE GET HEALTHY TOO IN A SALTLESS COOK OUT LIFETIME WORTH READING KNOW THE BOOK OUT HAVE SHAKEY SHIVERY LEAVE MY SON SHOOK OUT THAT GUN PLAY NIGGA LOOK OUT. once again "NUFF said."

a white boy group "filter' - hey man nice shot. man me at 27. when you ill enough to sick to equate psychosis you suffering past osmosis. let me tell you man, 2 year high dose methadone habit top of serious dope habit....you get into cold turkey, boy oh boy. just oh. oh yeh, no methadone OR dope lately. r.i.p bill harris. thats why i say hey man nice drink oh sentiment when of you I think i aint no newbie and to nephew zoobie...i saw a that loving feeling video where one the fellas resembled you heavily ON OTHER HAND MARCY MARC i see a video of "my soul and inspiration" of a nigga resembling you mind you get my name out the mouth....i will blush then cry. all these wrecked emotion stuff. sentiment wouldn't go that far, u know sentiment is deep within the righteous brothers im right us me and brother. mentioned before, me adopting that homeless kitten from crown heights shelter backyard, well shit...first friend i met at that three quarter house temporary home...keeping away from these CRACKED OUT gangsters. that gets me feeling sick too , crackhead nigga try to run some gangsta act.

kayla perry youthful star stuck forever in my heart. (almost cried while typing that remark). forgive the tears, kid NEVER GIVE INTO FEARS. she in my soul her youthful self a hearts inspiration god bless american beauty baby in my heart you ruling the nation hope in your heartful mind ive committed no violation im a bit taller but with the friendly aura got a friends elevation. kayla the righteous brothers - soul and hearts inspiration try to tell me u aint hooked on this song FIRST TIME YOU HEAR THAT BROTHERLY MASTERPIECE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you that type of sentiment in my heart kid, that never and i do say never die the sentiment. just a kid to me forever, die in my heart fact i say never. niggas with their whitey device makin my balls itch tho my balls tiny i ainr no bitch pull back nigga you rookie batter im nailin the pitch leave sailing ya stitch and dont bother flushing my feces this for acting GOD pacino forever a legend even with misses the man spitting bars aint no teefus or no scars. cali boy "neff" free style nasty god freeing my soul aint nasty with my role on mic im nasty even with mami bull dyke i holla nasty the romantics life one figure me godly to one gone to waste me try and lyrically paste me forget trying for god hope god face me eye to eye a man thing DEATH DEFY THE MAN THING. WHATS REALLY GOOD. NUFF I SPOKE.

love my bro n such, BUT MY MOMMY >lucy< AND BLACK HOMIES RIGHT HERE BE MY SOUL AND MY HEARTS INSPIRATION IF I LIVE TO SEE PAST THIS SHELTER...MY MOMMA JOB SHEEPSHEAD BAY NURSING HOME NAMEAN U KNOW O G GELLER GEE JUST BE LEAVE THE NURSES HORNY SEE. man addictive song, my soul and my hearts inspiration

Around my black brothers and sisters, Id heavily ask marc iosif some influence maybe my school relative jason and maybe even OL BILLY GATES. he keep it too sexy for the heaven gates. But if I die of a heart attack, I'd much prefer to die around my bro/sis's her. aside closest family I aint got noone in life so IF IM STILL AT THIS SHELTER AND IT HAPPEN. take it from a man WHO KNOWS and done his share of suffering (TRUEST FUCKING STORY).........pain is comforted by presence of people ;-) im teefus less smile comforted all the mean while my niggas hope i stay in the hearts a heart in the file virtually so im comfy without any style under biden I've got the sanction run I true britannian faction (fact Im on nigga (3 words acronym) . WORD IS BOND THE FALCON FAMILY FOREVER LEGEND AND PALS IN MY HEART now as far as keepin it real with the "born alone die alone" i know aint nobody in my future relationship wise...but being around a bunch a folks ..DONT CHANGE FACT IF BEING ALONE. blunt motherfucking fact...them rookie philosophers. for this kid lady here..hair below the waist my precious after 12 shift...LOOK UP THE WORD PLATONIC. god bless my pretty princess

Wade..puerto rican lookin goatee guy always says hello back to me. And greg goatee too black guy helped me out with cigs. adding to koya her smile is my inspiration (koya she got the smile) ...sheika lady with short hair glasses and she/he i just be aside for marathons sake he be me IM RUNNING BOGIED OUT THATS AS REAL AS BLACK *phew* ;-)' An angels imagination had my 6 ruler piece in sentiment my black folks at this shelter are my soul and heart inspiration miracle doctors hope fix aortic stenosis after all we the american nation. Sickly P game name my brother matt gave me Dick you see still get hard so save me despite late puberty was only so sick its true you see got stewie head but got dick justice as to I it must be so I how 5-0 gunna nail I i aint too pale I even tho type pale I my thinning face make the sale I my niggas always holla hail I im sayin judge alan j myers will you cover bail I your honor im feelin your drink stale I I been to this day at 41 just male I line a rail I know im tapping tail I son doin but nothing but flapping never fail I god bless weiss gail I the weiss family FOREVER IN MY HEART widen it to whale I you've got yeh mail I america online will I brooklyn ny chat hold the nail I imagine brother like me dying up in jail I my heart never die even to heaven one day will sail I namean 11PM real talk dr. zuckerberg, you prolly got A PHD playa haters degree in comp sci. so u an intellectual but u prolly keep it real too like me stay intellfactual. rely solely on fact ya realist stay blacked real talk namean

Sheika. woman with pretty smile and them heart earrings. lady my heart and the hole aint yet expiration. ok sheika i shall try to remember this name out of staff folk. marathon i be black enough to join never slack on taking up coin my man jordan on the clock he flatter richmond mitch make rookie look rich leave ya stich eat ya up candy twizzler aint nothin but sugar diabetic man the clock goin fizzlers i be naughty all time nizzlers realest in game keepin it rizzlers i get so busy stayin bizzlers holla atcha boy hizzlers lol lizzers brb easelers im tryin to stay easy so u know i be easelers ;-) SHEIKA REMEMBER.

pops know who be THE one reppin hebrew nation age or not who the sun the diabetic no more brews nation try my rap station anorexic lookin pun height got the elevation. whatever jason rosenthal shaindy chatted with me endless hours 7 DAYS A WEEK. SHE WAS MY SOUL AND HEART INSPIRATION now someone try to paint ME AND ANTISEMITE. ON DISAGREEING WITH THAT ONE..FUCK THAT KILL ME . DO YOU

never as far me a self righteous boy always right as far as me right ya boy righteous my kitten chow pup animals more than a righteous toy away from view of my righteous father on that note need i talk of my righteous brother i dare speak of me and right us mother. bring back that loving feeling. mother my soul and my heart inspiration disciplined my ruski childhood today ya american idiot in this loving the nation. perry whoever my lion heart with kayla perry forever i know with death bout the day never say never but kayla you like my kid which one of us be lifesaver. miracle docs im praying me and mom dukes they keep alive forever. more or less transgender more im less i wondering how i get into this mess. know my pops too proud of his son to have me alive rockin some wig type outfit marathon joggin be doing mittens season call for childhood sentiment ill take a blondie other than sentiment im feeling black forever need i further speak on righteous i be forever just feelin. ok ok im sweating DARN

on the other hand..friend of my youth young chick named shaindy..she had no breasts became bulimic. man unless you put the head light on that shit it aint no big deal...when aint put awkward to the matter nigga you know who the A list batter my lifes title is awkward who lived it better my pops kept it shady wirh money what i resorted to being a go getter. jay z or fabolous or whoever...hebrewist on the mic. NUFF SAID. REALLY THE REALIST EXPRESSING IT REALY ONE L SMOKIN IT KNOW U FEELY GOD DEALT ME THE AWKWARD HAND WORST OPTION MY SON HOW HE DEALY COME i TO HEAVEN EYEIN HIS GRILL I STAY GRILLY. whats good now huh huh on the other hand shaindy pops shimon ecksteing I KID U NOT I TOLD HER I LOVED HER AND I DID THE AMOUNT OF TIME WE SPENT TYPING TO EACH OTHER. MY SHORT STORIES IT SEEM LIKE SHE WAS INTO...JESUS SHE COULD HAVE JUST SAID SHE LOVES ME TOO..THEN ID THINK AWAY AND THINK PAST HYPERGRAPHIC/HYPERLEXIC...N THINK LOVE NOT SOME AUTISTIC HABIT...lol my bad shimon. hope everythin alright for u...im surprised i dont remember if shaindy had siblings if she does. only god can deliver true blessing to them. ill further the word. "namean". but on the real mr. eckstein..i guess all in all . "was born alone im going to die alone". if you dont see that as punishment...YOU TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK PUNISHMENT IS. oh yeh, a 5th or 10th or somethin . "i write because i do nothing or i do nothing because i write."

downing a starbucks down syndrome home town star clocks. I STAY DOWN IN AND OUT BE I DOWN SIN WHY SHOUT FROWN I BEEN GROWN KNOW WHAT IM ABOUT. THE YEAR 98 HATE IN ME AINT INGEST EVEN AFTER LATE 15 BE NUMBER DOOM OR MAYBE IN PART FATE. holocaust im holy to most. man deep memory deep sentiment so on MORE FORTH that little black girl who ran up to me twice smiling with her little teeth. i felt so fucking odd touching her being a drug user FUCK OUTA HERE HOW U GONA PLAY THAT KNOWING U USE DRUGS TOUCHING A LADYS DAUGHTER WHO U DONT KNOW PERSONALLY i love the kid now...but unless momma say to me give her a hug. with me, THATS A NEVER. PERIOD.

Whats beef, beef when u got a childhood allergy to cats they make you weep,;-(. second one -> biden trump me only alone they feely niggas even then i keep it realer than realy like the glove payton im makin the stealy you talkin bars im so ill i be shittin em skilly rest in peace uncle bill harris ill just call you ol' billy verses delt paragram long know the dealy tossing the cover on makin the sealy ingesting narcotics poppin the pilly why oh why ask myself often why the willy call my lady a lilly heal me god almighty whenever we meet be it at heavenly hilly . port 6667 - mirc port 80 web browser web/pages. #'s add to 33. only two ports i ever used. irc and web browser. white boy larry bird jersey 33 AND MY ALL AROUND GREAT SCOTTIE PIPPEN MY MAN STAY BLACK NAmean...scottie pippen...simply pavel. scottie pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase watch hable con ella movie. one of its characters is a fucking LADY >>>BULL<<<< fighter who ends up in a coma after getting nailed by a bull. pedro almodovar director, god bless you SENOR@@@@@@!!!!!!!!!! pippen/hardway, tim and scottie third be me i got that body hardaway to pippen away trouble im skipping

win bet I let sun end his life without gun story "The Bet" you bet on literary genius chekhov i get on that kind of meet be nice if we met on from anton chekhov to eric gardner rest in peace niggas i still got debt on lady laura talkin bout havin a hat on its that DIP know I SET ON. once again its a very SHORT STORY....so if somehow anyone read this aside from money folks please DO READ SHORT STORY (VERY SHORT) THE BET BY ANTON CHEKHOV. Beauty. On the other hand im a soloist band 5-0 try to pat down pauly they let i frown bally balling tryin to A bogie they got in the gap line im malling born a stewie who be skulling my game Raw in pushing em by the pound talkin blow in x'd out men the man claw in vicious professor know where my flaw in my huge realativity as opposing testicles aight i grow in my bars flawless aint got no flow in. warren know im in war sack sapp coming sappian niggas know whats at store. 3:39, 33 followed by the glock 9. ALL LOOKING FINE TODAY. we all come to die in date with some its hate for hate with me its just too late even if this be near my fate aight let these niggas let me drop off my flow pop bullet with no flaw how lion king heart gonna stop when its moving softly slow..

me cop out my luck might be me if cuffing me nigga must be out your fucking tree 2:02 adding to heavenly 4 an O in between sanity roar speaking of 0's from bush to gore an O type fat letter i make that score two 1's sides of O on top and bottom flat line and heavenly line KNOW WHO GOT EM. namean what it do with all bitch post-mortem talk im tryin to run the marathon all the smokin ill run fuck walk. this one broad talkin some miracle doctor type shit....my Mr. MD..im tryin to cop a marathon. true story. bye. on this success shit....boy does it bring back a not so...success...ALL MY SUCCESS GOT ME INTO THIS MESS.

Now if that young lady was really your daughter MY FRIEND warren. Sapp g's i stack map g on map crack nah high is my cap lack NAH MARATHON SOON i done did my lap anyhow...banks rack of tyra know i do rap. tyra banks and warren sapp that be quite a couple of my man mr. cruise too white for u lady ..whatever show u doin now. let me tell you lady, aint no shallow talk here...but the kind of sentiment that resides in my mind...close my eyes and imagine our youth wouldnt matter if you 90 tyra. and other 90, chinese lady collecting bottles...she wasnt bout lettin me cop a feel on her aged rack. glock 9 paged deck. all in nigga i dont do card games, i used to be familiar with checkers thats bout it. u know im about it. today i feel ok all in all co lookin supportive nigga to what will i resort if momma mighta been hungry through pregnancy maybe abort it my man obama stay black know america aint gonna deport if browser on 80 the port if back in the day my man zoobie im sorry i know ive gotten old do nothin but look back on sentiment...what kind of ego stay speaking of "back in the day". REAL talk tho my man, im tryin to get that welfare pay returned imma go enjoy lunch bye. be real is real tyras rack or cruises smile fantasy top of cop a feel mop aside gun that staying steel

cock measured between index and thumb page space there in i get stuck pleasured it seem my axe rage stab no care in is it really fair in to say some AI chick talkin $500 which one of us stare in her guido bfs tryin to fuck me on my death bed nigga be real wholl care in bout sizey zoobiee hair in my life up to today survivor's nightmare in over course of 26 years havent gottten bigger or below 115 my physique rare in so maybe if ya homo bf want to suck on there in ill stay soft with my son lips on it pass on idea of ass tear in man u gotta be SHITTING ME 2024 WE THE YEAR IN. enough enough man i had lady wearing a shirt i shit u not sayin somethin like "you are enough." then again me makin remark like enough already im all in you ready...maybe within 5 mins of finishing marathon ill just yell out "I'm all in done did it marathon finished these rookie runners ive outwitted." my man mr. rabbi picture me fuckin with a guido im sayin thats really pushin it REAL TALK im sayin tho harvard computer science once again REAL TALK my lips might be there just in fantasy of an MIRC GOD...KNOW U DO U GOD BODY. okie okie i only walked bout 2 1/2 miles today imma go get decisive

rather pain of a heart attack than osmosis while drowning. i had bad childhood asthma i can imagine suffocation. and this a given, suffocation likely less painful. but when youve had your own torture, youll take the worse option then. YOUR OWN PIECE IS PAST 2AM'S BLACK NIECE. oh yeh..in such case of me laying around for further time...or something there of....ive lost that loving feeling anyhow...laying down for a prolonged nap...night time ...naughty time naively try to play that word my life period...im sayin nigga try to have sociallicate of the moment having a prolonged love... i mean really valentina WHATEVER FINE TOSS NARCISSISM ONTO I....ill even have a movie with rhat little black girl as our daughter me and nasty....picture one more night enrique iglesias...with our flawless child...good lord with her glory of a passive smile. so innocently lady..as to the kid. WELL THATS OK IM GOING ON ANOTHER 5 MILE WALK IN STRAININ TRAININ ... IM SAYIN U RIGHT DOIN OR LEFT LANIN OR LEFT DOIN WORLD JUSTICE OR RIGHT LANE IN...OR SOMETHING...it's just Sickly P sinfully huh...that darn ol' boy word. want to comment on the aggressively passive one I try to put in that work in....i'm here in...somehow hope i'm okay for same for I right ol' boy.

The righteous brothers. me self-righteous never. it aint self it's certainty. Defending the self without too much of others being right. ok ok. arabian...who was that cartoon character was like a prince related to sand. not fred flinstone or barley rubble. as far as me, i was afforded nail clippers so aint wolverine, and cyclops my age witth all likely serious damage, eyes still sharp not far from flawless, storm...boy odd days i seen rain recent, some other dyke girl with jacket..(not sure of last one, JUST AS I RECALL). yeh come to think of it, you're right. text will do, not to trouble gentleman. nigeria, soviet union...i imagine khaled husseini childhood...AFGHAN my nigga might be discipline there as well. as far as israel jewish etc...i guess all social justice there in....that's one where you dont need discipline. i do wonder, marc..did YOU idolize your father? huhhhh despite IT ALL..ive never defined time. man let me know, is 1:17 morning or still night. i dont know to be honest that too girly shit been opposer of man...never got me too into. leme tell you, moms image plays into interest so much the man ive painted in my physique of pavel. (3's p, adding the 1st). its so much easier on me spoken of even if rarely than spoken too..LET ME TELL YOU ....man ive painted...i mean shit all in all whod fuck that kind of shit funny aside maybe a childhood friend..whos every reply attending to you, is one only to satisfy...you. be real is real. I mean really truth...you have to hold me dear as to childhood to ever comfort my..me...or something I...oh right moment stands in comfort. needless be as to first.

I mean shit with size of longly formed ego (variables intrpretation) new word come to brain. shtuff that variates. just hormonal reaction of THE heart of a line. marcy marc dont tell me you figure Seinfeld is a fine gentleman that you would chose over I). if my boy jerry that tight with thse seinfeld girl,,, hormonal output above two sentences. (requiring more to win me). im sayin no joke bro , dead ass my nigga, you look at broad like 60 ONLY MID LIFE...and you thinkin some off the wall type shit. so all that you fellas manipulates ,me into stuff..not hEalthy for one dream object in your redefining narcissist yup..YOUNGSTER (young boy dont cut it i aint ya boy im ya nigga....all that frontin fronting fearin death type shit. if im the one fearing, i should be comforted. your presence, my black....maFEles.

https://youtu.be/WVijsLP0G5M that video of that lovin feelin. one of em resembles. i dont feel too 'righteously tempted' to write any names here. but really as far as RIGHTEOUS BROTHER...man 100% impossible. that first grade photo from soviet union...me one side of teacher and other straight A girl on other. that photo is heart. if even the righteous brothers cant get that out from "you lost it" state...philosophical politiCAL whatever. that photo of the autist is HEART...turn antarctica into the jungle! nigeria, who need more ;-**(kid runnin by)) now on that note some guy said "whats wrong with you" i guess that line could be interpreted a few ways, from question to statement first namean.

Only in one picture I'd go over my mothers word and take death over WHATEVER SHE WANTS WHATEVER I WANT ETC. Over leaving image of a scoundrel as to my image and its past. 8th grade man...doin better than 90%. away from class clown . shamella i think her name was. anyhow, marcy how am I to be left a scoundrel!! I'm at worst unsavory. -5 karma was outcast. I'm out the closet whos in the cast? im saying tho prolly u busy boy and stuff..but you and that kid today that ran up to me TWICE. yeh and i do say ODDLY and yeh i do repeat ODDLY NUFF... you two seem alright. I'm just the unsavory pasha, legendary stoic. stoically realistED on that note, what's really good matt? out in cali, hope you enjoying your stoned mid-life crisis. you a cutie with a bootie...nah chill my man...with nigga like u...NO HOMO namean. okie magine gods punishment to a stoically realistED man. Stoically definition of, part of it says uncomplaining acceptance of destiny. Me complain, nigga out his fuckin tree must be insane. I just take it as it comes.

marc. your photo here just right. hair real short as it suites you, none of that extra hairy forbes stuff. your teeth barely indicate a smile. just enough teeth for me to envy but that's about all i can reference other than those 10-11 tiny marks on your face. i think you'd be better in a tie rather than....god knows what you call it. well i slept in the evening today young mister marc i slept in the evenin today pray on twister in the dark. man i had an odd dream with father/brother in it. all i remember of it, is THAT ONE WAS ADD. but this is link to photos, the forbes one ->> marcy marc where party at the forbes photo when you google current photos of marc zuckerberg. well maybe ill stay awake tonight with furiousATIN stroke since i slept in evenin. i talk to myself, skippin out on forbes 500 or 5 star followed by 2 0's in reference to comas. i forget my poor brain is it the forbes 500 or some other big man 500 title. oh my poor mind. take care.

A fish you cant fuck is a wish you cant duck if me you mock just remember aint got no blanket by nature I tuck...tucked in...but now on the clock. 24 seconds...24 bryant...how is 24 most relevant to helicopter. i aint goin to hell and i copped her.

Kentucky i"m ken tuck it louisiana i done luck it. south carolina prisoners are black 29%. picture a man with a famous racist song spending half his life as post after line man with a joint thats 29% hood. that even with my heart, is some "hardcore" shit. Was speaking of David allen coe...my man larry falcon..falcons reside in atlanta...GEORGIA. looks like be blood in origin.. country name. but u already know, what my life's painted ...my nigga mr. rabbi...between us who the one keeping it hebrewist. my man zoobie show em what time it is. it's my mothers decision but after that little black girl running up to me couple times...if my mother don't think of it differently then i'd leave it up to girls mother if i just let what happens naturally happen. but with i live to see such a National Natures' Day. naughty niggas do. acroneem all i think of before 1st grade...as a prior to school kid... i just remember asthma/playing with cat grandmas kid sitting on the chair in kitchen. and grandpa ALWAYS HIS BORDERING RETARDATION mystical ways of a working mans life. quite a couple they were..those 2. memories, sentiment resides in. On the other hand me moving to pops house after starting school...remember mom coming home real late at night when pops already asleep and laying down next to me falling asleep right there. now i can only 'picture' if my mom a sociopath...how could i be sure...i think even the dirtiest man or woman cry over the death of their mother. phew...just mother all in all, MY MOTHER..hope she still alright.

Awkward and tension aint no longer synonymous when it comes to addressing a child. Skip out the tension part. Awkward enough to leave hello comments 2. The glory of the number of my life. That kid was no older than 6...so even if trained im sure wasn't trained to run up to when it comes to specifically me. Anyhow, tone of voice went past 2. No straight/gay implications. When addressing a child the word and anything relating to>sex<...dont exist. moral values/ethical standards whatever man...especially with the lady black a title such as "crackhead" all mean while....NOOOOOOOOOOOO. ok. astonished I...synonymous sound like stunned. defined I bout 2 minutes with the kid. asronished by the kid ill skip another bid.

Coming to window this way room longer what is sin between that tale and i where am i wronger. I mean seriously..you come to some money once in your life as a result of a program you read/wrote on , program found due to fucked up experience. i mean fuck that nigga call himself pops...but am I a new swing on legal. it's true i aint paralyzed thus who need legal. i mean piano came even before ultima online, i had macros in that game running across down/forward the whole keyboard. I wasnt no right side #'s macros type for your chino faulks. whoever tomoyaki is in your culture but ofcourse, my MAYYYYYYYY-EN falcon dt. greatest amount of memories as to relating to one thing...without a doubt. ANY DOUBT. Ultima Online. pops/falcon whoever. UO...new game as to remainder Ultimate Offline.

I could have had a middle class career but what society outside the yeshiva did me ..lets be serious. the kind of tension it prolonged in there after..awkward and tension synonyms here. I mean ...my disciplinary icon mother could have been a nurse like her. or whats uglier. PICTURE ME AT A DESKJOB. That's uglier than death itself can draw. Anyhow man, a future rabbi I now favor. That jewish boy I met studying to be a rabbi in psych while i was there. that tone of voice.....of his. gee golly things lookin just dolly alternative which one of us doll fallternative which one of us fall. i mean that whole ssi/crackhead shit...nigga i rather be the ugliest of ethics so keep calling me crackhead before i insult myself with a work man's career what people have built up out of me. on the other hand, even if u aint nice at memorizing text like me...if black folk here want an easy job with decent pay..nursing period. no social hassle of any sort...the kind...fuck i forgot meaning of etiquette.

I guess when it comes to insulting 'words'....it's what the person who hears insult its what their mind ties into the word that makes decision final. i mean shit, i dont look down at noone. but be real is real...THE WORD CRACKHEAD....that's rage created in I. so foul it's implications. so this black beauty last, what do you know...man..your age + crack remark. tho you a lady, had me feeling insulted. that crack game run deep. I hope everything alright for jessica. Ah well.

ok. when it coming to giving head..which option would leave you straighter. never went down on a woman, regardless of how i aroused i was. to eat a blood hole....that's just belitting beyond or whatever. ok done there. as far as an arabic woman i said hello to walking back home, i mean really...is there such thing as ethnicity or whatever fucking word it is for background...for a lady. a lady, fuck hole. ain't no mask as to pussy. so mr. rabbi...I AINT SEEN ONE JEW YET PRIDING HIMSELF ON GAY. It could be afforded too. ok maybe too much philosophy. then this so called puerto rican jewish boy want to go on shouting about god knows what. he went on for a minute. tho which one of us in it.

fabolous puffy...that remark pushed aside. but ofcourse, the kind of money in the later. billionaire talk with that, that's whatever you pushing. i sit on a soft chair no noise now so enough with the cushion. man are yall fuckin shittin me aight aight my heart keep moving eternally or moving along eternity. moving along not moving with/with in. with, i couldnt imagine further wording accurately as to that stated. gee golly rebate on further type oh yeh away from my heart, eatin at my mind like this shit that adds to logical closer by stroke ...just adds to uneducated medical opinion. so shorty, nuff said. say more? who i live pass on crack it's true i live to / survive another stroke ..my man dumb fact..i'll have church regular type women have their 10 year olds kissing me. so your crackhead, talk ....just figure into that one with some creativity when addressing kids. you address while using my name....well they'll get older they'll see into it. BUT AS FAR AS THEM GETTING OLDER, ALL I GOT IS NOW MY NIGGA. SO LAY BACK, CAUSE IT DONT LOOK LIKE IM LAYING TONIGHT

I don't even have to know meaning of a word to figure out where to place it. where it sounds genuine. that last sentence im willing could make sense. away from thought of by myself. they ask you how you doing tell them best if with them. oh yeh dope takes edge off me. crack only adds edge to disaster. crack, just aint me. on the other hand, what my disaster lookin to be, itll do me without edge.

Then also in the hospital some mother of a cop character...TWICE I SHIT U NOT..she got naked 100% and walked down the hallway. So my autist-mimic persona...I got naked as well and walked into a small room where some gay guy was running groups. Well all in all, nobody too offended. I guess I left safe. That's all. I sideline aortic stenosis top of water I rhyme on prognosis lookin hot ya daughter

Darker beauty with a smile. An indy film created by Parcissus. This young black muffin that works here overnight as of late. But ok ok. I think it's been made pretty clear, IAM A MAN OF MORAL VALUES AND ETHICAL STANDARDS. That pedophilia shit , nah aint me. But nevertheless, maybe I'll be up couple of hours extra and if she work, i'll be in her company. Gods blessing it just be. fuck just do it, it gods blessing nigga just be. holding a job with that smile, I think movie title of Projects Beauty be a little inaccurate. Shortly after this babble writing it be filmed lines done over so well you creamed. Or maybe a portion of my life in film "Americanized stud muffin". I ain't much on pro-white ain't into house music so you know...this whole white house ordeal. it's marathon pray god deal. Please do call me just paul. Pavel, e's too soft for second language pronounced post-puberty. E is soft, between v/l. veined lust. AS FAR AS BIG..I rephrased a line. Whats beef, beef is when you just dont weep.

"does a narcissist ever know they are a narcissist?" . Emails do nothing but harass. My over the course of SO MANY long years. I've had one individual compliment my appearance. This asian young thing said to me "you're cute". Well next day, she was gone. But shortly after, this other asian's 'chicken leg'> (one leg was showing up to her knee). Boy that fulfilled my fantasy. Oddly I didn't not imagine her face or her body which I never saw. But, the leg done did it. Asian beauty. "Whos to say you didn't tell me i was going to get kicked out of this shelter if I didn't give you a blowjob?" (american beauty film line). The beautiful young, this black one that works nightshift here. Boy I wish i Never swore by never having sex again after having 2. OHWELL, I RLY OUTDID MYSELF. Ill get past my skirmish when you put the work in trish. skirmish sounds like a word that would imply garbage. let me go check, dont remember

reminder; no exercise on 8/13 today (its after 12, so today). another sleepless one

be you zuckerberg or impagliazzo, piastro or rosenthal. gates or bloomberg. etc. I'd like to be in a place where i could leave blame remaining on one or the other. but shit, 26 years smoking, 19 juvenile diabetes and aortic stenosis more than 10. How long will your GOD BODY. got body? bodying who? me ... ill enjoy my cigarettes as often as exercise routine allows and willing to bet ill finish top 65% of marathon folk. can't blame none other than retardation tossing egocisions out of place. this new "lady" blondie in here, she killing my photo as a blonde for marathon. how could i ever really get more than what the mirror may offer. ok 10:31...self been forced into my thoughts n stuff. thanks brazer zoobie.

"i cant outlive my legend." i mean seriously on smoking, the way i've kept up the habit over 20 years with ailment considered..quitting smoking stress likelier to cause cancer than 4 extra cigarettes prevent my marathon jog. or maybe, a generic excuse of a smoker. good god, with me answeeered instant.

they want to implant new remarks from me...ok after i type..i be the man just as jordan be THAT nigga. what they going to do...kill me with an overdose. AH WELL..i guess the kind of money.."desperation for a mans ruin". me being such a deflawed antique//when or something jewish or gay or whatever im having grin smile talkin to me afk

someshit bout being on the mic when it comes to....rolling dice lawing guys leme have sex with yo momma ill even ask nice. forgot who the "im nasty on the mic dice playa of the game" line was according it. I think will keep ma mind right namean...if i drink alot of water and take 5 miles everyday once day...smoking shouldn't be hard on me for a while...so irony in word chosen..IM STRAIGHT@@!! naaaaaammm'

Cardiovascular function never punk at the chin. My big head, face constantly thinning. Got me sickly look, nah, u know Sickly P stay healthy. These formalities want to intertwine nah only to me jigga second in rhyme. but real talk, with 110lbs thin on the face. i dont care how geniusly i present it..my grill aint meant for rap. Just got back from evening time long walk. i keep it functioned as well as jordan dunkshinned. dinner.

The heart yearns the tire burns as the truck turns of love pasha learns. ok just remembered theres a verse for u , just remembered the word yearns. I dont need dictionary, i literally can hear definition sometimes. years of 90% worthless reading. hyperlexic. heh ;-* For marathon's sake i do ask for life was i asking my father the politician or for itself the knife. niggas try to impose philosophy on me..my bro got a BA from cuny. I lived philosophy one past BA. Best anonymous...anonymity is the key principle for my seemingly saint neighbors. namean, these hmm...as far i can recall white neighbors..but aight fair enough. I ask for peace regardless.

Oh yeh. JFK...joe frail kind. (or kill with last letter, gee golly god almighty geller lighty who need a fighty i'm always righty keep it hood PJs is mighty at my heighty I BEEN BY EM EVEN THO LOOKIN WHITEY) namean...all this joe shit. my fathers name in english. they tossin some joe wise guy shit. man fuck wise, only jobs i ever seen my father do is side of the house basement fix ups for r.i.p neighbor bill harris.MY MAN BILLY I SHIT U NOT....i rarely even got high but for atleast 2 years on end....IAM DEAD 100% ACCURATE SERIOUS...mornin time he'd be comin out his house hung the fuck over EVERY DAMN DAY...Id step out my basement that same day id be like "hello bill" he'd reply "HEY BUDDY HOW ARE YOU". Now iam 100% sure he referred to me as buddy every day when we'd run across each other feeling like self-induced shit...so now likely his wife peggy still alive..i'm sayin hi non-biological grandma peggy u have alot of sentimental value for me too dear. however they do me, you were there for years being aware of my OBSCENETIES and you never assaulted/insulted me, true class. I hope all is well with you. Forgot your sons name, bastard had my gfs car taken away from by the house one night while she was over. BUT ANYHOW, REAL TALK. I do wish you the best grandma peggy! Man of sentiment. Me. MOS. man on simple. simply spoken of, ya acronym of the day. Ok Take care FAWKZ

Who going to marry us? When I was hospitalised in a psych place I met this young lady...boy let me tell you...95% sure had a vagina 100% on breasts...but otherwise to refer to as lady. be pushing it. Anyhow, my doestoevskian hero "Saintly prince myshkin" was a virgin who only kissed a female once and it was solely out of sympathy ...ok well I kissed this black chick SOLELY out of sympathy....and me not being a virgin well for the idiotesque modernized folk tale it was made up for by her being black. Black with her appearance having sickly P kiss her out of sympathy in a spot like that . ego driven nonsense you may say MR BLACK HUHQ! I say thats nonsense. now let me try to remember what i planned to do next!!

Load the missile boat the vessel goat the castle grow it the hassle. anyhow, as far as smoking goes to Sickly P. They arent a cancerous habit...they are a nutritious part of my diet! I take it savvily smoothly avoiding abuse see. I take 5 mile walks daily along with my nutrition for a reason! NRA...naively retarded aspire or niggas rotate aquianted ..or numbed random asshole. :-( Sam I am, good movie. odd coincedence the girls name was lucy, my mothers name is lucy and she adopted a son like me. And look where I sit today, modern day autist anti-hero. Geezer alfredo, Im going to go have a cigarette now in the name of an indy film ill release "Youth eterniates in smoke, eternally so."

Aint been in the box but I done my time sick in the cell. I ain't anemic but running my clock sickly a cell. - Sickly P verse is illest! Once again The reputable larry..falcon. Atlanta falcons. Atl, Georgia. I'm georgian biologically it looks like. But IAM THE ONE...whos forever a son of the illustrious larry falcon. Nothing but respect for the man@ Very so often our repect goes out to those whove done a "creative outlook" on suffering...such as time locked up in a poor country...boy LEMME TELL YOU..THE KIND OF SUFFERING IVE EXPERIENCED MAKE AFGHAN PRION LOOK SOFT. Ok on that "hardbody note" I'm done with writing for the day. Good night larry, alfredo my dearest zoobie zuckerstein...AND OFCOURSE shouldve been my people here first hood niggaz 186st shelter free water take care of thirst@!!!!!!!! :) oh my bad..picture me at marathon finish line rockin blonde wig. thats a hood reason for defamed Your realist my heart you feeling this verses IM skilling this lifes shit cards god was dealing this my black brothers MY NIGGAZ they appealing this. NOW said like whats really good papi? ;-) BBS@@!

My pakistani flamBOYerrrrrr muhammad show arab love...but as far as aRab...higher above on social scale/principle is A-Rabbi. you know who keep it the hebrewest. Ya shlemazel ;(. Shlemazel is jewish talk for "man with consistently bad luck"...only thing that been consistent with my life to this day :*( HEH - HEH. Yo dead serious with my lungs fucked up and smoking habit..I GOT THAT ENDURANCE ....so if I live to see the day, run it or not.IAM GOING TO FINISH THE MARATHON!! Keep me reminded my hebrewist brothas from the local hood..KEEP ME REMINDED PLZZZZZZZZZZZ :-)

back to hood talk, U KNOW THE WEST 23RD PJ'S STAY RECOVERED. My game lookin nifty grand theft I keep it thrifty into heaven god one day lifty im sonning that rookie call himself 50 have em weepin done did him wifty. IM ILLEST. HAD 5 VIEWS OF WRITING TODAY . u already all star 5 line up right here....my youthful favorite player scottie pippen SON PLAY BALL!!?!?? Boy i been missing out!!! pippen was 6'7 225 came out of central arkansas...to rise to that skill level..farmer boy u know HE GOT RESPECT!!! MY LONG TERM MEMORY STILL ON POINT!

oh yeh. i saw a ground label that said something do as you live or do as you claim or someshit...anyhow my word is my ballz true namean and i would dp without ANY BUt ok oops darn ill write rest later i fell asleep didnt sleep enough last night take care FAWKZZZZZZZZZq@!

All these narcissism emails zoobie captain zuquacker@!! why am i getting harassed like this :( But as I've said I've done CRAZY instances of suffering in life. and for 3-4 months with nastya I'd kick 60 mg methadone cold turkey again. Let me tell you, that kind of withdrawal high dose IS VICIOUS. But anyhow, away from imaginatively proposed romance etc. This whole dressing like chick becoming lady-like creature I'd be all about giving it a test drive. if my pops didn't kill me for it, would be alright. anyhow away from this wild romance chat...darn i forgot what i intended to bring up next...my pooooooooor mind ...whats left o f it loookin gee gollllyyyyyyyyyyyyyy griiiiiiiiiiiimmmmmmmmmmmm geee golly

Who iLLer! :-) I make sick look healthy getting that pussy without being too wealthy. I stay ridin'!!!!!!!

"Awkward". I've suffered atleast ATLEAST 90% of my life. I fucking shit you not. I know people exagerate for compliment/attention etc. But I kid you, NOT AT ALL. I've SUFFERED atleast 90% of my life. That on top of my physique....that in combination equates to Awkward. All in all, I don't see those equating to man. I'm a lady , and you know what I'm about you can take what I dish out...so on....*FRIENDLY GRIN*. I think I'll sit around in company of my black brothers before I try to sleep again. Awkward, man. Awkward folks in the night...exchanging glances...nah forget glances your romantic of a bum is trtying for a cigarette....YIKES, I got a bottle of water in exchange :/ Oh yeah, looks be tom cruise. Charisma Tom Jones... The combo of the two, to which my son stay true, top of his harvard Crew, Zuckerberg he flew. YEH, the antonys of which..Me and OG David allen coe. Guy might have done racist song...but he spent half his life in prison. I'm sure you could forgive. And me, im the opposite of the word racist. How much I favor black folks!! Scary kruger or not...i've spent most of my life admiring the man in the mirror. No way I could've been hallucinating every moment of every day , I see stunning looks....so antonym is pushing it...ATLEAST IN MY EYES!!

oh right, my bad. i think ive been a lady trapped in a males body allllll my life so im going to start working on a m2f change hopefully get it atleast somewhat complete before my life is over. OH YEH MY SWEETIE ZOOBIE ZUCKERIE PRINCE AND SAVIOUR I HOPE U WILL ASK FOR MY HAND IN MARRIAGE ONCE IM ROCKIN FANCY WIG TIGHT PANT JOINTS AND NAIL POLISH...NAMEAN MY NIGGA I AINT GONA LIE THO SON SO WHATS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. ok sorry zuckiepoo had me excited textually a moment there. k night fawkz.

My jewish brotherhood..once again clarifying. As far as pops allowing my anti-semite "rap song". The man instigated my suffering practically enforced my suffering etc etc. Most of my life. Anyone think that playing on his concious or guilt or whatever will have him give up money or information or whatever all i can say is LOL U GOT ANOTHER ONE COMING. as far as me writing such harsh material it was just creatively translating text. Text been ATLEAST 65 PERCENT OF MY LIFE for many MANY long years on end...if there was anything anti-semitic coming from me or even thinking something like "oh god people will see this i should be careful" i would have "played it differently" I HAVE BEEN VERY AND I DO SAY VERY COMFORTABLE WITH JEWISH PEOPLE ALL MY LIFE. i THOUGHT IT AS NOTHIN WRONG TO WRITING ANYTHING ALONG THE LINES OF MY 'RAP JOINT'. I WAS A CHILD (DUE TO BRAIN DAMAGE) AND THOUGHT OF NOTHING AS POSSIBLE CONSEQUENTIAL TO ME/FOR ME OR JEWISH FOLKS OR ANYONE EVEN CLOSE TO. NOW IM TIRED OF EXPLAINING WHAT SHOULD BE OBVIOUS NOW TO A RAP LINE "I AINT GONNA LIE THO SON" there was several people who read my blog and knew the passage written on it for years on end AND NOT ONCE DID A PERSON SAY TO ME " HEY YOU SHOULD DELETE THIS " IN PARTICULAR PSEUDONYM GRIMREAP A JEWISH MAN SO CALLED JEWISH I GUESS FUCKING JERK OFF THOUGHT ME LEAVING THIS ON MY BLOG WILL GET HIM A BLOWJOB FROM ME OR SOMESHIT DUE TO A PEDOPHILE VIDEO RECORDING OF ME. TURNS OUT HAD THAT PEDOPHILE JERK OFF REAL HOT. SO HE NEVER ONCE COMMENTED ON THE MATERIAL STAYING ON MY BLOG FOR YEARS UPON YEARS ON END..aight this pedophile provoked anti-semite rap track staying on my blog etc etc....Rabbi, lets be serious now my older gentleman u see the picture perfectly clear now. nothing more to explain. As far as my father being aroused by disgusting pedo-recording of me being practically raped...as AHEM MY FELLOW RAPPER NAS SAID "PUT IT TOGETHER I ROCK HOES YALL ROCK FELLAS". Good night from your favorite shlemazel. nite folks. ;*( or even :) shit, good god. or something....ttyl.