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 Junk let me maintain composure as a junkie. Nastya let me maintain composure as a man. (As far as it being vice versa....save your psych 101 analysis for whoever man. Ain't reality. junk had me as homoed out as it gets.) Despite all about me. Am I going to betray that to stay alive? Or to stay out of prison? Or whichever....whatever man. The way I've suffered in life...I can CLEARLY imagine suffering. acknowledging what's going to happen vividly. It's awful. What's now...how could I be with a WOMAN ever again and look her straight in the eyes. Well, that's...that's that. A hermaphrodite with downs syndrome that's in another ball park. I was never big on baseball. I just pray she's gotten a hold of herself. And my father won'r have anything done to her. That's all I ask of him. Otherwise, who ever he is...kgb or mafia or jewish or whatever... I had no idea. What's been of me as a result of his identity. OH WELL. I hope he don't go to hell. Him in his position and me positioned as I...obviously a serious consequence is going to happen to me not him. OH WELL AGAIN. I'm 40 with my physique, heavily against wigs. Looks like I'll be awake tonight..ha. My man muhammad talkin question or questions or whatever...yo my man Ive heard jokes like "I became muslim in prison to not get turned out" and then with his joke. He ain't nothin but a fucking joke. I'm just sick in humor I'm sick as humor. Atleast no tumor. What's of rumor now...sorry I'm emotionally retarded don't understand. And general conversation...I was involuntarily ignoring it. Whatever clue or insult provided/given...wasn't heard. ya heard. Sorry jorry shinefelt. Well, I'm sorry. Look like "crackhead" shine, felt. shyne rapper shyne i forgot what happened to him...dead though. So shining don't get you far it looks like. This is heaven as I defined it. Unless I'm already in heaven...dead. Take care. Oh yeah..Sarah weiss hopefully you found a man who aint emotionally retarded so he can retard himself into your emotions. retard into...not retard your.