A pleasant childhood and nastya only two things positive I can look back in. (Of influence >IN PERSON< As far as nastya...be it my father or the UN all in all it dont matter I got a concious so I cant play into that one. And family, looking back on the beauty of yestrday dont change how ugly today is. That's why I am where I'm comfortable. around my black people. But even tho Im all ball and rap...picture a guy like me around the black gay through out my life....shit...that's a new take on independent film that even pedro almodovar couldn't write. Black culture care about the cripple. I ain't crippin but look like I'm all C. I've no doubt in your can, but that's a C that rides "above the premises". Oh yeah...aside from ahead of my mother I hope I'm afforded...by "you guys" or by god or a "50 / 50" (50% mortality rate hemmorhage / 50 cent ) to survive a lil while. ofcourse when you add those 2 together YOU GET THE WHOLE BUCK