if they dont force drugs on me im going to buy this "lady with the dog" flowers. she's my chekhov counterpart .. i was character in short story "the bet". ive grown a pretty big head over the years ive shown well read over the years im done with drugs hopefully they let me stay away and live awhile.

 if they dont force drugs on me im going to buy this "lady with the dog" flowers. she's my chekhov counterpart .. i was character in short story "the bet". ive grown a pretty big head over the years ive shown well read over the years im done with drugs hopefully they let me stay away and live awhile. YOU SENT TO ANALYZE THE REMAINS ...u know pavel had his pains. her not knowing herself? what about me..did I? discipline didnt raise me to knowing basically time blowing. as far as jewish woman comin to psych to tell me theyre gay, i'm  sorry for my remarks. and I'm also sorry ror saying "any man who wants to outlive his dick is a coward". just frustration talking. life left me that way . I admire friendly. the only time i saw eye to eye in a man in as long as i can remember was when a black doctor from nigeria told me "russia huh? and my childhood was in nigeria. thats not abuse thats discipline." i laughed in his face. cause there wasnt shit to talk about. my now at 40, i see it catches up with age. what are the chances of a guy lookin like me has a head on his shoulders...ok childhood was exchanged for school. im not biologically related. i guess my father came to terms with fact he wanted my younger brother to do better than me. so he fucked me. my brother called me a realist. there's your fucking reality, rabbi. excuse my language. then as kids me and bro learning to play piano it was coming along pretty easy for me, without discipline. my pops had me quit that too. then as a grown up this asshole thought what? imma flip frustration raised a MAN and become a homo? you fucking shitting me. i mean shit the way my life had been up to the point when i met shaindy eckstein...how could i have worked out everything for her. she was a real close friend who i spent daily hours chatting online with. cause i like reading writing brb