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 I can quit anytime I want really. I can't stand talkin to people writing is one thing but Talkin chill I'm straight n at this point of life ah wat can I tell ya. hope my brother brings me a good book for my bday . vox Nicholson baker that was TODAYS CLASSIC.  I'll b dead before words I'm gay ever come out my mouth u ok with that we cool it took a lot of work to come to this it'll take some to walk away from the tier top moment I say I'm done smoking I find a cigarette under blanket oh well I have to grasp within reason belated considerations have to vastly reconsider I lived my life getting high for the sake of being straight ill die sober for that same sake as well. problem is what will be in-between at the remainders I have to "vastly reconsider". away from philosophy in life I know who IAM  attached to text so who got next