I foolishly always give/let borrow drug addicts money in high hopes I find a decent one who returns the favor. all these years of stress. Ive not found such man. Life grew onto the american idiot blind idiocy...I SHIT U NOT AFTER SO MANY YEARS UNCONTROLLED JUVENILE DIABETIC MY EYE VISION STILL FLAWLESS.

acronym of the man ...the heroically esoteric man anonymous nigga. t-h-e-m-a-n. rehabilitated or whatever how easy i pass on crack etc (ALWAYS BEEN). lets be real, as far as dope... its me not passing on like feeling like any other person gets to feel in society. all the years in hard drug use ive never gotten addicted to crack. you SHOW ME A SINGLE PERSON WHO COULD SAY THE SAY OF THEM. done typing, neck hurts

but they also know that this praise can be taken away at any moment. So, while the parents are manipulating the kids to be what they want, the kids learn to manipulate their parents to get the praise they crave because they're not getting real love. They do this by lying, whining, blaming others, and so on. With me? 100% opposite of that. me getting kicked out of this shelter? its aight shorty get dicked in out i felt her. fuck u talkin bout im done rap

seizure by them < last night. but....ON A MORE SERIOUS NOTE, maintain composure... play with a girls feelings? This girl has a family of women, I have serious brain damage caused by comas, brain hemorhage and MORE. so me playing with feelings? Only ones I play with is my ruined ones . she's all i ever had...i cried before first time we ever made love amongst other of which lovingly awkward moments. The life I've had....all in all. Well, I just dont know how to say no to a fellow (human being?). Gave away a cigarette to ponchik, sorry bus down this time....its a hard knock life. i ALWAYS give away cigs when I'll have enough to smoke in the near future. marcy marc...an ircer using the nick of "pervert" used to most commonly say "Nice face". So I say to you, nice face :-) ok ok Sickly P is done with morning rant. I'll ttyl. type to you later.

what ive withstood music as the bard true im sick and im tard. what i've done. (had 2 more done's. forgot moments from typing. my.

young lady here that just gave birth recently woke me up today and touched my face. i was stunned. person trying to change my gmail pw. person working here. no person implanted spyware on the computer here obviously. oh boy, scum. take care. she called me papa too. her pretty self. yikes. ok

This young guy ... woke up mid night he was jerking off they claimed i was caught jerking off and next day him and I get discharged. WHILE I ACTUALLY DID CATCH THIS BLACK DEWD AND I COMITTED TO NO SUCH HEINOUS ACT OF PRIVILEGE. PFSF. PRIVELEGE FOR SELECT FEW. PAVEL FOR SIMPLY FRAIL. ACRONYMOUS CHANGE . OK IM GOING TO GO TALK TO MYSELF AND IF THEY KICK ME OUT IM STUCK GETTING BLOOD SUGAR TO DANGER HIGH LEVELS GOING TO ER TO GET ADMITTED TO SLEEP WHICH MEANS ONLY SO LONG TILL 2ND STROKE AND FURTHER KIDNEY DAMAGE. OH BOY, IM THE MESSIAH IT GOTS TO BE oh yeh...i was 100% sober without suboxone for roughly 12 hours and said to myself ok thats it nothing now etc...no replacement therapy ie: suboxone/methadone etc again. but at like 9 am they got me feelin it again so they fucked me out of it. thats my word zuckerberg if they block off all feeling of substance im done. people been kind first time in my life and i got will power as opposed to other addicts.... but all in all where i stand today i dont think even my word makes a difference in the grand scheme of things. #2 in my life with all...oh well i said no more pussy so id have to rely on dick but i aint too big BUT IAM TOO BIG TO SELL MYSELF. NOT ONCE YET AND NEVER PERIOD. then again as a "fab" gentleman referred to me as michael jackson..my features plus DOOM OF AGE INVOLVED ASIDE THOSE INVOLVED WHO HOLD SENTIMENT CLOSE TO HEART who would pay ok gay officers just walked in im done ttttttttttyping now to jews that still let me live thanks but to the lawyer reppin my case (god knows what im fighting) atleast tom cruise knows which one of us got THE bigger dick. top gun soundtrack alright but my shit too big to play bottom gunner ok thats that

the day has come. i want to see a perverted video that was made of me at 15. no suffering involved ive suffered 90% of my life I SHIT U NOT MY NIGGA(rich kids get money related stuff with all that hypnosis involved shit/fancy therapists I LIVED A BUM 95% OF MY LIFE LITERALLY A BUM AND AINT SHIT COOL BOUT IT I JUST MET NASTYA IN THE MIDST OF THE AGES PHEW) as long as poor kids get to watch it and are told "this is what happens to you" when you use drugs. my medical stats/photo of me today etc. away from me defining romance with my life of suffering. doesn't take away from suffering inducing hall oh boy darn im not in a coffeeish mood today. DARN! oh yeh my bad "freak of nature my stature kept ya hearts and i rapped ya"

LOS AMECANOS ONE LIKE MINE IT GOD BODY ANOS. TIME FOR A MORNING STROLL WHATS UP PACINO ;-O

Death ain't a consequence it's the result there of. Pray it don't follow there after.

I'm running america. Nah, I been running since the day I was born. I'm done running. Okay okay, maybe just one more jog. Oddly my feet still on the uppity up. Upcoming marathon. But today is Oct, 9th, 2024. Take care.

I was walking back home when hearing a female CHILD say "pavel geller" which was my name...man im moving to antarctica or the zoo if country president dont like addicts. for a female to use my name in her mouth period is absurd... (next most absurd to me saying no to a high priced escort girl in a whorehouse). yeh so what mr. rosenthal you got a girl you love and i got nothing but disgusting habits cause politics dont afford me the one i love then again bro i dont know if im in place to use the word love after our sexperiences. she never once used moans or groans or whatever with size of my man shaft. and just you know, the whole persona ive developed in my mind the whole nine the whole thing...it'd be a strain with guys. text ends.

As far as...jewish people punishing me, i aint no anti-semite. as far as distant childhood land lord david weiss when/if they do....ill never resent u u are a man of character. gay people, something out of hand said by me...randomly further in brain damage in my "The Bet" spot....you punish me resulting from...that is satan. on your behalf. I'll just frown quietly and pray for america in general. well that's all folks, even resulting from something pops did to me ages back. jewish people doing pain to me...that's just hurt human physique couldn't provide if it tried it's darn best. take care folks. RnB going on. gonna go listen.

black folks. great people. I prefer their company so much to that of those average white men. I can spend my average day on every day circumstance in peace...relaxed. although the stress of current situation is DARN OBSCENE. it helps so much...they are wonderful. im going to spend rest of my night making crazy comments to myself as usual sitting around in their WONDERFUL PRESENCE tonight and enjoy rest of evening. I hold them in my prayers. jay-z murdered pac without a diss track on the me and girlfriend. rest in peace pac, i loved you.

Got some money today. But even with money...I give back what I owe before I spend a single dollar, usually a little extra toppin what I owe. I think about "THE RIGHT THING" before "FEELING GOOD". Displaying character means more to me than getting off EVERY MOTHERFUCKING DAY. James tonight on a double I remember james pops of my little precious princess of kayla i once told my man "Im a man of moral values and ethical standards". Boy gee golly, Life got me framed! Poster frames morality tames! its 2am, i cant sleep. sigh.

as far as doestoevskian moment ..virgin boy saint...in my experience of never heard of sympathy was for a kitten never another human. all in all what humanity did to me how could i really sympathise with a person between the two though its only possible for the male. all that family disaster shit nobody goin to help you via friendship anyway...but men...JUST KNOWING U GOT MAN IN YOU...boy it had me in .."just stunned". (not mildly exaggerating the self. not related to self.)