"The death of ivan ilyitch" by leonin tolstoy

 its when a rich man gets real sick is dying and realizes his only friend is his house maid, a male ofcourse. what if the bum gets sick and realizes his only friend is the rich one the people hes been afforded the right to shit over. i exagerate sayin shit on but come on now its for the sake of WIT IN ROMANCE! :-F do you believe in upholding sanity there is love after life.  piddle who i got the stamina a lion spammin ya. spam not scam i dont scam. life GREW ME INTO a over-active concious on the face of this earth or on THE EARTH OF MY FACE.  ;( hope u guys dont kill noone cant paint a saint spiritually black what color goes on such darkened spirit there is your LOGICAL PROCESS IN PHILOSOPHY EFNET NAMEAN  my poor mind cant talk cant find my way good lord the DAYS ARE DARK lol :( what have i grown to be then again i havent done any growing since i was like 10 and i WAS BORN with my big head further REASONING ...for...for...my...me...or just myself. GEE YOU PHILOSOPHERS "im just me" - jessica "can i get a bogie" - muhammad my close by philosophers lol muhammad tryin a intense philosophy ON  me good lord and the lady with the dog GOOD LORD WHO MY DAUGHTER THINK SHE IS  im just talkin after a week with one nights sleep therein. therein is one word, no? so with your western philosophy is amIin? new word, amIin in that respect for i definition of snitch on my own aint in shitter I AINT A QUITTER as i said gentleman to my left in car theft. thanks for no lighter hassle i DO NOT smoke in my room anymore EVER ersiously its an alarm now impossible

im sickedy ill gently still nicest you feel i keep it on real

 you are my gun rhyme my only gun rhyme you make me happy when guns spray. fuck the sunshine nigga i drink red wine nigga deeply sighin nigga return to top im tryin nigga . im humble i hand all i stumble i sent all im bumble i bent all i rumble i rent all i mumble i meant all. IAM THE OPPOSITE OF NARCISSIST FUCK U WHOEVER MADE PARCISSUS REMARK when life gets to you in my house to 61-27 186st my house atm I HAVE THE WHITE HOUSE WEARING A BLOUSE try to put me in forensic psych they fila im wearing nike when you're reading/writing hours a day everyday obsessively they called it chatting nah wording my life more like it. oh well IM EXPRESSING IN RAP SUPRESSING AND I TAP IF ITS DEPRESSING I NAP.  im not too proud to fuck hockey i puck bullets i duck tits i tuck who said im shmuck lunch and marijuana time! back from my healthy walk :-) after-> the ssaint paints . he only paints though ..otherwise "itd be hard." trump tried to land me in the forensic psych for life i had two ppl a psychologist and a social worker tell me i'd get it if i took isanity plea. but...given all. i dont know if i should smile. SOMEONE TELL ME and look what they brushed upon me "black like me" by john howard griffin i can see 40 book titles at once hyperlexic years i look was looking at 2 shelfs 3 sections deep and i saw this one almost instantly maybe i was yearing for comfort of black folks. just a hypergraphic view on cast away...-> whats the cause of the applause of i close off its too soft for the ...ahem qwell im sure of myself im full of that one what if you switch places of myself and that one . not soundin antonym pacino ok

I tell you one thing for a FACT. parcissus my ass im humble

 when my friends all had " a dick 6 inches big " I never commented on mines. LITERALLY NEVER. I never looked up average size never looked up small dicks on the internet or photos of. I did post a nude video once in later life. I'm sure of myself. Ever since a child, I've NEVER had to impress anyone. or is it I've never FELT THE NEED to impress because mother never showed me much love. no intimate moments. thus I've never had to gain it elsewhere. rap or philosophy call it what u "faggot niggaz" will ...namean tyra i dont want no autograph but u could be 80 and i'd still stay sober 6months straight to drool on your rack. your image makes me forever a 98 teen. 97 bonnie and clyde huh, me and my fantasy , i'm 98. so ms. banks holla atcha boy! (im sorry if kramer from seinfeld feels that way about me, what can i say..  life aint perfect" I respected my father so like father like son. i like boyish girls who dont wear make up. man with vaginas. if young tom cruise had a pussy I'd do halloween for hollywood. that would be GOD. not messiah not moyshuh. mwahSHUSH. i'd be MWAshushing . my mother quite a man so i suppose its my pops preference to. though we're not biologically related he's all i know. been there my whole life. zuckerberg, where my..mask....oh wait, I'm Parcissus..sorry. Harvard or HARDWORD . i got my word and my hypogonads i dont break em for nobody.  the beautys nipples become erect with the cripples impact they say swallow your pride i dont swallow i spit ;-) oh yeah psychology for you i dont find breasts something I can get into cause i wasnt breast fed. breasts are attractive though I LIVE TODAY THINK ABOUT YESTRDAY THINK INTO TOMORROW NO PAY IN MY PLAY LIFE FULL OF SORROW romanticism did a number on me what can i tell ya. 130 pounds thin you rate 130 rounds in you hate i would never claim to be no al pacino he bright and shiny my lights is dim though then again it aint 1983(scarface release) anymore for him! it will ALWAYS be 1983 for me, year i was born. I must in mustard I crust in custard on scarface.."sometimes romantic requires wrong im frantic in my song" - pavel "pasha" geller. pasha is russian way of saying pauly if a man is gay and you repeat 'youre gay' towards him arent you creating a philosophical antonym. satan im berating im playing you hating you purse im finance you nurse try my stance you curse i freelance reimburse whats THE chance. you taint when i paint im a saint it rained halloween gifts are welcome to scary kruger over here

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 i come at ya rock hard leavin ya soft bullets drop low leave ya body in loft i tame ya attention of the game got sanction on the mic im a beast the infection is yeast im at the top thats to say least ya swallow my jizz vocal my feast im like a grizzly at the horse stable my son u a pony in mommys fable! who nicer, fabolous could have my lyrics hehe he was nice enough to visit me in rikers i plead the fifth why lie through my teeth when we'll settle the beef after im done smokin the leaf my woman talkin like she like em soggy got me feelin type foggy im one with big smokin the nuggy. well, children, its time for breakfast. <- 6:05 am 10/31  my day baby halloween. "Scary Kruger" like a man here called me. well who else know dostoevsky that chat im from st petersburg nevski pruh-spekt. (neighborhood in leningrad now st petersburg) i got a phd in linguistics the c and k in that pronounciation a life time of worthless reading but i understand the sounds too. the sound of that loving feeling. i only read about 250 pages of "The Idiot"(doestoevsky) and the one memorable moment is where the book hero saintly prince myshkin who was a virgin..turns out he has only kissed one woman, and that was only out of sympathy. id like to say i kissed her out of sympathy(tho aint a virgin) but a ukrainian wise gal...sympathy..jew lookin big head nigga with pencil , im doestoevskys anti-hero. All too often we admire our anti-hero thats why tho he'll never admit it. but my pops admires me niggas wana do me kevorkianesque they talkin nothin but rhetorical "facts". facts of the trial crack smokin meanwhile rack size is on file stack roof built on tile im talkin kilo's em stuck on mile who nice I would have rather been a virgin than have a homosexual fan club though. Atleast then tom cruise's autograph would be worth more than tyra banks swimsuit. (hollywood would you if i did could you, just small talk on that one) as I told alexis impagliazzo i dont do small talk

From the white house to new york.

 I guess my father knew I'd rather die in essence a romantic than live a dime a dozen bum. The legendary Parcissus. Yours truly. :*( Sometimes its those we're around that bring about the pain within starts to seem like we're hell bound without too many a sin. I had a childhood friend whos father once told him "if i find out you're gay I'll kill you." The man was a genius with his hands, he did diamonds for work and was great playing guitar but chances are he was gay. I'm saint over perverse rockin nike over converse And "ITS A MANS YOUTH WHICH DEFINE SOMETIMES THE BLUES WILL CONFINE." There is one nation-wide respected man in russia whos notoriously gay and he is allowed fame because this dude was BORN IN PRISON. so that gangsta i did 20 in attica shit, he make that look weak. I might not have been born in prison but my birth-survival is a miracle I had pre-natal hydrocephalus which means my skull filled up with liquid before it was done forming. Hence the size of my head. They put a shunt in my head. Saved my life. My mother being..um..not the most attractive woman alive when she saw this freak of nature I guess she was in love with a baby. She adopted me. I found out at 33 we're not biologically related. I nip tuck and state luck its late god i wrote my fate top poet they rate to say I'm brilliant is to underrate take care mate I'm lyrically related to you folks. Have a good night. Okay.

Defined.

 As my lyrics define romance refine cast away confine my son cosign im s heart warming individual its storming residual heaven defining hell seven deciding sell im leavin ya verbal residue herbal resin true WHY THE SYSTEM WANT TO DO ME DIRTY ALL IM GUILTY OF IS TYPING QWERTY. your beloved chat savant marcy marc I KEEP IT HOOD RAT THO AINT NO SNITCH I BLAST THE GO GAT I AINT NO BITCH NAMEAN ...rat boy forever in your hearts@! who done it iller "whom everybody speaks well of, and nobody cares about ..whom all are delighted to see, and nobody remembers to talk to." - Jane Austen in book "Sense and sensibility" My current read. On reading, the GREATEST AMERICAN BOOK OF ALL TIME... "On The Road" by Jack Kerouac . you my only viewer of this page PLEASE my dear! do yourself a favor and read on the road. alcoholic car-hoppin bus takin travelin across america in beautiful adventure. it is written so ...ugh. TEXTISMA. charisma in text much like yours truly. I love text. I'm hyperlexic hypergraphic. me without black is like richard pryor without crack it may sound fancy but it don't make the G's stack I got into a political situation with my philosophical elevation in my american nation

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 explosive association manipulating the associated . wit a "romantic interpretatio " -> I guess I couldnt betray my mothers comfort for the comfort of the moment with her. Later in her estrogen-affected in life did she feel the romance. My pops was willing to sacrifice his life for mine, I guess he >saw the romance< of my life as a whole. I DONT PAY AIRLINES WITH THE SKIRMISH FINES SKIRMISH defition "any brisk conflict or encounter:". brisk drinks thinks winks. a drink takes away stress of defining socially. even if i could talk i dont drink. have to have positive outlook from all perspectives. but seriously mr zuckerberg you might be spoiled but regardless of what spin u take on my sin...who u know thats had a more >romantic< romantic life. how u gona downplay a hollywood act replay HAR i dont want fame or money ive gotten what a man desires most. so mr pacino who u have, scarring godfather kevorkian. a man with a pussy its dollar to ill fame in soul. its a so darn pretty you turnin me out GEEZER WHEN TOM HANKS GOT SERVED SEA FOOD AFTER ALL THAT TIME SURROUNDED BY WATER ALONE ON AN ISLAND. . I WAS ALONE READING AND WRITING HALF MY LIFE AND NOW IM SERVING VERSES. (being served punishment for one of my rap joints) serving punishment in all my astonishment "words can be great or even worse they can teach hate" - Young slim shady when youre delusional off your fucking psych meds living a life of text and you mimic a russian artist in american counterpart. REMEMBER PSYCH ILL MIMICING. not looking down on anyone. *GRIN* i testify i tested high. i was so bent out of shape on drugs mind you its ridicolous. i don't mean to ridicule the situation hope serve me the right to live american nation. zuckerberg i know u aint a rabbi but im sayin tho, ease up! some sociopath bastard kill me away in passage i know u feel me as written in passage Then reality of it is this, I was playing on the feelings of gay men to maintain composure as a junkie I was playing my heart stating I love her.

its timely not to exceed better timing/=

..  i dont see color i see soul so holla know ya role. I"m more comfortable in black crowds, per se where i live. i can sit around downstairs here babbling the occasional verse in a white joint id probably stay in my room thinkin about drugs. so thank you my people for keeping me away from heavy drug use. and gay or not black women here are hot so id be hetero-tempted.  I've had an "eccentric and odd" life style to this day forgive me ever getting repeatin n shit  between a 40yr old virgin successful writer and this hassle im livin, ill go with hassle ANY DAY OF THE WEEK. ok my brothas and sisters have a nice day! one aspired they inspired obviously with me it aint required im lustful yet passive trustful yet massive IT LIMITS THE WINDOW IVE COMITTED MY SIN THOUGH im offbeat on heat leave pun beat obama i meet  STALKING OUT THE CORNER ADJOURN HER CAME HER DAY THAT I BORN HER SHE HOT SO I PORN HER ADORE LADY BLACK ITS LIKE I ADORN HER in midland beach with almost all white folk boy itd be.."hasslesome". staten island oh boy troubling days for a white boy amongst his middle class fanboy residents IM GRUESOME STAY ONE WITH CLUE SOME i lost it and snapped i host it you clapped. boy life in forensic psych would have turned me into a robot. reading all day with the occasional remark to the man on  the side. im calm cool and collected their placing me is nonsense IM RHYMIN ABOUT YOU A DIAMOND NO DOUBT VERSES IS LOUD IN THE RIGHT CROWD fuck these bastards goin to do arrest me sick and dope dealer aint synonymous they can take their christmas wish home with them 5-0. pfft i know i can whats the question of may where the winter tan with no pay god forbid never turn pale i dont drink though i aint stale "without distinctive, interesting, or stimulating qualities; vapid:" definition of "insipid". me? never that never overstep boundaries i smoke pound trees good night bed time 10:07 10/26/2023 ohyea forgot one GRIDDY GOOFY I STARE IF THE SHOE FITS I WEAR IT now ok night ok last one the word respect mutual its packed i suspect that you know it its fact night

filter - hey man nice shot

 "I wish I would've met you

Now it's a little late
What you could've taught me
I could've saved some face": 

no gun shot with me though. speedball overdose.

to marc zuckerberg:

I wish you wouldve met me

now its a little late

what you couldve TOLD me

could've saved me some FATE

bye

Then when I came to rykers at 33 in 2017 this CO my son was like you were a herb. im thinkin 'lol this nigga a 30 yr old virgin workin his chump change job and he uses the word herb. real fucking winner gona die a virgin.' heh

 and this is why i hate white neighborhoods where people have ANY money. every day at the fucking train station you had teenagers filming videos of me  one woman i know said to me smiling "oh  paul, there isnt a teenager in staten island who doesn't have a video of you in their phone." man WHERE IM FROM  lil odessa brighton beach the kids wouldnt even look at me.PARENTS NEED TO RAISE THEIR KIDS A LIL BETTER. obscene then i remember before disaster struck i came out for a walk once and about 6-8 blocks were full of people , people who came to meet me. The imfamous Sickly P(r.i.p).

IM SLIM I AINT SHADY 

IM TOM I AINT BRADY

CRUISE ROCKIN A WIG 

COULD BE MY LADY

:-O

truth

 it aint about black or white dark or light joy or spite short or height wrong or right loose or tight fat or diet chew or bite die i might who done it iller . nah CRIME IS ONLY GOOD IN FICTION AS IS ADDICTION. btw. My name is pavel and I'm an addict.